Okay, So I just logged on in about what 3 months? I didnt know fanfiction deleted old chapters that havent been posted. That more or less blew my day. But this is another story I have been working on for awhile. Well here we go!

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There it was.

Sam and Emily's wedding invitation.

It read: You have cordially been invited to the wedding of Samuel Uley and Emily Young . .

I can't take this. I can't take all this pain and bitterness inside the inner depths of my heart. I thought time could mend a broken heart, but it has been four years since Sam and I broke up, so if that is true why do I still feel this way? Broken beyond repair, lost, and scorn? Nobody can bare to around me, not my mom, Seth, Jake or anybody else in our pack and Sam's pack. I don't blame them. I wouldn't want to be around me either.

I don't want to be this Leah, the bitter harpy, but I know I could never become the old Leah, who was happy and whose smile would brighten up a room. I could never be the Leah that was soft and warm, not after all I have been through. I desperately wished I could be her. Those were happier times, I had my family, I had friends, and more importantly I had Sam. Sam Uley. That man will forever own a piece of heart. No matter how much I want it back, he will always have it.

Maybe there would be a way for me to become a new Leah, not bitter and sarcastic or warm and soft, but a nice place in the middle. Could I become that girl? A girl who is lovable and nice, but strong and independent. A girl who isn't afraid of love and being loved. Could I become that girl? Maybe, but not in La Push. La push has too many memories. I can't truly move on with constant reminders of Sam and Emily's love or reminders of my father.

Would anybody miss me? I doubt it. Sam and Emily would be happy for me to leave, so that they can live their fairytale life without guilt. Mom would miss me for a little while, but she has Charlie and Seth, she will be fine. Jacob, Quil, and Embry were never my real friends; if anything they were comardes. The only two people who would miss would be Seth and Rose. Seth because even though I am pain and annoying he has loved me through all of this and Rose because in spite of her being a leech we have become best friends. We both share a pain and longing that nobody understands. We both were thrusted into this mythical world without anyone asking did we really want to. We lost things that can never be reclaimed. It took almost everthing from us and barely gave us anything in return. At least Rose had Emmett, love of her life. I can't deny that Rose didn't loose alot, but I lost alot more. I lost myself, my father, my family,my friends, the ability to have childern, and the love of my life.

It's time for a change. It's time I leave La Push. I can't tell anyone. They would beg and make sure I stay here, but I don't understand why though. It would be alot easier on everyone. Actually I am not doing this for everyone elses' benefit. I am doing this for myself because I need this. I need to reinvent myself and I can't do that in La Push or Forks or even the whole state of Washington. I need to go farther away. Maybe to California perhaps? I can't phase and run there. The pack would hear me and try to stop me. I could fly, I suppose. I actually do have the money for it. Before my dad died he put money in both mine and Seth's bank accounts, it was for college, but that never happened.

I hopped in my car and drove to the bank in Forks. If I went to the one in La Push some one would want to know why I would need 10,000 dollars. La Push is a small town and word travels fast, by the time I made the withdrawl both packs would have been outside demanding an explantion. Pfft...Like they would even get one. It's my life and I will do what I want.

I walked into the bank and saw a friendly old lady banker who was open.

"Hello dear. How may I help you?" She asked kindly.

"Hi. I am here to make a withdrawl from my savings account," I told her.

"Sure thing sweetie. May I see some identification?"

"Sure thing." I gave her my ID.

"Okay, Sweetheart everything checks out okay. How much do want to take out?"

"10,000 dollars," I told her. She looked stunned. I am pretty sure nobody in this town ever took out that much money.

"10,000 dollars? That is alot of money. May I ask why you need so much money?"

Normally I would have snapped at someone who would ask me anything, but I can't bring myself to be mean to an old lady. Hey! I may be bitter, but I am not totally heartless.

"I am starting my life over and I don't want to struggle. Especially since I have some money. I can't live here anymore. I have tried facing and conquering my problems, but all it does is bring me pain and make me a bitter person. To be honest I am only 20 and I am tired of being bitter. It's not normal (Not that anything about me is normal). I just need a fresh start, I guess," I honestly told the lady.

"Oh dear! I understand. I did the same thing when I was around your age. My boyfriend left me for my best friend. I was devestated, so I left. I needed it, I guess. If I had stayed I would never be the woman I am today," the elderly lady told me proudly.

"Really? I know this is going to sound weird, but that is my exact problem. My ex-boyfriend broke up with me for my cousin/best friend and I just can't take it anymore. I have to leave," I told her.

"I understand. Here is your money," she handed me an envelope of money, "Just promise me that you will come back, okay? You can't go off and change and not show everyone else right?" she chuckled.

"Right."

"Well good luck honey. I'll pray for you to be safe," the lady kindly told me.

"Thank you so much. Goodbye."

"Goodbye."

Wow. Someone went through something just like this and look at her now! That woman is how I want to be... Well, not exactly, but she seemed so kind and pure. It's inspiring.

I drove home to gather my clothes, but I had to make sure no one was home.

"Hello?" I called out. No replied...Wait what's that? On coffee table was a note that said Leah on it. I read it

Hey Leah!

We went to Sam and Emily's barbeque to celebrate their wedding.

You can come if you want, but I doubt it.

There is dinner in the fridge.

Love mom and Seth

Yeah. They were right. I wouldn't have gone to that party even if some filthy bloodsuckers were torturing me and I mean that. I never understood why everyone thought now that I know about imprinting I would get over it. It just made it worst. Fate decided that I wasn't good enough for Sam. Also from what they told me the imprinter becomes whatever the imprintee needs. So Emily needed a lover? She couldn't just be his friend for my sake? What the imprintee wants the imprintee gets. Emily wanted Sam and Sam is what she got, but she lost me in the process. I don't think I could ever truly forgive Emily. I feel betrayed by her. To be honest I am not even mad at Sam anymore, he didn't have a choice, but Emily always had a choice, but she just chose wrong I guess.

I guess the best thing to do is write letters for people. I think I am going to write letters to Sam, Emily, Mom, Seth, and Jake. They all need to know why I am leaving. I quickly grabbed a pen and a couple of pieces of paper and poured my heart out. When I was done I went upstairs and packed my clothes and anything else I thought was important and needed.

I know this sounds crazy, but I am going to miss La Push, not the people necessarily, but this is my home. I drove all the way to the train station. I knew exactly where I was headed.

"Hi. Can I help you?" the ticket lady asked me.

"Yes. When is the next train leaving to California?"

"California? Hmm... Let me check...AH! Yes, we do have a train leaving in 20 mintues, but you better hurry if you want to catch it."

"Okay, how much?" I asked. This is so conveinent, maybe fate and luck decided they were done being cruel and want to be on my side?

"That would be $50," she said.

I gave her the money and rushed to catch my train. I just handed my bag to the man before he closed the storage. Man aren't I lucky?

Well now its time for me to sit back and relax. California here I come baby!

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Seth POV

Well the party was nice, plus there was alot of food, and I mean alot. It all went well in the end. I think Emily wanted Leah to come, I mean they were practically like sisters before all this. I don't blame Leah for not going. In her eye's Emily betrayed her and there was a slim to none chance that she would be forgiven any time soon.

"So that was a nice party. I think Emily expected Leah to come," I lightly chuckle.

"Yes, it was nice and when we get home I am going to talk to Leah and get her to come to their wedding," mom said.

I stopped dead in my tracks. She can't even think about doing that. Leah would never agree to that and thats exactly what I told her.

"Seth, it's time Leah gets over this. She knows the truth and she can't blame Emily or Sam. It's the way things have to be," she said and with that she walked into the house. I can't believe my mom would even think about something like this. Leah would never go to their wedding.

"Leah? LEAH!" mom called out, but nobody responded.

Where is Leah? She should be home by now...wait.. What's that on the coffee table?

"Mom, what are all those papers?" I asked pointing to the stacks of papers. My mom went to grab the one that said Mom on it. She read it then her face went pale. What's wrong? Where is Leah?

"What is it mom?" I asked

"She's gone...She left.."

"What that can't be true," I said. This cant be true. Leah wouldnt leave me, she wouldnt leave us. NO, no, no this isnt right.

"Go read your letter!" mom snapped.

I ran to the letter that said Seth. It said

Hey there baby bro!

So, if your reading this then you should know that I have left La Push. I am done being bitter and angry, but I cant do that in La Push, so I have to leave. I am doing this for me, Seth. I know you are probably mad at me for leaving me, but I have to do this. It's time for me to be happy and I can't do this in La Push. I love you. And don't worry, I will come back and don't think that doesnt mean I won't write to you. I will always keep you posted on my life. Well I am done. I love you, Seth and never forget that.

Love,

Leah

P.S. Don't look for me.

I can't believe this. I don't believe it. She left. I understand why, but I just can't believe it. I was shaking uncontrollably.

"Seth, go outside," mom said.

I ran outside and phased. I howled so loud that every wolf in La Push heard and phased instantly. They all were searching my mind to see what was wrong. I didn't care what they saw. I just didn't know what to do anymore.

Leah left. Sam stated.

Yeah because of you! I growled.

Seth, you know I couldn't control it, he stated calmly.

How can you be so calm about this?! My sister was so heart broken that she had to leave! Do you not even care about her anymore?! I growled. I was so outraged with Sam I was suprised I haven't killed him yet

Of course I care! I still love, Leah and I will always love her! Sam snarled. It was no secret that Sam still loved Leah, it was just something that was never openly stated.

Well you have a funny way of showing it. Anyways she left. She left you and Emily a letter. Come get it and never come to my house ever again! I yelled then phased back to human and ran to my room.

Why did Leah have to leave us?

Okayy So Here We Go! I Know It's Been awhile since I've made anything, but I think I may do just a bunch of short stories or just one-shots. This story right here though may become a legit story though. I mean it could though right?

Should it be more or should I just leave it alone?

But seriously, I'm back. I have soo many ideas right now! But suggestions are welcomed. Gosh! I've missed you guys :D

Ciao my loves,

Breezy-Love