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"And while I was talking, the idea of actually losing Peeta hit me again and I realized how much I don't want him to die. And it's not about the sponsors. And it's not about what will happen when we get home. And it's not just that I don't want to be alone. It's him. I do not want to lose the boy with the bread."
I watched my mom pacing between the wooden old doors of my bedroom. My hands were clutching the sheets of my floral covers and my breath was uneven. I knew she had something to say about the issue, she was just trying to get her words right.
"Mother listen" I started as my hand was turning white from the tight grasp of my sheets.
"No Katniss, we can't do this anymore, you can't-" She threw her hands in the air and Primrose eyes shifted to me. I saw the anxiety in her eyes as a tear was coursing down her cheekbone.
I sighed deeply and eased my hand. Of course this was an issue, I mean not eating for days would eventually starve us to death and we would become, well, we already are like sacks of bones.
I gazed past my mom at my sister Primrose, her normally plum color off her cheeks was gone, replaced by paleness of white roses. Her chubby cheeks were replaced by sunken flesh. I would admit we looked like apprentice zombie's.
"Katniss do you understand the position I'm in?" I nodded at my mother, confirming her words. Of course I knew, of course it's hard to live like this.
"Maybe we should consider the first option, they're not that bad people Katniss". I knew what she was talking about, I plucked at my thick brown braid that was swung over my shoulder and let my thoughts drift of.
The Mellark family consisted of Mrs Mellark, Mr Mellark, their oldest son Sam Mellark and their youngest Peeta Mellark. They made an offer to my father before he passed away to marry me to their oldest son Sam. Of course my father denied their request as I was his little girl and only his, but since he passed away we had more money issues than ever before.
I looked in my mother's eyes, searching for a hint of pain, but of course there weren't any signs, she would have accepted their offer promptly.
I turned my gaze towards my little sister and took a glance at her figure. The once so jolly Primrose was almost gone, she was insecure and turning her back to the world.
"I'll do it" My voice broke.
My mother smiled, "I knew you would rescue us one day".
My eyes were still set on Prim, she smiled at me and nodded, I knew she didn't agree with my decision but she knew that once I had my mind set on something that I wouldn't back out. If marrying that Mellark boy was our only option for survival I would save my family, I would save Prim.
My bags were filled with the only clothes I had, my toothbrush and toothpaste, some shower supplies and underwear. I was wearing a green dress till my knees and some black boots under it, the only shoes I had. Not a fashionista decision but it was the only decent thing I had left.
I studied my now almost empty room. Some of my furniture were already transferred to Prim's room. It was an old little room, the only thing that was left was the ruffled couch where I used to sleep on.
It was time to go and leave this empty space behind me, a new life would begin for me, not sure if I was one hundred percent ready for it, but I had to be.
My mom and Prim were waiting by the door, ready to say goodbye for now. My mother had already made the arrangements with the Mellark family to move in with them, the wedding would be set once I was completely set in.
I sighed deeply as I felt Prim's arms around my waist, I kissed her hair and whispered that everything would be okay. "Come visit me okay?" I said to her when she looked up to me. Tears were forming in my eyes when I saw her pain. She nodded slowly and her grasp became tighter. I hugged her one last time and told myself that this wasn't goodbye for ever, just to make the feeling sting less.
Prim let go of me slowly and I patted her head. I turned to mother and gave her a quick hug. "Don't let her feel alone" I whispered in my mother's ear. "She needs you".
My mom nodded and gave me a small smile. "This is your home, don't forget that" Prim said as she grabbed my hand. I gave her a smile and nodded, "Never".
I left them in the door opening and made my way to the Mellark house. Their house was in Victor's' Village since Peeta won the 74th Annual Hunger Games a year ago. I watched every night as Peeta was moving on to win the Hunger Games. His tactic was camouflage and I remembered being impressed by his skills.
He survived by letting the other starve and saving himself, it took him a long time but eventually everybody died except this one girl Johanna. They met briefly and decided to stay together, they even fell in love, even though I thought it was all a scam.
They won together, due to their star crossed lovers scenes they changed the rules a bit so they could win together. They said she's been living with the Mellark's since and that a wedding shouldn't be far away, but every night I watched Peeta, I watched his piercing blue eyes filled with anxiety and partial hope. I watched him looking at Johanna and I saw friendly affection, but not love, certainly not love. But well, he won and I was rooting for him.
This would be the first time that I'd seen him since I watched him on the TV in Gale's house. Gale and I were best friends, maybe even more, and I always watched the Hunger Games with him.
I crossed a big dandelion field and forget for a moment where I was heading to. The sunlight beaming down on the fresh flowers was mesmerizing. The sight was breathtaking and I stopped for a moment to lie down between them.
I let the sun carry my face, the warmth felt nice, spring surely was my favorite season. Couldn't I just stay here, resting between the dandelions for the rest of my life, nothing to worry about.
A branch cracked behind me and I sat up on my elbow's and found a figure looking at me in the sunlight. I placed my hand over my eyes and met the blue eyes of Peeta Mellark. "Hello Katniss" He smiled at me.
"Hey" I said astonished. He was wearing a white flannel shirt and dark blue jeans. His ashy blond hair was falling in waves over his forehead and his blue eyes were big, watching her.
I sat up and followed him sitting down next to me. We both looked over the fields and none of us said a word. I let my breathing ease as I was quite spooked to see him. I glanced at him from the corner and took in his beauty.
Sure I've had male contact before with Gale, but Gale was the opposite of Peeta, Gale had strong figures and was a dark type of guy. Peeta was more smooth but strong also, hard to explain, he was more like a light in the dark. Even though he was petite I could still see his muscles flex under his shirt.
His head turned to me and I felt like I was caught watching him. He smiled at me and I returned the smile awkwardly as I felt my cheeks getting warm.
"So" he started looking back at the fields. "I heard you are marrying my brother". I nodded and watched him, trying to make out his expression, it seemed like both fondness but also a bit of anger?
"Yes, my mother arranged it". He looked at me and frowned. "So you didn't want to do it?" My eyes met his and for a moment I saw a small smirk playing on his lips.
I pulled my knees up and wrapped my arms around them. "It's not that, of course I'd rather fall in love like a normal person, but hey you're brother can't be that bad right?" I smiled at him trying to make a joke out of it.
He nodded carefully and bend his head a bit like he was trying to read me too.
"I guess" He simply said.
I guess? Like what was that supposed to mean? I looked back at the fields, filled with dandelions and trees. Spring never looked better in district 12.
"When are you and Johanna getting married?" I looked back at him.
I saw a jolt of pain crossing his face and wondered what he was thinking. His gaze turned back to the trees and the grass and it felt like minutes passed by before he spoke.
"We haven't discussed it yet"
I nodded simply, "of course you haven't" I said without thinking, proving my point exactly, he's not in love with her, he can't be.
"What's that supposed to mean?" I looked at his eyes and his gaze was strong, his words were playful but also like a warning, I'll just play along his game if he doesn't want to admit it.
"Well I'm sure that after you came home you and Johanna had been busy doing, like -" I felt my cheeks turning flush red, I couldn't say that I knew he isn't in love.
"Like?" I swallowed as I tried to make out my words. "Like being in love and everything that revolves around it". What the hell did I just say, did I imply that they were having sex? Great work Katniss.
He smirked at me and for a moment I saw the old Peeta that I met when I was 16 years old. I bit my lip as I smiled back at him.
"You think we have been having sex like rabbits?" he laughed at my words and I felt totally embarrassed.
I stood up straightened out my dress and turned my back to him, my cheeks were rose red and I felt a knot in my stomach. "I- I should go to your house now".
My words were shivering like a blown fire. I packed my bag quickly and paced out of the fields.
"Thanks for the talk Katniss" I heard Peeta say behind me with a hint of laughter in it.
Great Katniss, nice way to make a conversation with your new brother-in-law.