First in a series of events shown through Sirius' eyes. Sirius is tired. He's tired of fighting and tired of wondering when it was all going to end. Tired of not trusting anybody, not even himself. That's why he can't be James Potters Secret Keeper, because he couldn't live with the guilt if anything happened to him. But maybe theres another way... a better idea. And yes it is very long but i really didn't feel like making it 2 parts. PLEASE review! Thanks!