Seeking Redemption
Prologue
Renesmee's POV
I could not believe it.
I could not fucking believe it!
The more I thought about it, the more pissed off I got.
My family. My over protective, all knowing fucking family have lied to me all my life. I can understand them not telling me when I was little but what about as I got older? I asked what was going on all the time even until this day. I have had a higher IQ than 99% of the human race for at least four years now! I know numerous different languages and have studied the world's history as well as vampire's history since I began home schooling 5 years ago.
Did they think I was too stupid and immature to understand? Did they think I didn't deserve to know? Did they honestly believe me living among all the lies and fighting was better? Did they not see all the pain it caused?
They told me the time was never right to tell me but there were so many opportunities to. Like any one of the many times I asked about my memories or about this strange feeling in my chest or when I started asking a lot of questions about the "family friend" Jacob.
The best opportunity was when I started acting out, when I started fighting with my parents, when I started with the foul language and pulling away into myself. They could have told me so I would not have taken so much of the blame on my shoulders, feeling alone, hating myself for causing so many problems.
I'm so fucking mad at them. Mad at myself. Mad at him. At least I think I'm mad at Him.
Ugh! Him. Jacob Black, My Jacob. My J.B. Although I never knew just how true the "MY" was until now. He is the wolf. Yes. that wolf. The wolf is my J.B. I want to be mad at him but I only feel hurt and confused. He said he always wanted to tell me. That he didn't mean to hurt me. That he'll do whatever I want if I will just let him explain.
I think he is my best chance at full disclosure. I will let him explain. Right. Now.