Wait Forever
Pairing - Damon/Elena
Fandom - TVD
Rating - PG
Warnings - None
Spoilers - Through 2x08
God, I wish you didn't have to forget this. But you do.
The words echoed in his mind, over and over again. She didn't remember, she couldn't remember, but he had to. He almost wished someone could compel him, take his memories away, take the feelings away, take her away.
If he had left town when Stefan told him to, or if he had never come back in the first place, maybe then this never would have happened. But he came back, he didn't leave, and he fell in love with the one person he knew he could never have. Could never deserve. He used to believe that he could have anything he wanted, and it was true… up until now. Up until now, he would have made her want him. Until now, he would have ripped the necklace off of her and compelled her, controlled her. And until now, he wouldn't have given it a second thought. But this time… he couldn't. It was her. It was Elena. And he couldn't hurt her like that.
He would die if he hurt her like that.
Although, he had hurt her before and he was sure he'd hurt her again. And knowing that made him want to leave her alone all together. He could never go without at least seeing her, but he also couldn't keep hurting her like he had been doing.
She didn't love him, she had said it herself. "It's always going to be Stefan!" And then he'd killed her brother and hurt her more than he ever imagined possible. He'd almost lost her forever and he was finally getting her back… and then he had to go and say those three little words. Sure, she didn't remember… of course not. He'd made sure of it. But that didn't matter. What mattered what that he had said it to her.
She didn't say anything back, not that he expected her to. He had almost expected her to slap him, or hit him, or cover her ears so she couldn't hear him say it. Instead, she just stood there and let him say what he had to say. She even let him kiss her, on the forehead. And then he repaid her by letting her forget.
Even though it killed him. And that was saying a lot since he was already dead.
All hope is lost. She belongs to Stefan now, because he would never hurt her or betray her… It's over, he's lost and his brother has won. Part of him is still clinging to the ever fading hope that someday she'll remember… or that someday she'll feel the same way on her own. But that day is nowhere near to today.
It's different for him, though, because even if she doesn't change her mind today, or tomorrow, or next year… he really can wait forever. And he would keep waiting until something changed. Because, what other choice did he really have?
I can wait…
I can wait forever. - Simple Plan
Another Rose fic, I know... but that episode really fueled my muse. I couldn't breathe for a week after I watched it and writing helped me start breathing again. ; ) Please review and thanks for reading! :D