Title: A Letter From the Heart
Author: Lady Tomanaiya
Category: Deathfic, Angst, Sap
Pairing(s): 1+2
Disclaimers: They aren't mine, but I'm sure as hell gonna play with them! (Maybe even break `em a little! (::snicker snicker::)
Rating: PG
Warnings: Dark, Depressing, Deathfic, Kinda sappy, Contains slight shonen-ai
Notes: This is the first ficcie I ever wrote!!
Feedback: PLEASE!! Comments are wanted more desperately than chocolate pocky! (Which is *really* rare around here!) The address is ladytomanaiya@yahoo.com!
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Soon, it'll over. All over. All the pain will be gone. I loved you, Heero. But I couldn't admit it. I had dreams. I wanted to be with you forever. I wanted to see the real Heero Yuy; the person behind the "Perfect Soldier" facade. I wanted to see all of you, not just the few glimpses you gave me. I wanted to let you see the real me, the person behind the joker's mask. I wanted to tell you my true feelings... But we don't always get what we want, now do we?
One mission. That one mission the "Perfect Soldier" failed destroyed all my dreams; smashed them against the rocky shores of life. I wonder what the others will think when they find my body. They'll probably feel sorry for me. I don't need their pity. Not now or ever. Maybe they'll think I was weak; that I couldn't take it anymore. In that case, they're right. I couldn't. None of them could understand how I felt. None of them could know how much pain it caused to lose you. My heart was on fire. I t was if a million knives were being stabbed into me at once. My heart felt like it was going to burst. I wish it had. I can still remember your last words...
"No chance of survival; too many Mobile Dolls still left. Duo, I promised you I wouldn't kill myself, so I won't self-destruct. I'll go out fighting. Always remember, Duo, I love you. Ai shiteru...."
Then the screen died and I knew I'd never see you again. In this life or the next. Someone like me doesn't belong in heaven, where you are. I deserve whatever punishment I get in the afterlife. I'll miss you, Heero, with all my heart and soul. I just couldn't take the pain anymore. Please forgive me for what I've done...
The darkness is closing in. Death is coming for me. I'm sorry. Please forgive me...
Goodbye, Heero. I love you. Ai shiteru, Heero...
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Lady Tomanaiya
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Keeper of Heero's Ammunition
Keeper of Duo's Sense of Pride
Keeper of Trowa's Emerald Green Eyes
Keeper of Quatre's Silk Lapels
Keeper of Wufei's Chauvinistic Tendencies
Co-Keeper of Heero's "Hn" (with Lady DarkAngel)
Co-Keeper of Duo's Chatter (with Lady DarkAngel)
Co-Writer of Wufei's Rants (with Lady DarkAngel)
Keeper of the Quixotic Muses: Varian, Satira, and Takari
Co-Keeper of a Real-life Hamster Named Heero Yuy (Hee-chan) (with Lady DarkAngel)
One of the Twisted Sisters of GW
Artist for the Shinigami Organization
Member & Noise Moderator of the 1x2ML
Co-Founding Member & Moderator of the VashChichiriDuoML
Proud Member of the SDDI
Author: Lady Tomanaiya
Category: Deathfic, Angst, Sap
Pairing(s): 1+2
Disclaimers: They aren't mine, but I'm sure as hell gonna play with them! (Maybe even break `em a little! (::snicker snicker::)
Rating: PG
Warnings: Dark, Depressing, Deathfic, Kinda sappy, Contains slight shonen-ai
Notes: This is the first ficcie I ever wrote!!
Feedback: PLEASE!! Comments are wanted more desperately than chocolate pocky! (Which is *really* rare around here!) The address is ladytomanaiya@yahoo.com!
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Soon, it'll over. All over. All the pain will be gone. I loved you, Heero. But I couldn't admit it. I had dreams. I wanted to be with you forever. I wanted to see the real Heero Yuy; the person behind the "Perfect Soldier" facade. I wanted to see all of you, not just the few glimpses you gave me. I wanted to let you see the real me, the person behind the joker's mask. I wanted to tell you my true feelings... But we don't always get what we want, now do we?
One mission. That one mission the "Perfect Soldier" failed destroyed all my dreams; smashed them against the rocky shores of life. I wonder what the others will think when they find my body. They'll probably feel sorry for me. I don't need their pity. Not now or ever. Maybe they'll think I was weak; that I couldn't take it anymore. In that case, they're right. I couldn't. None of them could understand how I felt. None of them could know how much pain it caused to lose you. My heart was on fire. I t was if a million knives were being stabbed into me at once. My heart felt like it was going to burst. I wish it had. I can still remember your last words...
"No chance of survival; too many Mobile Dolls still left. Duo, I promised you I wouldn't kill myself, so I won't self-destruct. I'll go out fighting. Always remember, Duo, I love you. Ai shiteru...."
Then the screen died and I knew I'd never see you again. In this life or the next. Someone like me doesn't belong in heaven, where you are. I deserve whatever punishment I get in the afterlife. I'll miss you, Heero, with all my heart and soul. I just couldn't take the pain anymore. Please forgive me for what I've done...
The darkness is closing in. Death is coming for me. I'm sorry. Please forgive me...
Goodbye, Heero. I love you. Ai shiteru, Heero...
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Lady Tomanaiya
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Keeper of Heero's Ammunition
Keeper of Duo's Sense of Pride
Keeper of Trowa's Emerald Green Eyes
Keeper of Quatre's Silk Lapels
Keeper of Wufei's Chauvinistic Tendencies
Co-Keeper of Heero's "Hn" (with Lady DarkAngel)
Co-Keeper of Duo's Chatter (with Lady DarkAngel)
Co-Writer of Wufei's Rants (with Lady DarkAngel)
Keeper of the Quixotic Muses: Varian, Satira, and Takari
Co-Keeper of a Real-life Hamster Named Heero Yuy (Hee-chan) (with Lady DarkAngel)
One of the Twisted Sisters of GW
Artist for the Shinigami Organization
Member & Noise Moderator of the 1x2ML
Co-Founding Member & Moderator of the VashChichiriDuoML
Proud Member of the SDDI