Chapter 1: Thoughts of You

Ginny Weasley sat by the small window of her bedroom. In a few weeks, she would be leaving home for her 6th year at Hogwarts. Normally, she would be happy to be going back to school, especially after receiving a letter announcing that the school was going to be opened after what had happened last year to Professor Dumbledore. Still, something was keeping her from being happy. Harry Potter. Ever since he broke her heart before the summer holiday had begun, Ginny acted as though her world had come to an end. Mopping about "The Burrow" was her daily chore since that day, and when asked to do something, she would reply with, " Harry never had to do that".

"Enough with Harry!" Ron yelled at her one day. "He's just a boy! Stop acting as though your world has come to an end, and just live on with your life!"

"I have nothing to live for," Ginny whispered.

It was true. She had nothing to live for. Harry had provided her with the love and comfort she so desperately longed for, and as quick as it was given to her, it was taken away.

"Ginny, dear. Come down for dinner!" Molly Weasley yelled up to her daughter.

"I'm not hungry," she yelled back.

Ginny wasn't hungry. She was never hungry. The only thing she was hungry for was Harry's love. How was she going survive her 6th year without him? Little did she know as she walked over to her bed, that someone longed for her instead.

"Boy, come down and make up your dinner!" Vernon Dursley yelled up to his nephew.

Harry Potter groaned at the thought of food. He would never be able to eat again. Unlike Ginny, Harry decided never to return to Hogwarts, which meant he would not be graduating this year. Instead, he was awaiting his journey to visit his parents' tombstones at Godric Hallow, and then to find and defeat the evil Lord Voldemort. Harry felt weak though.

He had lost the love of his life because of Voldemort. Ginny was his love, his life, his passion, the reason he was living. Now, she was gone, and he was slowly falling apart.

"Why did you break up with her Harry?" Ron asked him

Harry would ask himself this question all the time. Why did he break up with her? For one, Harry had noticed over the years that Voldemort had used people dear to him in order to draw Harry closer. Harry was scared for Ginny's safety. What would I do if he hurt her? H9ow would I survive? Everyday Harry would ask himself these questions, and everyday he got the same answer. I would die. That's why he broke her heart. Even thought she had said she didn't care what Voldemort did to her, Harry did. He couldn't let her suffer because Voldemort wanted him.

Just Harry sat there thinking a tap came from his window. He looked over to see a small brown owl, perched on the windowsill. The owl had a letter attached to its leg. As Harry heard the owl hoot happily, he noticed it was Ron's owl, Pigwidgeon.

Harry was hesitant to open the window. Eventually, he decided to see what the letter said. He quietly opened the window and noticed the untidy scrawl as Ron's handwriting. He opened the letter and carefully read it's contents:

Hiya Harry,

I hope you don't get in trouble with the Muggles for this. My mum just wanted to know if you were still going to be coming to Fleur and Bill's wedding. It's next week and we hope to see you there. Reply soon.

Ron

Harry sat there, contemplating his answer. On one side of his mind, he wanted to go. He would be able to spend time with his friends before he left for Godric's Hallow. He would be able to see Mr. and Mrs. Weasley, the only parent figures he had.

Then there was the down side. Do I really want to see Ginny before I leave? He asked himself. Ginny. Why couldn't he stop thinking about her? It irritated him. Still, seeing the love of his life and his friends would give him the strength go on. He quickly grabbed a pen and scribbled down his answer hurriedly.

Hey Ron,

My birthday's in a few days, as you already know. The day after I am off to Godric's Hallow. I will however, be glad to attend Bill and Fleur's wedding. See you soon.

Harry

Author's Note: I hope you guys enjoyed the first chapter of Selfish. This story's title is based on the Nsync song. I hope you guys continue to check it out and please review with your thoughts and ideas on how to make this story better.