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Note" this takes place after the reckoning in season 3. So if you want a good update, watch to that point. Also I do not know if you are aware but the ratings for TVD are making small drops so we need to boost them by tuning in every Thursday. Spread the word to save the show. Also there will be a new chapter every Saturday and also I do after action reports because I can fill you in on anything I need you to know.
Chapter 1- I know the truth
All Stefan wanted was for Elena to be safe even if she wasn't being safe with him. He loved the new surges of power he was getting, but even without his humanity, the love for his power could never substitute the love for Elena, and though he didn't enjoy admitting it, the love for his brother. He didn't blame Damon at all for his current situation because he knew that Damon took that bite so Elena could be safe. Stefan would run with Klaus as long as he needed, so long as Elena was safe. But that didn't seem to matter anymore for him. He didn't care about anyone's well being, not even his own. No matter how much he struggled to get back his humanity, he was just shy of it.
Now he was under strict orders to be near Elena, to indulge in her scent, and to see such a sight. He only wished he didn't enjoy it as much as he did. He was constantly fighting the evil in his head, constantly arguing with himself to not hover over her. He would watch as she stared at him thinking he wasn't looking. But he could feel the judging yet sympathetic glances of his older brother. Stefan didn't know why, but these glances were becoming his mental downfall. He could not figure out why they meant so much yet so little. Every time he looked at Damon's eyes, he had seen his Mother as she looked when she and he would lay down in her bed, even with how weak she was. It seemed to have the only effect on him.
Her blood was the key which to Stefan, only meant that it was most likely the most delicious blood you could taste. He could imagine the blood trickling down the back of his throat after flowing along his taste buds. He could feel the hunger as he drooled over her scent. There was no doubt in Stefan's mind that it was going to be a long battle to recovering. He was trying to feel hope, hope that this Michal character that Klaus feared so much, could stop him to free Stefan, but the hope was simply not there.
Damon continued to turn his eyes from Elena to Stefan, not knowing which one he should be watching. The thoughts that he tried to keep in the back of his mind about what Katherine was really doing with Jeremy right now, and if she was feeding on him, or even if she wasn't getting this Michal guy. He could see Stefan's eyes flickering from Damon to Elena. All Damon wanted was to get Elena out of the house and in his protection. "Elena we should go meet up with Alaric. He has been waiting a few minutes now," said Damon. Elena knew what Damon was trying to do and even she got the hint of Stefan's lurching. She followed closely behind Damon, leaving Stefan behind, something she never did before.
They continued out to the car and pulled away as Stefan watched from the window. Elena noticed the emptiness on his face. Something was off about Stefan, not just his humanity. "Where are we really going?" she asked Damon. "Somewhere I think is safe. I suggested Alaric got a motel room for a meeting spot, so we're heading there," he answered, not making any eye contact. Elena wasn't sure of his idea, or what was going on in his head, but she knew his choices would benefit them both so she decided arguing wasn't best. Instead they drove in silence until they pulled up to the shabby motel. "I thought you and Rick weren't on good terms," Elena said almost question-like. "He isn't doing this for me; he's doing this for you. Besides your house is open to Stefan and Klaus so it isn't safe."
They walked into the room which was connected to a white patio that had a surprisingly nice view. Alaric was giving a welcoming smile to Elena yet a cruel glare to Damon. Standing in the doorway, almost like a sheet of glass between the room and Damon, Elena began to laugh. "I thought Vampire's could enter hotels and motels?" she asked with a burst of giggles. Damon's face was pointed directly to a smirking Alaric. "It's a leased room isn't it?" Damon asked. "Yeah I thought I'd give you hell for killing me. Plus it's a pay as you go room, and no other vampires can get in without me inviting them so Elena and Jeremy will be safe," Alaric replied with the same giggling tone Elena had. Damon cleared his throat to announce his forgotten presence. "Right, come in Damon."
He smiled and dropped on one of the two king-sized beds, patting the spot next to him to signal Elena. She looked at Rick for his approval, but then it didn't matter to her. She sat further away than Damon liked, but her presence alone was enough for him. "So first order of business, the whole personal guard thing with Stefan. He's being compelled to turn his humanity off, but I can tell he's fighting it," Damon announced, studying Elena's blank expression. "So all we need is to somehow prevent the compulsion like we did with Katherine," Alaric replied. "The vervain is too noticeable for Klaus. He can smell it from a mile away. We need another way," said Damon boldly. "I have an idea. Damon you said Caroline's dad resisted your compulsion without vervain by using his mind. So now that means we just have to convince Stefan to fight harder," Elena suggested. Damon gave her a commending look, which built up her confidence, noticeable by the smile of pride she wore so well. "Very good Elena, you've come up with a plan that I can work with, and doesn't involve you getting yourself killed," Damon said sarcastically.
They continued on, filling each other in on different events including such of a sort as Rick joining the council. Damon wasn't pleased, but he knew that all idiotic things had benefits. When Damon arrived home from leaving Elena and Alaric, Stefan was sitting on the couch with two girls, sucking the essence from them. "A little messy aren't we owe great ripper," Damon said with a tone of sarcasm. Stefan's smug look was so arrogant it took all of Damon's strength not to smack him around a little bit. "Where is my Elena at?" he asked, trying to sound uninterested. "Wouldn't you like to know? Well Stefan, she no longer cares what you do and she doesn't have to pretend she does just so she doesn't feel guilty about you doing something stupid. Her words not mine," Damon taunted, hiding his motive. Trying to remain composure, Stefan turned back to the girls on the couch. "Would you like some? Oh that's right; Elena doesn't like her vampire boyfriends to take it fresh. But feel free to some bags down stairs, I'm sure they'll do you justice," said Stefan.
It was hurting Damon not to kill the arrogant boy who stood before him, but he kept in mind that it was his little brother. Damon thought that he would have to changes his tactics to a harsher and crueler way by bring up the past and revealing a few secrets, on the count of the point that he was trying to make a vampire with no humanity feel remorse and guilt. "You know Stefan, I was thinking about a good friend of yours the other day. I believe her name was Lexi. I was just curious about what she would think of you, what with you giving up like you did destroying all the work she did on you," Damon said. "Yeah you mean the Lexi you killed," Stefan said, trying to avoid the statement. "Yeah I suppose I did, didn't I? Well I mean it's only realistic for you to turn it off. You've lost your best friend, and you've lost the only thing worth breathing for. But then again it won't last," Damon said before beginning to make an exit.
"Wait, what do you mean it won't last?" Stefan shouted. "Oh nothing important. Just that Rose said there are a few default's with the information I had about turning off your humanity. But what would she know, I mean she was almost as old as the originals right?" Damon asked. He began to see the creases forming on Stefan's face and he knew it was working, but he had to push just enough, only push a tad more. "What defaults?" Stefan demanded. "Oh she just said that it either wears off after a few years which is unlikely, or you can the most realistic one, you get stuck and cannot turn your humanity back on." Stefan was at a breaking point now, Damon knew that. "You're lying. That isn't possible. Klaus would have told me!" Stefan shot back. "You mean like he told you about him and Rebecca? I'm sure he would have Stefan just look at him. Anyway that is just the information I was given, do with it what you will. You aren't my problem anymore. But know this brother, even I know that no matter how un-human you are, you will always love Elena, and if you do lose your humanity permanently, she is never going to be yours again."
The damage was done, and Stefan was almost broke. Damon knew that Stefan needed time alone with his thoughts and in his current state he was counting on Stefan asking questions tomorrow. Damon left Stefan and went to his room to digest all that had happened recently. Elena said he needed to work on processing information before acting on it, so why not start with sleeping on things? He relaxed on his bed, waiting to fall into a slumber, but it didn't seem to come naturally. He realized it was his instinct to stay alert when danger is near, so he locked the door and stuck a chair under the knob. He could finally sleep after that.
(AAR or after action report)= ok so I hoped you enjoyed reading it as I did writing it. I so this Friday I'll write chapter two, Saturday I will asses it then post it. I just want my story to kind of stay a bit on track with the actual show hence I do this once a week plus I'm working on my novel series which, I know I'm not publishing age, but I'm really preparing for public eyes. Also I think I'm stopping triangles to squares at least for a little bit because it was basically my first project and not well written. I rushed it and made it sloppy. But if I do decide to continue it, then there will be a sequel. It is important you read these because it's information for weekly readers. For those wondering I will be putting all your favorite characters as well as a few of my own in there. If you have a suggestion or a remark you think I should hear, let me know I will definitely get back to you, I check every Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday to help or enlighten. I'm pretty involved with my work. Thanks R&R and I'll see you on Saturday!