Conflict
Cowardice. What is cowardice? Fleeing from your problems. Turning a blind eye to all you know is wrong. Serving yourself not caring how many people are hurt or maimed in the process. Hoping, dreaming that one-day life will become easy and you'll never have had to lift a finger. Defying those who care for you only to wallow in your own self-pity. Never fighting back. Being a submissive fool who just stands by watching the world burn. I am no coward.
Courage. What is courage? Living to fight another day in order to accomplish the impossible. Solving the problems for those too weak to take care of it themselves, yet never asking for anything in return. Taking the pain, the torment and holding it within, refusing to satisfy the sadistic bastards that deliver it. Every ounce of blood, sweat, and tears spilled, all in the name of the people. Tearing control away from those unworthy to have it. Taking control. Not standing by. I am not courageous.
I am Severus Snape. Death Eater and Order of the Phoenix member alike. Never will I have their full trust. Never will I give them my full trust. I am neither good nor bad, courageous no cowardice. I don't fit any black or white categories. There are many stages in between. Varying shades of grey. I am in limbo, straddling the thin line.
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A/N: This is my first fanfiction. Any advice is appreciated so please please comment and review.