I walk around this noisy town,
But the noises turn to silence.
The walkway grew narrow,
Forgetting your presence.
I'd forgotten how long I'd seen your smile,
How blue were your eyes?
As blue as the sky,
Where we said our goodbyes.
I sat at our bench in the park,
Alone and isolated.
No one walked in sight,
As if this place were haunted.
If that were so,
Why did I come back?
That when everytime I think of you,
I nearly have a heart attack.
Fate had torn us apart,
Torn us into two.
If fate was something positive,
Why didn't it take me and not you?
My tears never stopped.
Even when I wasn't crying, I was.
I was at my ugliest when I did this,
But you always told me I had no flaws.
If I had no flaws, then why did you do this?
Where did you go?
Why did you leave me, Dougie?
Did you already know?
Did you already know that I lost a piece of me,
When I lost all of you?
Nothing can replace it, babe,
And you already knew.
I take out my wallet,
Revealing a picture of us.
You always knew how to pose for the camera,
You've always left me breathless.
I wipe my hidden tears away,
Crying inside, sobbing deeply.
Remembering this day as our last together,
Remembering you say, "I love you, Danny."
I ask the unknown question,
If you loved me, why did you go?
This could never be answered.
I define myself as hollow.
The memory swarm into my mind,
Seeing you on the floor with that knife.
Without a smile, blood from your wrists,
Not being there to stop you, from ending your life.
But something always snaps me back,
My own mind can't take it.
It runs away from everything,
As would I, afraid to admit.
To admit that I was scared,
Fearing that memory.
Fearing of losing the memory of you,
Everyday it grows more hazy.
Sometimes, I grow paranoid,
Sticking my hand out in thin air.
Seeing the memory flying away,
Quickly grabbing back what was still there.
I'd spend my days like this,
Until day grew to night.
I'd stand up from our abandoned park bench,
The streetlights beginning to ignite.
Still no one outside, it'd been awhile.
Awhile since I talked to someone, loved someone.
Everyone I loved thought I'm in a phase.
I'm not. I'm broken.
I walk along this narrowed walkway,
Feeling you at my side.
I turn to put my arms around you,
But I don't see you, again, I die inside.
If I keep on dying, why am I still here?
All I want is to be with you.
Some people are crazy, and beg me not to go.
It's hard, Dougie. What else can I do?
"You have a beautiful smile." You said to me, nervous.
I smiled back. "You're beautiful." urging forward, waiting for this.
You filled the gap, our lips brushing,
As we shared our first kiss.
Our house is empty, has been for a while.
I wished that everything I dreamt was true.
That I'd hear you come through the door.
The only thing I wish I could undo.
I miss when you were my boy, Dougie,
And I miss you.