I wish I could understand why the mere thought of you being hurt makes my blood churn and my heart thump wildly. But most of all I wish I knew how I could make you love me as I loved you. Did I ever tell you my wish, as I blew the candle on my birthday cake that year, was to have you? James reflects on his first date with Lily which goes horribly wrong. Beautiful banner made by the talented Midnight_Cityscape. Thanks gorgeous!