Blood runs down my arms
I love the smell
The taste
It gives me a rush
It makes my pulse race
When I slash my wrist open
The moment of pain
The moment when reality fades
And all I can feel is my heart beat
All I can see is the darkness of my thoughts
But it's not enough
The pain is not enough
To make me forget the world
I look to my right
To find a bottle of pills
A bottle of vodka
An idea forms
The most twisted thought
Dark and dangerous
As if this weren't enough
Nothing is enough for me
I always need more
More of a rush
More of a dangerous thing
I know no boundaries
I know no limits
I swallow the handfull
And i take a sip
And the wrold fades away