Rating
Mature
Chapters
32
Words
80,262
Characters
Harry, Ron, Hermione, Blaise (M), Dean, Draco, Seamus
Primary Relationship
Draco/Hermione
Secondary Relationship(s)
Other Pairing
Genre(s)
Drama, Romance, Angst
Era
Hogwarts
Advisory
Strong violence, Scenes of a sexual nature, Substance abuse, Sensitive topic/issue/theme, Spoilers
Story Reviews
Status
Completed
First Published
2007-08-15 4:58am
Last Chapter
2020-04-29 12:00am
Last Updated
2020-04-29 4:20pm
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| Ch. # | Chapter Title | Word Count | Reviews |
|---|---|---|---|
| 1 |
Prologue TRIGGER WARNING: This story centers around someone struggling with an eating disorder. Please don't read it if you think this might harm your recovery.
It started in her fourth year.
*This chapter has been edited. |
1,489 | 45 |
| 2 |
When Disorder Begins It was like going down one of those slides at Muggle fast food outlets, just much less fun and much less food.... |
1,552 | 52 |
| 3 |
The Blue Room ‘We've got a prefects meeting in 10 minutes are you sure your not hungry?’ |
1,661 | 40 |
| 4 |
Bets and Letters ‘Is it just me or has Granger gotten rather skinny lately?’ |
1,440 | 46 |
| 5 |
Dreaming The land of dreams. |
1,497 | 82 |
| 6 |
A Taste Of Vanilla Vanilla is the plainest flavour but agreeable with most.... |
1,910 | 33 |
| 7 |
Black Out What’s worse? Starving? Or eating? |
2,624 | 46 |
| 8 |
The Nargle or Snorkak? Maple syrup and roses. Interesting, Granger. |
2,580 | 36 |
| 9 |
Fighting Easter 'I hate eggs!' |
1,423 | 40 |
| 10 |
Suspicion ‘We Slytherins have our own form of loyalty. I just wanted to let you know that she’s been taken care of.’ |
2,043 | 39 |
| 11 |
When You Sleep '...The wand chooses the wizard…Why would it bother to change the wizard it chose?’ |
1,911 | 43 |
| 12 |
Diagnosed Insanity It’s an addiction; it’s a disorder, an obsession, a neurosis… |
1,767 | 52 |
| 13 |
Feelings... There is no way I'm telling him about my eating problems. But I do need a friend. |
2,085 | 54 |
| 14 |
Wand-Pox Ginny reached out and ran her fingers through it. She found herself holding a clump of frizzy brown hair. |
1,185 | 32 |
| 15 |
Eat Yourself She felt like she was going to throw up, her limbs felt weak and she kept getting flushes of heat. |
1,498 | 91 |
| 16 |
Cologne Cerrone Houdini Oh, Merlin, I think that’s the most bizarre thing that’s ever happened to me… |
1,591 | 47 |
| 17 |
Never Be Lonely
|
1,516 | 65 |
| 18 |
Tiptoe It's not funny. It never was. |
1,743 | 11 |
| 19 |
Oh Well... Oh Well... |
2,774 | 19 |
| 20 |
Rainbow 'This will get us nowhere Granger. Forty more minutes of this and we'll both be dead.' |
2,861 | 74 |
| 21 |
Sewn Hermione had no idea how to react to this unsure almost confused Malfoy. |
2,362 | 57 |
| 22 |
Not About Love
|
2,773 | 52 |
| 23 |
Criminal Your mum's house! |
2,459 | 43 |
| 24 |
First Taste And then she saw the girl. |
2,331 | 29 |
| 25 |
Slow Like Honey Ever since Hermione could remember, she’d always had iffy feelings regarding food in movies. |
1,920 | 31 |
| 26 |
Sick In The Head 'Midnight library excursions?' |
2,548 | 29 |
| 27 |
On The Bound I’m ashamed… I’m ashamed that I’ve done such a horrible thing to my body. That I’ve hurt myself and my friends by doing something that hasn’t achieved anything but misery |
2,536 | 31 |
| 28 |
Helpless She shook her head in disbelief; she was in this situation YET AGAIN! |
2,130 | 21 |
| 29 |
Sullen Girl And there's too |
2,904 | 15 |
| 30 |
Paper Bag Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills |
2,519 | 55 |
| 31 |
The Child Is Gone The world hangs in a cloud. Thoughts swirl and tangle like leaves blowing in the wind. I open my eyes to white. Nothing but white. It hurts my eyes so I close them again. I slip back into darkness... |
6,625 | 73 |
| 32 |
Epilogue Recovery is a hard road, but so worth it in the end. |
12,005 | 16 |
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