People change, and so did Lilia, shes years out of Hogwarts, but hasn't seen any of her friends in ages. And she blames that on no one but herself. But now that she's joined the Order she has to remeet all the people in it, the people that she tried so hard to hide herself and her feelings from.

"I sighed twirling my cup around watching the cold remains swoosh from side-to-side. My life was slowly healing, the wound in my heart taking years to close up. Still it wasn’t fully healed, every time I would remember my brothers, it brought tears back to my eyes. I could feel my eyes tearing up again..."

 

          "I tried not to look guilty and walked out the door and up the stairs, I felt guilty to lying about Lily. But something in my heart tore, life never leaves you, no matter what anyone says, the past is always a memory… "

I pulled my covers up around me, grabbing my wand and locking the door. I could hear Remus knocking on the door, but I didn’t care. No one not even Remus could make this better.

Just when I thought the pieces of the puzzle were coming back together, they were slowly starting to fall apart again. And the saddest thing was, that I was the puzzle…

"I twirled my wand around with me fingers, my need for a cup of warm coffee, finally kicking in. But I knew that if I went downstairs into the kitchen, it would be like venturing into the territory of hostile death eaters. Only in my case, the hostile death eaters would be my very hostile ex-friends. "

"Lilia sighed into the air tiredly, it was still morning but yet her brain seemed to be willing to fall asleep on her. More then anything in the world Lilia hated filing and Sirius Black- well maybe not so much, but she did despise the filing and everything that had to do with files in general. She got up and poured herself another cup of coffee, if she didn’t finish at least part of the file she didn’t know what she would do..."