I keep telling myself that this will be the last time. That I will finally save you. That you will finally manage to live.

Everytime I go back, it ends in failure.

Kyubey always finds a way to get to you. Always manages to get by me.

Always manages to make a contract with you.

I want to stop him. I want to save you. It seems like I can't, no matter how many times I try. The result is always the same.

Now, my failures have caused you so much harm. Though you are unable to notice it, I am constantly hurt by the fact that I am the one who will be the cause of your pain.

The cause of your death.

Kyubey will use my mistake to his advantage. To create the most powerful Magical Girl in existence.

He will be using you.

It's all my fault.

I should have never fallen for his tricks. Sometimes I think, that maybe, I should have let the world just end. Walpurgis should have destroyed everything when given the chance.

But I was selfish.

Madoka, you are my best friend. I couldn't stand to see you die. A world without you isn't a world worth living in at all.

I wanted to be with you, not forever, but at least until my time would finally be up. At least you would be able to live. I wouldn't mind dying for you if it meant you would be safe from this other world.

After experiencing your death, I wanted to make sure it would never happen again. The story is never the same. Everytime I try to save you, something happens. Our friends suffer each time. Even I can't stop them from making a contract with Kyubey.

Could it be a sign for me to give up? Can I never save you? Will I be forced to live this recurring nightmare forever? Never being able to save you and make Kyubey go after you even more?

Why can't you see that he just wants to use the hidden power within you?

Why couldn't I stop him in time?

This time will be the last, I'll make sure of it.

This time, I will be stronger. I will stop him. I swear I won't let him reach you.

I'll make sure that this time; you won't be contaminated by the Kyubey's sweet lies. You won't have to give yourself up for me. Instead, I'll give myself up for you. Isn't that what I've been doing all along?

I will save you, Madoka. Finally, you will manage to live.

Note: I know there are other fanfics like this, with Homura's POV and everything, but I just felt like writing this.