"How do you promote world peace? Go home and love your family." Mother Teresa
Addison stood with a man in the suit at the door of the BAU and suddenly felt five again in the federal building half expecting to be led to the day care. Wearing light blue jeans and blue top there was an obvious contrast with the black outfits of the FBI. It wasn't long before she was noticed David Rossi making his way over to her with a massive smile reaching her he wrapped his arms around her waist and lifted her off her feet for a brief moment.
"Hey, Kiddo?" He said placing her down.
"Can't believe how grown you have gotten what age are you now?" he finished.
"15, You haven't aged a bit old man, its weird!" She replied poking his face getting a weird look from three bystanders.
"Addie come meet my team?" Rossi says leading the girl to where some of the team sat staring. "This is JJ, Reid and Morgan." Rossi said as he pointed to the team.
"Hi, im Addison" the girl smiled politely.
"What can the BAU do for you today, is your dad here?" Rossi asked.
"No, he.. I'm here with Agent Prentiss" Addison replied. "She is in there with the crabby looking guy" she pointed to Hotch's office.
"How do you know Emily?" Reid asked.
"This seems too big to be the BAU where's the tiny filing cupboard, sharing a desk with five other agents" Addison teased ignoring the agents question.
"We've come along way" Rossi replied.
"My dad was part of the OG bau" Addison explained to the three bystanders.
"Richard castle" Reid said excitedly.
"Yeah Jason, rick and Rossi, the dream team!" Addie laughed.
"Castle was responsible for the Colin darling case, if he ever gets a chance I'd love to pick his brains for a bit." Reid said.
"You're a little late" Addie said.
"What's going on?" Rossi asked concerned.
"Dad's dead" Addison said calmly.
"What happened?" Rossi asked.
With this Addison walked over to Emily's desk and started playing with the drawers pulling out a picture of herself and Emily and prompting it up on the desk. She couldn't be older than 6 and Emily had longer black hair. Emily had pre warned Addie that she didn't tell her team about her, she hadn't wanted the team to think she had connections to get her this job. With Addison second name she understood, she stared at the door Emily was behind almost willing it to swing open and Emily to come out and save her from the four profilers staring at her from across the room.
"Addison?" Emily called for her as she came down the stairs. "We've got your dad's case!" Emily smiled quietly taking as she leaned on the side of her desk.
"Your working it?" Addison said worried her calm facial expression fading into anxious panic.
"I'm going to find him baby! I promise." Emily said reaching out to Addison and pulled her into her.
"Don't let him kill you!" Addison whispered into Emily's hair.
"Stay here, Hotch and I are going to present the case then I will be back I promise!" Emily replied kissing the young girl on the top of Addison's head.
With that Emily made her way to the agents who had already taken their seats in the conference on the other side of the table as hotch stood at the front.
"Last night FBI agent and ex marine Richard castle was killed in his home in DC while his 15 year old daughter was forced to watch." Hotch explained as pictures appeared on the screen behind him.
"Overkill" JJ pointed out in an obvious tone.
"Its odd someone with this much rage would leave Addison without a scratch" Reid said. "Has she talked about what happened?" He asked.
"To the first responding officers but she wasn't very comprehendible. She wont talk to me about it." Emily said defeated.
"This is one of our own and the director is up our heels to find the unsub and fast, so all cases are on the back burner until we find this guy. Rossi and Emily go over anyone with a possible grudge with Castle check people he put away, unsubs he was after. Morgan and JJ see if you can get through to Addison and me and Reid will go to the crime scene." Hotch said. As the team stood Rossi didn't move this not going unnoticed by the rest of the team as they all filtered out he stared at the crime scene photos.
"Dave." Hotch said breaking Rossi out of his day dream. "If you need some time, we can work this case without you." Hotch finished.
"No, I just need a minute." Rossi said sadly, looking out to the young girl staring into space.
Morgan and JJ made there way to Addison who stared right through them.
"Hi, Addison I'm Derek and this is JJ" he reminded her in a condescending tone as you would a child this only angered her.
"We've got a few questions for you, could you follow me?" Derek asked.
Addison nodded in return, she didn't stand until Morgan was a few steps ahead. As they walked JJ put a comforting hand on Addison's back and leading her to the sofa in Morgans office.
"So Addison lets just get to know each other? and we can talk about yesterday when your ready okay?" Morgan started.
"What age are you?" He asked.
"15" Addison answered.
"Ah freshman?" JJ chimed in.
"No sophomore" Addison answered not looking from her hands on her lap.
"So how do you know Emily?" JJ asked.
"She's my godmother, her and my mom knew each other when Emily first joined the academy." Addison answered.
"Where is your mom?" Morgan asked.
"She died two years ago." Addison answered.
"I'm Sorry." Morgan said with sympathy making Addison obviously uncomfortable.
"Can we just get this over with please?" Addison begged.
"Okay." JJ started "So walk us through what happened."
"We were in the kitchen my dad had just gotten home from work he had just put his gun in the safe and I was making us dinner... then he was behind my dad I didn't notice him come in, he was around 6ft like 6'2, white, big build around 220 and he uh he hit my dad on the back of the head but didn't knock him out so dad fought back and then he injected something into the back of his neck he held a gun to him and then told me to go into the next room... then he..." she trailed off obviously having more to her story, but looking like she was about to throw up.
"Let's take a break" JJ said taking Addison's hand in hers, Addison pulled away quickly.
"Can I go to the bathroom?" Addison asked desperate to escape.
"Down the way we came on your left" JJ explained.
Addison walked calmly to the bathroom but in the privacy of the empty room her anger boiled. She threw her phone across the room almost hitting the blonde woman as she walked threw the door Garcia grasped her chest.
"I'm sorry, I am so sorry" Addison said on tears of frustration filling her eyes.
"It's okay, are you okay?" Garcia asked still a bit shaken from almost being hit by the phone.
"Yeah, i'm fine!" Addison lied looking away from the older woman.
"You're Addison?" Garcia said moving to hand the phone back to the young girl. "Im Penelope I work with the BAU." She explained.
"Yeah the computer tech, Emily talks about you" Alex said.
"You okay?" Penelope asked again.
"Just frustrated everyone keeps looking at me like i'm some weak broken puppy its like I can't get away from the sympathy." Addison said truthfully.
"I know how you feel, after my parents died every one kept trying to give me support and sympathy but it doesn't matter unless its coming from the people you really want to give you support and sympathy." Garcia said in her counselling voice. "You know, my parents died too when I was a little older than you. I get how you're feeling. You will get through this" Garcia finished.
"She's hiding something Hotch." Morgan said in Hotch's office where the team stood discussing what they found.
"Her voice was calm and cold when she was describing the guy '6'2 around 220' but she got embarrassed around mid way" JJ added.
"Alright morgan and JJ the medical examiner is ready for us, Emily you try and find out what Addison is hiding Rossi and I will talk to coworkers see if any previous cases fit the description and Reid finnish analysing the crime scene." Hotch said sternly.
Emily watched as Penelope guided a tired teen back to the bullpen, and made her way over to them. The older brunette went to pull Addison into a hug but Addison took a step back.
"I'm going to finish your interview" Emily explained leading the teen away from Garcia who smiled as they walked away her heart breaking for the little girl. But as soon as they were back in Morgan's office Addison's strong resolve broke pulling Emily into a hug, Emily squeezed back as tight as she could wanting to take the hurt away from the young girl so badly.
"What's going to happen to me now?" The young girl asked not pulling away from Emily not that Emily would let her.
"Well the plan was you would come live with me, but if that's not what you want we can figure something else out." Emily explained.
"No I want to be with you." Addison said as she pulled back fixing herself before sitting down on the sofa.
"I'm going to do what is called a cognitive interview." Emily started as she combed her hands through her god daughters hair.
"No" Addison said sternly.
"I know you're scared." Emily began.
"I'm not scared Emily, Violence isn't something new in my life my bed time stories were about FBI agents and serial killers violence I can handle." Addison said strongly. "I should have fought harder, I knew how to get out of this I know what you're supposed to say and where to hit and how to.." she continued her eyes filling with tears of frustration "but I couldn't save him." She finished
"Nobody could have got out of that, i'm going to be here the whole time we will only go as far as you would like." Emily said softly seeing fear in the young brunettes eyes.
"No I'm not scared I remember. I don't need a cognitive interview." Addison said.
"Sometimes we forget details we don't think are important." Emily explained.
"I remember he didn't come through the front door it was through my dad's office, I assume the window, he approached my dad hit him with the but of his gun, they fought, he injected him then placed him prompt up against the island he pointed the gun at him and told me to go into the family room." Addison said as Emily read along with her previous statements.
"Okay, then what happened?" Emily asked looking up to see frustration on the young girls face.
"Please, em" Addison pleaded.
"Addie, everything you tell us can help." Emily said getting down to Addison's level.
After a few moments of silence Addison began again.
"I could hear him beating my dad but something was barricading the door, then he came into the family room and grabbed me and dragged me to the bathroom with him he cleaned the blood off of himself and he took me back into the family room and threw me on the couch I hit my head and felt groggy and then he came over and put his arm around me we sat like that for about a minute then he got on top of me and started kissing me and I bit him so he stopped. He then dragged me by my hair to my dad he was still breathing but he was unconscious, he said if i kissed him it would go quicker and I can help him. We walked back to the sofa this time with the door open and we kissed then he took of my shirt and then my pants. Then he lay on top of me, I felt him take out his Dick and I started to fight but he was stronger than me he held my hands behind me and I couldn't scream because I didn't want my dad to hear" Addison said tears beginning to fall but she wiped them away quickly and before Emily could begin speaking she continued "he.. he raped me... a few times about a half hour and by this time I knew my dad was dead.. when he was finished I didn't move I just lay there naked while he got dressed then he threw me into the shower and with the shower head he cleaned me.. everywhere..." she grimaced "then he made me pee, then he left me there and I guess he went home because when I came out to see my dad he had folded the clothes. Dad was dead so I phoned the police ran upstairs and got changed." Addison quickly finished composing herself.
"Addie" Emily said sympathetically.
"Emily!" Addison said sternly.
"We need to take you to the Hospital" Emily said.
"We can't tell anyone." Addison said firmly.
"I have to tell my team." Emily explained.
"No, you don't" Addison said snarky "I'm a Castle We don't let ourselves get raped." Addison said strongly.
"You didn't 'let' this happen." Emily said.
"Fine. Tell them. I don't care." Addison said angrily.
"Okay, I will fill the team in then we can go to the hospital, then we can get you something to eat and maybe go back to mine to get some sleep?" Emily asked seeing how done the young girl was.
Addison nodded and reached for Emily's hand something she hadn't done since she was very little, Emily took her hand in hers.
They sat in the hospital room Addison's legs in stirrups being tested wanting to scream, it was around an hour before they were finished Emily stood outside with the doctor for what felt like hours to Addison, when she came back in her eyes filled with sympathy. They picked up a Wendy's on the way home and sat with it in front of the T.V.
"It's been so long since we hung out." Emily said trying to start conversation.
"Well the whole you were dead thing really hindered our plans em." Addison teased.
"I'm sorry Addie." Emily said sadly.
"Em, i was kidding I'm glad your okay and really think dad wouldn't have told me you were alive." Addison said.
"He knew." Emily asked confused, but received no reply. "I don't think it will ever cease to amaze me how strong you are." Emily continued. "But You don't have to be strong here you know that right me and you we're a family we don't have to be strong around family." Emily said desperate for the girls to bring down her walls in the day she has seen Addison break down once and barely she had to be breaking inside
"Emily, if I'm not focusing on being strong then I loose all of my control" Addison said not looking up from the food she had been nibbling on.
"It's okay to lose control." Emily said not pushing the girl. Addison yawned it had been over 24 hours since the young girl had slept and was definitely in need of some.
"Let's get you to bed." Emily said picking up the remains of Addison's chicken nugget meal, returning and guiding Addison to her bed. "You okay to share a bed" Emily asked willing to take the couch, Addison nodded, pulling a t-shirt from Emily's dresser and slipping into Emily's bed. Emily did the same and got in beside the girl, Addison didn't say anything but rested her head on Emily's shoulder refusing to think Addison turned of her brain and was asleep in minutes. Emily took this time to cry alone in the silence of the bed room, tears streaming down her face. She had lost one of her best friends, leaving one of the people she loved most in the world so hurt and alone. It had only been about two hours since Addison had fallen asleep when she started screaming jolting up right waking a sleeping Emily beside her.
"Shhh, honey, you're okay?" Emily said rubbing soothing circles on Addison's back. Addison didn't reply she just wrapped her arms around Emily, resting her head on Emily's shoulder as Emily rocked. It was around fifteen minutes of silence for Addison's tears to subside and exhaustion take over again. Emily lay awake for about an hour staring at Addison before falling back into slumber. Around 3am the next morning Emily woke to an all too familiar sound her phone ringing.
"Prentiss" she answered with a whisper.
"Em its Garcia, there's been another murder Hotch wants you in." She said.
"I can come over and stay with Addison" she finished trying to disguise Hotch's insensitive orders in this stressful time.
"Yeah okay pen thank you" she said guiltily releasing the girl's grip from her waist and heading to get dressed opting for dry shampoo over a shower trying not to wake the teen. It wasn't long before the bubbly blonde was in the apartment letting herself in with her key usually only used to feed the cat. Emily heard the familiar sounds of her friend and moved to the bed to wake the teen.
"Hey, Addie." Emily spoke softly.
"I have to go to work, Penelope is down stairs if you need her she will bring you to work when you're ready." Emily explained. Only receiving a tired nod in return
"Thanks for this again pen" Emily said to the agent who had made herself comfy on Emily's couch, receiving only a moan in reply.
"DADDY" Addison yelled waking from a nightmare. Waking a very bewildered agent downstairs. Causing Penelope to jump to her feet running up the stairs of the small apartment to the teen. Running across the room to her.
"Shh Addison you're okay." She cooed softly. "It was just a dream" she finished.
"It was just a dream" Addison whispered in reply. "Could you stay?"Addison asked shyly much like a child.
"Of course I can butter cup." Penelope said now very much awake climbing into bed with the small teen.
"I'm sorry to wake you!" Addison said embarrassed.
"It's not a problem at all it's almost five this is the time I normally wake up." Penelope joked.
"Why aren't you with the team" Addison asked.
"I'm not desperately needed right now." Penelope explained "Plus I worked a 60 hour week last week and the top are getting annoyed." Garcia explained. "How's your phone?" She asked shifting the subject.
"It's broken, better that than constant i'm sorry for your loss texts" she said.
"Not a fan of sympathy are you?" Garcia joked.
"No not really" Addison smiled in return.
"I won't give you any sympathetic looks or tones of voice if you promise to tell me or em or someone on your team when you're needing a little support or your having a bad day. I can guarantee holding it in not talking only makes things worse and more dark." Garcia said a 'I've been there' tone in her voice.
"I can't look at your team again." Addison said her cheeks flushed with embarrassment.
"You're going to need to get over that sweetie. We're a family, one you're very much a part of now." Penelope said putting an arm over her shoulder.
"They all know." Addison said not meeting Penelope's eyes.
"No one is judging you, no one has the right to. I promise." Garcia explained.
"Do you want to talk about the dream?" She asked not pushing it when the girl shakes her head.
"Im going to be okay, right?" Addison asked.
"I will make sure of it." Penelope said strongly placing a kiss on Addison's head.
"Are we up? Should I make breakfast?" Addison asked.
"Yeah, I guess so." Addison smiled. "Do you think we could go past mine I need some clothes." She said looking at the older woman's face not seeing a tinge of sympathy.
"Let me check with em but yeah if she says it's okay!" Penelope said with a smile staying true to her words.
The pair reached quantico a little after 8, Addison wearing blue jeans and a striped t-shirt her hair brushed and parted and some makeup on looking more like herself than before. She didn't quite manage to make it into the house though Penelope had to go in for her but she figured she'd have to eventually. Penelope was so kind about it she didn't push when Addison concluded that she wouldn't be able to go in.
Addison opted to sit at Emily's office as garcia caught up with the case. Addisons heart sunk as she watched a familiar face leave Rossis office, JJ and Emily close behind consoling a crying women.
"Addie" he cried running to her in a protective but caring force. He hugged her Addison returning his embrace.
"What's wrong what happened?" Addison asked worried.
"He killed dad too" he said sadly.
"No, I'm so sorry." Addison said hugging him again.
"Is there somewhere we could talk?" He asked the girl in a hushed tone desperate to escape the guilt he felt hearing his mother's painful cries.
"Let's head down stairs." Addison said making her way to the stairs, they walked down a flight before sitting down resting their backs against the wall.
"Can I ask what happened?" She asked softly.
"He came into the house and just started beating dad. I came down when I heard my mum scream he locked her in the office then made me play monopoly with him." He said.
"It has to be something to with the FBI." Addison said "both our dads working in FBI can't be a coincidence." Addison finished.
"I cant look at my mom." He said tears in his eyes. Addison had known Louis for the best part of 10 years and never seen him cry. "I've wanted to beat my dad a few times, i know that sounds bad." He said embarrassed "I feel so guilty like I willed this to happen." He said tears now free flowing from his face.
"I get the feeling, we didn't cause this." Addison said trying to convince herself as much as Louis. They sat in silence for a while.
"How did he get you to play monopoly?" She asked.
"He had his gun pointed at dad the whole time." Louis said "I couldn't take him he was massive and Dad was still alive at this point." He finished.
"We should head back." Addison said after realising it had been almost an hour since they escaped.
"Where have you been." Emily said angrily to this Addison only rolled her eyes, she watched as Louis walked over and hugged his mom she waved as they were escorted to a separate room.
"What does this mean?" Addison said turning to the team who were gathered around Reid's desk.
"He's a serial killer." JJ answered.
"Not quite what i meant." Addison laughed, snarky was always how she presented herself to new people if they got passed it then they were in her life forever they just had to wait it out. This got a stern look from Emily as a reply.
"It means he's on a spree a quick one, he is devolving." Rossi explained.
"The murder has a sadistic element too it, raping you and making Louis play with him while your father died. He clearly is aiming to hurt as many people as possible." He furthered.
"But why not hurt ms Stanton?" Addison asked. "Why lock her in the office?" She furthered.
"Control?" Emily said more as a question than an answer. "Knowing she couldn't help would hurt her too."
"Any other connection other than the FBI?" Addison asked.
"Your school." Reid answered.
Addison nodded, walking away understanding it was rude but doing it anyway and settling in Emily's chair.
"She always that snarky?" Morgan asked.
"She's a teen ager." Emily answered "she's never like this with me." She finished sadly.
"Its her I'm strong persona, she does it every time we get together after a long time. Its to make sure we're not going to leave her. When she feels safe she'll let her guard down." Rossi said definitively. Emily felt her heart sink how is it she became so in the dark with her god daughter's life.
A few hours had passed as the team went through cases overlapping with the two victims coming up with a list of suspects going over each step in the murders, Addison going over every case her and her dad had gone through over the years. It was around 7 when Emily emerged unable to find Addison who had wandered off again. But Addison had a plan she called Garcia to come find her she had a few questions she had to ask she followed Garcia directions to her lair and knocked waiting on a reply, Garcia opened the door
As searches ran on her computers.
"I need a quick favour?" Addison asked.
"Can you get into the bauro database, my dad and Stanton were up for a secret promotion about 5 years ago, but someone else got it?" Addison asked as Penelope did her fast work.
"Agent frank libert. But I'm sorry he died in the field three years ago. Good idea though" She said as Addison read his file.
"Thank you." Addison said a determined look on her face. She made a quick walk back to the room where all of the agents minus Prentiss who was frantically searching for the 'missing teen'.
"Addie Emily's looking for you." Rossi said looking up as the teen entered the room.
"Alexander libert." She said facing Rossi ignoring his question.
"His dad, louis dad and my dad were up for the head of the department 5 years ago to lead the leishman case." She explained.
"Yeah but they didn't profile that he was suicidal and he attempted suicide by cop." Morgan said.
"Yeah and libert died in the shootout." Addison explained.
"So why do you think it was his son?" Rossi asked.
"It's something Louis said. Every time, my dad came home injured I wanted to beat the crap out of him for putting himself in danger and almost leaving me, I can only imagine how angry id be if he died in the field. Also I don't think he was trying to hurt us I think he was trying to be friends with us." She said in a very profiler tone of voice.
"He didn't view it as rape but as sex and he only wanted to play with him." Reid agreed.
"Good job kid, now go find Emily we'll look into it." Rossi said.
"There was another guy up for that promotion too." She said before she left the room.
She watched through the window as the team devised a plan. Remembering to look for Emily she turned to see an angry Emily staring at her from across the room.
"Stop wandering." Emily said sternly pulling the teen into her firmly in a contradictory hug.
"Sorry." Addison answered the hug is just what she needed, she hugged tighter tears streaming down her cheeks uncontrollably. Emily didn't notice till she pulled away from her that she was crying leaving a tear stained wet patch on Emily's shirt.
"Sorry." She whispered again.
"Emily grab a vest and meet us in the suvs we've got a break." Hotch said approaching the pair. "Addison may have just solved this case." Hotch said placing a comforting hand on the girls shoulder.
"Go sit with Penelope and stay put." Emily said turning to her friend who was behind her now.
"Be careful." Addison said in reply taking Garcia's outstretched hand. "Co ordinates on your handhelds" Garcia said as they approached the elevator.
The team caught the unsub mid attack Addison's profile leading them straight to the house of the third agent, he admitted his anger towards the agents was due to viewing them as surrogate father. The sound of relief coming from Garcia as she heard they had apprehended the man, was the permission Addison needed to fall asleep on the sofa in Garcia's lair. The team returned a little before an hour later Addison being roused by Penelope as they headed to the elevators to meet the team.
Emily walking straight over to the teen and pulling her into the tightest hug possible. The other team mates scattering to their respective desks to pack up for the night.
"Can we go home now?" Addison asked tiredly.
"Yeah baby, we can go home. Just let me pack up. And I'm going to talk to hotch about taking a week off just till we get settled." Emily said.
"Okay." Addison said the reality becoming all too clear.
Addison sat at Emily's desk as Emily made her way to Hotch's office.
"Hey?" JJ said sitting on the edge of the desk.
"Hey. Sorry about the snarky comment earlier." Addison said smiling.
"You did good today figured that out pretty quickly." JJ said rubbing her hand on Addison's shoulder.
"I can definitely see you in the fbi one day." Morgan said.
"Running the FBI one day." Addison joked.
"You okay?." JJ said as Morgan walked away.
"I think it's just hitting me you know the reality of it." Addison said "but I'm okay." She said trying to backtrack.
"It's hard when you don't have anything to focus on. But you will get through this." JJ said comforting the young girl. "And with this team you don't have to do it alone. We're a family" She finished.
Trying to find a fanfiction from a while back where Emily gets kidnaped outside of a bar and tortured im pretty sure using a shower, then the team save her. please help.