So she pretends she doesn't care, hoping she can make it through the day full of pain that no one can see. And at night, all she can do is think of what she will never be. When she finally falls asleep she dreams of him, his beautiful smile and the way he makes her laugh. This is the only time she is truly happy because in her dreams they're not just friends, he loves her back. She wakes back up and knows she has face reality. He doesn't love her. The dream is just a cruel joke, played by the crushed heart he doesn't even know he broke.