I’m the best friend.
Overlooked, overshadowed, undervalued.
The homework helper, the girl advice, the listener.
I help solve their problems.
But when it comes to mine, it can never be the other way round.
Maybe it doesn’t occur to them that I have issues too, or perhaps they aren’t bothered about my life.
I highly suspect the latter option to be the correct one.

She stared at me, concern etched into her orderly expression. I hated every minute of that stare. All the teachers knew and I despised it. I loathed that they were reacting like this. As though I couldn’t take care of myself. As though I was being eaten up inside because of what happened. The thing I hated most though was that they were right.
I was.

It’s funny, they can get rid of the hole in my stomach but they can’t banish the one in my heart. I was once the happiest person in the world and it’s all fallen away. Everything I had is lost. My life is crumbling around my head and I can’t reach the broken pieces. I have no glue. I can’t put it back together again.

Lily stared at her reflection in the mirror. She could see fat everywhere on her body. On her thighs, her arms, her hips. Everything her sister said to her over the summer seemed to be replaying inside her head until she thought she would scream. She hated her sister for hating her, she hated the world for making her a witch and she hated herself because she couldn’t stop.

You and Gloria have the most friction. You fight like an old married couple.”
There was a short pause.
“It doesn’t help that you fancy her either.” Lily added as an after thought. Sirius spluttered as Lily yanked the map from his hands and started towards the portrait hole.
“She’s right you know.” Said James before following her. 
 Sirius keeled over dramatically on the couch and proceeded to roll onto the stone floor.There was a long silenence. 
"Owww." Said Sirius' voice from the floor.

I sighed remembering how, a few weeks ago, I was in such a hurry to leave this place. And now, so soon after my desired escape, I was back again. Stuck right here in this place where everything was different but the same. At Hogwarts, my life was kind of the same. The everyday stuff hadn’t changed. Here though, the changes echoed through the house constantly and looking at the pictures of my mothers face, I couldn’t hide from it.

She was hungry and tired and scared.

 

But she would think about it later. She would take things one step at a time instead of letting it overwhelm her. That, she realized was her problem. She felt too much at once.

 

She loved too hard. She grieved dangerously.

 

A chapter that proves, no matter what sticky situation fate lands you in, Sirius Black will always manage to make it a hundred thousand times worse. With the very best of intentions of course......