He had destroyed everything. His past and his future within a few hours.

As the gold dice dissolved in his palm, his regrets blossomed. Revenge was not what he imagined it would be. He was alone. Entirely alone. The only person who could see him, really see him, had shut the door in his face. How could he have been so foolish? He had truly believed the vision, Rey by his side as his apprentice, would come to pass. He'd fallen for the same tricks Snoke always played. Snoke had been a master of manipulation, never revealing the full plot until it was too late to make another choice. But Snoke was dead and he, Kylo Ren, was Supreme Leader of the First Order. Now he had a choice. All he needed was a vision.

"We will leave here immediately," he growled, his black cape billowing behind him as he strode out of the bunker and towards his ship.

"Yes, Supreme Leader," Hux said trying to keep the tone of annoyance from escaping his mouth. General Hux thought this entire escapade had been a waste of time and resources. All to fuel the ego of wounded child.

When they had returned to what was left of the Supremacy, Kylo called General Hux into a small dark room lined with windows. "We have an opportunity to start fresh, Hux."

"What do mean, Supreme Leader?"

"Everything is gone. Everything the First order was working for, what Snoke was working for, is void."

"I suppose you're right," There hadn't been a moment to think about it in the few hours since Snoke's death. "Well, what did you have in mind?" He grabbed a bottle of transparent amber liquid and poured them both a small glass.

"A system where people are free to make their own choices instead of being manipulated by fear."

"It's certainly a place to start. Will there still be a First Order when you've made the galaxy 'free' as you so lovingly put it?"

"Yes, Hux," Kylo growled. "There will always be an Order. And there will always be someone trying to destroy it."

"And the rebellion?"

"You mean my mother and her handful of loyal servants?" He scoffed. "They don't concern me at present."

Kylo took the glass from Hux, they nodded to one another. "To the new Order," said Hux raising his glass. They both took a sip of the strongly fermented liquid.

"If you'll allow me one more question, Supreme Leader," said Hux cautiously.

"What?"

"What about the girl, the force and all that…. Other stuff?"

"Other stuff?" They locked eyes and Hux immediately faltered. "I'll handle it." Kylo said, finishing his glass and leaving the room. "We have work to do!"

It had been three days since the battle on Crait and Rey hadn't had a restful nights sleep yet. There had been a ton of down time since they fled on the Falcon with the resistance and no room to be alone and think about what had happened. How had she been so naïve? To think the vision Snoke had planted in her mind, she and Ben as partners protecting Leia and restoring the galaxy to a free system of government, had been reality. Even now she struggled separating the truth with Snoke's lies. Had any of it actually happened? Had she even been speaking to Ben? Or was the whole thing Snoke manipulating her?

She was sure of one thing: On Crait after the battle they had connected again despite Snoke's death. So maybe…

"What are you thinking about?" Asked Finn from across the Dejarik table.

"It's nothing," she said and turned her attention to the game she was now losing.

"That's a load of tauntaun shit," he replied defending against her attempted attack. "Rey, I don't know what happened and I never will unless you decide to tell me. You don't have to. But if you do, I'm here."

"I want so badly to tell you everything but I'm still not sure what happened myself," she tried to corner another of his players.

"I'm not trying to force you. I just want you to know I'm here if you're ever ready to share."

"Damn it, Finn!" She yelled as he killed her last strategic piece. "What about you? There's a lot of tension between the two of you," she said nodding towards Rose who sat cleaning blasters in nearby nook.

"I know. I don't think I feel the same way though."

"Really? She seems perfect for you."

"Well, there's someone else," he said returning his focus to the game.

"Who, Phasma?"

"Unbelievable!" He laughed. "You're going down!" They laughed as Finn's final move ended the game.

After another night of fitful sleep Rey woke frustrated and determined to get her mind and body focused. The entire ship was still sleeping when she got up which made it a perfect time to try and meditate (something she'd been unable to do since leaving Ahch-To). She snuck quietly into one of the ships old smuggling holes and focused on her breathing. And what felt like a lifetime later, she accessed the force around her. So many questions weighed on her with no one around to give her an informed answer. She was alone in this as she had been her entire life. But now she felt empty, confused and angry. She needed someone and the only person who could possibly understand what she was feeling was him… But they couldn't, she couldn't, work it out now.

Tears gently rolled down her face as she returned her conscience to the small hole she was hiding inside of on the Falcon. Suddenly, the lid of her hiding place cracked open and Finn's face beamed around the corner, "Breakfast!" He smiled, and then, realizing she was crying, he snuck carefully into the hole beside her and held her as she wept.

"I want to tell you what happened," she sniffed. "But please promise you won't judge me for it."

"Rey, the things I've seen and done in my life… I couldn't judge you. I care too much about you."

"I care about you too, Finn," She sobbed.

"What happened, Rey?"

She told Finn every detail from beginning to end as clearly as she could remember it. Arriving on Ahch-To to disappointment, Luke drinking green milk from a strange creature, the force connection with Ben and the vision that prompted her to leave Luke and go to him against Luke's warnings. And her disappointment when she realized it had all been a meticulously woven trap that she had been stupid enough to step in.

"The craziest part," she said wiping her noise on her arm wrap, "is that I actually thought he cared for me. I thought we'd be partners somehow even after all he's done… I thought I could fix him! I'm so bloody stupid!"

"That is pretty dumb. But I get it."

"You do?"

"Yeah. I mean, I hate him but I also understand your desire for him to turn. Then at least you'd have someone who understood all the," Finn waved his hands in the air, "force stuff…"

Rey chuckled and wiped her eyes. "If it's any consolation, I firmly believe he is a complete monster."

"Good." Finn smiled sheepishly, "Now let's get out of here!"