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Rating
Mature
Chapters
34
Words
45,127
Characters
Dumbledore, Lupin, Snape, Sirius, Lily, James, Regulus, Pettigrew, Voldemort, OC
Primary Relationship
Secondary Relationship(s)
James/Lily, Remus/OC, Snape/OC
Genre(s)
Romance, Angst
Era
Marauders
Advisory
Strong Language, Strong Violence, Scenes of a Mild Sexual Nature
Story Reviews
285
Status
Work In Progress (WIP)
First Published
2005-10-19 11:27pm
Last Chapter
2009-04-02 7:58pm
Last Updated
2012-03-03 11:43am

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Ch. # Chapter Title Word Count Reviews
1 It's Been Awhile


This is not a fairy tale,” Snape began finally. “The only reason that I repeat this story at all is that I can’t bear to let Arianna’s story die. Be prepared, this is not a happy tale. This story will not leave you with a happy feeling. There is no happy ending….” (thanks to Double Decker for the gorgeous banner!!)  

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2 Since I Could Hold My Head Up High

Arianna Black walked through the barrier onto Platform 9 ¾ with her two brothers. Regulus immediately headed off towards his Slytherin friends but Arianna and Sirius walked together towards a compartment. She could tell that Sirius’s mood was improving with every step he took. He was back at school, he was back in his element now.

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3 since I first saw you

chap 3

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4 Since I Could Stand On My Own Two feet again

The next few weeks went by without much drama, thank God. Arianna had been keeping her eyes open for any of Sirius’s bullying on Snape. So far, Sirius had hexed him in the hallway and that was about it. Her brother was making progress.

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5 Since I Could Call You

As Arianna walked down to Potions the next day, she passed by Severus in the hallway. He met her eyes defiantly and Arianna could see the shadow of a black eye that he had unsuccessfully tried to magic away.

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6 Every thing I can't remember

Sirius deposited Arianna roughly in a chair in the common room and took one across from her. He stared at her as he took deep breaths. “Well?” he demanded. “Do you want to try and explain yourself?”
 
 

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7 As messed up as it may all seem

Sirius’s version of being nice to Snape was to ignore him, which wasn’t quite what Arianna had in mind, but it seemed to suit Severus just fine. He actually seemed happier these days now that Sirius was pretending he didn’t exist.

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8 Consequences that are rendered

“Well Sirius,” Dumbledore said taking a seat behind his desk and staring intently at him. “I suppose you have a reason to justify what you just did?”

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9 I’ve stretched myself beyond my means

Arianna had had a long day. Sirius and the rest of his friends had spent much of their day escorting her to and from her classes. They seemed bound and determined that she should never be without one of them, just in case Severus Snape showed up and she needed protection. It was almost like having bodyguards and it was getting rather annoying. They’d even gotten Lily to walk her to the bathroom.

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10 Since I could say that I wasn’t addicted

As Arianna finally took her seat in the Great Hall, dinner was practically over. “Hey Ari, where have you been?” James asked as she sat down and started putting food on her plate.

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11 Since I could say I love myself as well

She took a deep breath. “Snape gave it to me.” She said quickly and then rushed to explain. “I lied to you guys because I don’t want Sirius to get in more trouble. If he finds out that Snape is still picking on me, he won’t be happy. And you know how Sirius handles this, he would just go and try to beat on Snape some more. I thought it would be better if I just kept it to myself. Lying about Charms homework was the quickest thing I could come up with. I didn’t mean to drag you into this but somehow you did.”

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12 Since I’ve gone and messed things up just like I always do

She walked into the room and Severus looked up in surprise. “What? Didn’t think I would come?” Arianna asked, slightly cross at him already.

“The thought did cross my mind.” He replied, in a soft, calm voice.

She rolled my eyes. “So what now? You’re gonna make me shine your boots or what? Make me your slave for the night?” Arianna wasn’t going to humiliate herself for Severus’s pleasure. She had more pride than that. She was a Black for goodness's sake.

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13 All That Seems to Disappear When I'm With You

“Be nice to Remus.” Sirius said, looking over to her head to where Remus was standing talking to Lily and James.

“I’m always nice to Remus.” She protested, wondering what her brother was trying to get at.

“listen, Remus has been worrying about you all night, and I’m not really sure why. I mean, you were just in detention, right? How much trouble can you get in detention?” Sirius laughed and Arianna looked away quickly, it depended who you had detention with….

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14 Everything I can’t Remember

“Honestly Ari, you’re so naive.” He patted her head and she smacked his hand. “Don’t you know anything?” She smacked at him again.

“Children, no fighting in the hallway.” A cold voice said. They both turned and saw Snape standing there smirking. “Ten points from Gryffindor, apiece.”

Other than the fact that Sirius was now clenching his jaw, he gave no other indication that he had heard what Snape had said to them.

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15 Why Must I Feel This Way?

“So, isn’t this a curious twist.” Sirius said.“after all those lectures you gave me about leaving Snape alone and not picking on him, you pick a fight with him in the middle of the hallway.”

“He started it!” Arianna protested. “I was merely defending myself!”

“ And you immobilized me so that I couldn’t help you.” Sirius reminded.

“Ari was the one that stunned you?” James asked in surprised. “I thought old Snivellus got you.” He laughed.

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16 Just Make This Go Away

Because that kiss with Severus could ruin the slightly unsteady normality of her life. True, her life wasn’t exactly perfect, but it worked. If that kiss with Severus meant anything more than just an innocent kiss, all that normality was about to crash down upon her ears. For one thing, Sirius would kill Severus. Second, he would probably never speak to her again. And third, she would probably lose Remus as a friend.

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17 Just One More Peaceful Day

“Sirius please.” Arianna said, grabbing onto his arm. A lone tear splashed down her cheek. “Don’t. I don’t want everyone to find out about this. I just want to pretend that it never happened. I really don’t want anyone else to know. It was probably stupid to tell you but it was tearing me up to keep it a secret. Please, I’m asking you not to tell anyone. And not to kill Snape. Honestly, that’s what he wants, isn’t it? He wants you to get expelled. Please?”

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18 Since I Could Look at Myself Straight

“Is this seat taken?”

She looked up and her mouth dropped open a little and the quill fell from her hand. “Actually…yes.” She said, stumbling over her words. How had he found her here?

He smirked at her. “Somehow I don’t think that’s the truth.” He said lightly, “You know, I think this is the first time I’ve seen you alone all week. Dear old brother has been keeping a pretty tight watch on you, huh?”

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19 Since I Said I'm Sorry

“Well let me give you one little piece of advice Sev,” Lily said, turning around to face him. “If you don’t want Ari to hate you, you better start treating her as Arianna and not just as Sirius’s sister. Otherwise she’s never going to trust you.”

He just regarded her for a moment. “Once again Evans, you’re claiming to understand things that you know nothing about.” He told her and then walked away.

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20 Since I’ve Seen the Way the Candle Lights Your Face

“No, it’s okay, I’m just gonna walk around the grounds or something.” She protested.

“I wouldn’t let you do that alone even if you didn’t have Snape as a creepy stalker.” Sirius said and James snorted.

Arianna rolled her eyes. “He’s not a stalker.”

“Honestly Arianna, we see him eyeballing you all the time.” Peter piped in. She raised her eyebrows in disbelief. Sirius sighed and took her arm to guide her out the door.

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21 I Can Still Remember Just the Way You Taste

“Speaking of Snivellus,” James muttered, nodding to where Snape was standing.

Sirius just grinned. “He can’t do anything though, McGonagall is standing right there. I mean honestly, how stupid do you think he is?”

“Hey there Snape, having a good night?” Sirius asked pleasantly, snickering at his ‘cleverness’, knowing that Snape wouldn’t dare mouth off to him right in front of one of their teachers.

Snape however wasn’t even bothering to listen to Sirius’s taunts.

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22 You Did the Best You Could For Me

“Do what?” He asked innocently, pretending to examine the book full of passages that they were supposed to be copying down.

“Do what?! Lift me up in the middle of the hallway! Honestly, I haven’t even talked to you in days and you all of a sudden-” Arianna started ranting when she realized that Snape was just raising his eyebrows.

“Well that was kind of the point, wasn’t it?” He remarked. “You answered your own question.”

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23 I Think You Can Do Much Better Than Me

And Sirius? The thought of telling Sirius that she had kissed Severus again, and that this time she had liked it; that she liked Severus and that maybe she wanted more from him than just a few stolen kisses in an abandoned classroom, was laughable. Sirius would hate her and try to kill Snape.

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24 After All the Lies I Made You Believe

“Its….well it just might be the best for everyone if you hurried on up to bed now.” Lily said, making sure to keep her voice down. “I don’t think you’re going to like what they have to say to you.”

Arianna got slowly to her feet. “Okay, if you say so.” She paused for a second, trying to read the look on Lily’s face.

“Hold it right there, Arianna.” Sirius said from behind her. She froze and turned on the spot to look at him. Her brother looked furious.

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25 Guilt Kicks In and I Start To See

“Yeah, I get that. But why Snape? You’re not actually going to date him, are you? I thought you were going to date Remus?” Amanda pressed.

“Yeah, you should totally pick Remus.” Another of her friends piped in. “He’s way cuter.” They all giggled and looked over at him.

Arianna ground her teeth in frustration. “If you like him so much Kate, then you date him.” She said, irritated. She pushed her plate back and got up from the table. All of her friends just stared at her as she walked away.

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26 I Told Myself I Won't Miss You

She gave the crowd a feeble smile. She saw the whispers start.Sirius’s eyes met hers for the briefest of seconds before he turned away like he hadn’t seen her standing there. Arianna’s smile wobbled, threatening to fall.

Remus wasn’t looking her, he was purposely laughing too loudly at the jokes that James was telling loudly. Lily was looking at her feet. Peter was the only one who was looking at her, and he looked like he was laughing at her.

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27 But I Remember

“You got me, Ari! You out-pranked me!I bow down to the master of foolery.” He gave her a mock bow.

“What in Merlin’s name are you talking about?” She demanded. This was the first time that her brother had talked to her in two days and this was he saying to her? She couldn’t believe this was happening.

“Ari, honestly, the joke is up. You don’t have to pretend to like Snape anymore. He spilled everything this morning. Came right out and told me that you had just been using him in some trick to get back at me.”

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28 What It Feels Like Beside You

“Remus, I never meant to hurt you.” She said quietly. “I didn’t…still don’t actually, understand what’s going on. All my emotions are mixed up. I wanted to like you the way that you liked me.” She stumbled over her words, at least he was looking at her now. “I really wanted to like you. It’s not that I was trying to lead you on or give you false hope, I really was trying to convince myself that it was you that I wanted to be with. I wanted it to be you.” She whispered.

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29 I Really Miss Your Hair In My Face

“I’m going to tell you the same thing that I told my brother, let me fight my own battles.” She said calmly. Wasn’t it ironic that she had told both of them the same thing? “I’m perfectly capable of handling this on my own. It would help if you were there to support me, but I don’t need you to try and take things into your own hands and fix things.”

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30 The Way Your Innocence Tastes

“He wants to be your boyfriend though.” Severus went on.

“I thought you wanted to be my boyfriend.” She said quietly, looking away from him. He looked at her in surprise. They had never said that word before. “Whatever Sev, Remus is one of the few people who is trying to accept us. He may not like it, but he’s trying. Which is more than I can say for a lot of people. So instead of getting jealous over something that didn’t mean anything at all, you should be grateful to him.”

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31 I Think You Should Know This

"You’ve never said you’re sorry to me. All you said was for me to let it go.”
“Which I’m still hoping you’ll do.” He muttered. "C’mon Ari, Remus is crazy about you. He would do anything to be with you. Why do you want to hurt him so that you can be with Snape?”

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32 You Deserve Much Better Than Me

She smiled to herself as she thought about her day earlier. She had braved the Slytherin table so that she could eat with Severus. His choice of friends was not exactly her idea of fun, but she supposed that he would say the same thing about hers.

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33 While Looking Through Your Old Box of Notes


“You’ve been waiting a month for him to come around, Arianna. I have been perfectly content with Sirius Black not being a thorn in my side for the last month. He may be trying to be all chivalrous and put the past behind us in favor of you, but I am not quite so eager to bury the hatchet. It’s not that simple.”

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34 I found those pictures I took








He stormed into his own dormitory, conjuring pillows out of thin air as he muttered under his breath. The rest of the boys came into the room shortly after that. Arianna was too afraid to ask anything when Sirius was in a rage like this. She was almost glad that she hadn’t seen his bad moods when he wasn’t speaking to her. She knew that he had been furious about the Snape thing.

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