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Chapter 1: Jealousy

I felt like I had been hit with a surge of electricity. It jolted me awake. I sat there staring into the darkness trying to figure out exactly what I had felt. I knew it had something to do with the force. It was like someone was reaching out to me subconsciously, and I could feel their emotions. Kreia would never have her guard down; I'd never been able to sense anything from her. Visas was the same way. I didn't think Mical was capable of such emotion, so I eliminated him too. Those were the only force users I could think of. Well, other than Atton. I had just begun training him to use the force, but never the less he was a quick learner. Now, the emotions I felt made sense. The first most obvious one was guilt. I guessed that came from when he tortured and killed Jedi. The second was anger. I had always known he was angry at himself for what he had done, but he was a different person now. The third emotion was a difficult one. One I had never sensed in another person before. It was hard to decipher. I finally came to the conclusion it was love, but for what or who I didn't know. I tried to enter his mind again, but he blocked me out of it and I felt the same surge of electricity. If there was one thing I hoped to help Atton with, it was trust. He needed to learn to trust not only me, but all of our companions.

I couldn't go back to sleep after that, so I wondered around the eerily quiet ship. I decided I wanted to go see Atton. If he blocked me that had to mean he was awake. I walked towards the hall to enter the cockpit when I was stopped by Mical.

"Mical, what are you doing up?" I asked him. I was surprised there was actually someone else up. He smiled sleepily.

"I heard you up, and I figured now was the best time to tell you." I was confused.

"Tell me what?" He opened his mouth to speak, but apparently was too scared to say anything. He grabbed my hand and before I knew it, he kissed me. I had every intention of pushing him away, and I would have if at that exact moment I hadn't heard Atton's voice say,

"What the heck are you doing?"

I spun around towards him and was just about to defend myself when I noticed how he looked. He had no shirt on, and his hair was all tousled. I never really noticed how muscular he was until then. He looked so mad, but I couldn't help but thinking he had never looked better. I had never seen him out of his typical uniform; I guess I never really pictured him any other way. I probably should've thought about the fact that most people wear different clothes to sleep in, but I never really pondered it. I was trying to find words, but I couldn't help staring at him. I shook my head to clear my thoughts, and started listening to what it was Atton was currently yelling.

"-Can't believe you of all people, and in the middle of the night! So, what? Do you sneak out every night to come meet him? How long has this been going on? Do the others know? Were you ever going to tell me? I mean he's only been with us for a couple of weeks! And now suddenly-"

I tuned him out again. He was really mad, madder than I had ever seen him before. Why did he care anyways? It's not like it was his business what I did with other guys, we weren't together or anything. He started talking about the Jedi code and something about how we aren't allowed to have relations with other people. Now he was making me mad. I stopped him in mid sentence.

"For your information, no I do not meet him every night! Actually, I was coming to find you. When Mical stopped me and-" It was his turn to cut me off.

"And you suddenly had the urge to kiss him." I felt like slapping him. The nerve of him!

"You should know I have every intention of force pushing you into the wall. Maybe you should let me finish before you start making assumptions!" I glared at him. He glared right back.

"It's not an assumption it's-" I clenched my fists together, concentrated and managed to knock him into the wall. I smirked.

"What the heck is going on in here?" I heard Mira's voice exclaim. "You woke up the whole ship!" Sure enough, everyone appeared in the hallway, all staring at the scene before them. Atton was sitting on the floor, his back against the wall. I think he was still too shocked to get up. I'm sure I was a sight as well; Mira could tell I was mad.

"What did you do to her?" she asked Atton. He gaped.

"Me? I'm the one who was thrown against the damn wall!" She glared, and then turned to me.

"What did he do?" I had no clue what to tell her. I didn't want everyone to know Mical kissed me; I didn't even want to remember it. I sighed.

"Nothing." I said very quietly. Mira must have understood I didn't want to talk about it, because she left it alone. Atton looked surprised that I was giving up. I turned to Mical and gave him a look I hoped he understood as meaning don't tell anyone. He nodded and walked off. Everyone else did as well. I gave one last glare to Atton before walking back to my room.

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