Hello. Try to listen This Is The Last Time - The National, while you read it! I wrote it when I was listen it ! It is a squel to "I'm sorry", but you can read it with no troubles if you had not read the another history ! Please review so I can know if I'm doing something wrong ! Thanks!
It had been two years after Sherlock's death, John was again there. At the gravestone. It was a gray day, the soft wind messing John's hair, just making his mood more melancholic. John was again there, looking, for the past, the pain, the tears, they are all there, again, in his mind, the blood, his voice screaming his friend name.
John sigh quiet, looking for the lonely gravestone, he took two steps more close, and took a hand on it. – Sherlock- he began, in a low voice .- things got better ...I have found a person .
I have found a person . It brake the air around Sherlock's , he was there again, hiding, where john could not see him .He could see John looking around on his pause.
- I won't be waiting anymore ...life goes on – John said bitting his lips – I'm moving...This is the last time .
Sherlock's heart skip two beats , the necessity that he feel in that moment, the necessity of go run on John arms, and scream " No, please keep with me! I'M HERE JOHN" . His heart was hurting , he feels his eyes starting to burn.
-You know – John looks to his feet, while he still with one of his hands on the gravestone- I'm moving from London, I'm not ,anymore, a long time ago, on Baker Street . Can't get these thoughts out of me ...because ,Sherlock , damn, you're selfish bastard, I still loving you...I still love you so much... Sherlock , I – He took a deep breathe, while he moved this look to the gray clouds on the sky – I think that new airs will help me get out this thoughts of my mind...and I have Mary , she is such a wonderful woman ...yes.
Sherlock look to his feet, and he feel a soft warm tear drop against his face . " He still loves me...". He didn't care about that woman. He still loves him . It hurt him so much , he wanted now, more then ever, go and ...kiss John, tell him that he loves him too. He had been so long apart of John ... He squeezed his eyes , and turn again to see John.
- I won't be vacant anymore , I'm determined to get out this sentiments about you of my heart because ...Sherlock, I'm so tired – The fatigue at John's face was so painfull to watch, sherlock tought. – Goodbye.
"NO JOHN!" – Sherlock wanted to scream . But he can't, he just can't, he have to let his best friend go, the only one ...he have to . While he watched John go, he whipered to himself, again alone, again at sadness, felling powerless- You're the only thing I want John ...please – he tried to not make his voice feel weak – I have no option John ... – He said like if his best friend could hear him, but he knows that not, John was so distant of him now , but so close, locked, at his heart.