I try to make through my life, in my way, there's you
I try to make through these lies, that's all I do
I try to make it through this life but you stand in my way making it harder to breath. It's like I'm drowning in my own sorrow, and self-pity. When you chose Edward over me did you intend for this to happen? Maybe or maybe not, but I'll never know. But one thing was for sure. I loved you.
Just don't deny
Don't try to fight this
And deal with it
And that's just part of it
You denied you're feeling for me many a time before, but I could see right through you're web of lies. It pained you to see me go and leave you as it our friendship meant nothing. It may have hurt you but try standing in my shoes. You left my heart shattered the pieces scattered on the floor. So go ahead live your life because "I don't care".
If you were dead or still alive
I don't care, I don't care
Just go and leave this all behind
'Cause I swear (I swear)
I don't care
Sometimes I wish you were dead. It's a horrible thought but it's the truth. Why should I suffer because of you? Why do you get to have a story book ending? When I'm living through a nightmare. My friends say you were nothing but a "two-timing backstabbing witch". It hurts to hear them say that but it hurts even more because I agree with them. You left all this behind, all your friends, and family. You just packed your bags and left without so as much as a single word. "If you were dead or still alive" Jacob whispered under his breath "I don't care".
I try to make you see my side
I always try to stay in line
But your eyes see right through
That's all they do
I'm getting buried in this place
I've got no room you're in my face
Don't say anything just go away
You tried many times to reason with me but it never work. I would always control my more dominant side, but when it breached through my walls. It always broke out towards you, trying to control every aspect of your life. For that I'm sorry. I wondered many times why you never apologized to me. You saw how much it hurt me when you chose the bloodsuckers over me. If you came to me today to apologies and make things right between us all I can say is "Don't say anything just go away".
If you were dead or still alive
I don't care, I don't care
Just go and leave this all behind
'Cause I (I swear)
I don't care
Not changing everything
'Cause you won't be there for me
Not changing everything
'Cause you won't be there for me
So I'm not immortal like you precious Edward! I'm sorry I can't grant you the gift of immortality, but I have something Edward doesn't have. A beating heart. I'm sick of feeling this way because of you. I fell for you hard and now I pay the price. I'll find someone new give them all my love. The love that you rejected within a heartbeat, just too runaway with your vampire casanova. I'm who I am, and I'm not changing for you. Not now. Not ever.
If you were dead or still alive
I don't care, I don't care
Just go and leave this all behind
'Cause I swear (I swear)
I don't care
I you were dead or still alive
I don't care, I don't care
Just go and leave this all behind
'Cause I swear (I swear)
I don't care
After all these years I've only realized one thing, I don't care.
At all