Trust and Love
Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha, unfortunately, and I also don't own the songs "Leave the Pieces" by The Wreckers. Yes i know i need to update my Twilight story and that is next on my list! This has been on my computer FOREVER though and i've finally finshed editing it so it's being posted. Please review and ENJOY!! ^_^
Part 1: How could you?
I didn't care anymore. He had gone off to visit Kikyo once again. I had gotten up in the middle of the night and discovered them together. The only thing I could make out was an "I love you". It was Kikyo who said it but I didn't get a chance to hear his answer. I had run off.
You're not sure that you love me
But you're not sure enough to let me go
Baby it ain't fair, you know
It isn't fair! How could he still love her! She died fifty years ago and he still can't let go! He needs to move on! At first I just wanted to punch something which only made me run faster. I don't know where I'm running. I just want to get away from the sight that is burned into my mind's eye.
To just keep me hangin' 'round
You say you don't want to hurt me
Don't wanna see my tears
So why are you still standin' here
Just a'watchin' me drown
I want to just collapse to the ground in a broken heap and cry but I know if I do that he'll catch up with me. He'll whisper sweet nothings in my ear and apologize a dozen times. He'll say he cares for me and I know I'll forgive him. I always forgive him, every time he runs off to Kikyo I tell him it's okay and that I understand. It's not okay! My heart can't take it anymore! It's slowly shattering into little pieces and soon there will be nothing left. I have to get away before it's too late.
And it's all right
Yeah, I'll be fine
Don't worry bout this heart a mine
Just take your love and hit the road
There's nothin you can do or say
You're gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go
I heard him yell my name. I can't stop. Not now. If I look back I won't be able to go forward. I won't be strong enough to resist those gorgeous amber eyes or the pleading in his voice. He'll just break another piece of my heart. I'll cry but I won't take him back. Not this time. If he wants to go run off with Kikyo then let him! For a split second anger overcomes my sadness but it doesn't last long. I answer his desperate calls with a shouted "SIT!" and keep running. Tears unwillingly start coursing down my face.
Now you can drag out the heartache
Baby, you could make it quick
He wasn't making this easy. I can still hear him following me even after the 'sit'. Why is he so desperate? I shake my head to try and clear my thoughts. I relished the brief moment of emptiness before that horrible image came back. He was in HER arms. He wasn't trying to get away but seemed to be enjoying it! The tears came down faster. I tried to wipe them away with the back of my hands but it didn't help. My breath started coming in ragged gasps. I know I can't keep this pace up much longer but I want to put as much distance between me and him as possible.
Really just get it over with
And just let me move on
Don't concern yourself
With this mess you left for me
I finally collapsed on the ground when a light rain started falling. The soft sound of the rain hitting the leaves helped to calm me slightly. I couldn't hear Inuyasha anymore. Maybe he finally gave up, I sure hope so. If I see him with Kikyo one more time I think I'll die, but that won't happen now because my mind is made up. Maybe this wouldn't have happened if he wouldn't lie about going off to see Kikyo. I only wanted to know the truth. Maybe it wouldn't hurt as much if he had told the truth. I didn't want him to follow me after I ran off tonight and yet I feel as if he's abandoned me. Why? How can I possibly still love him? After everything he's put me through I just want to move on with my life.
I can clean it up, you see
Just as long as you're gone
I have a wondrous family and awesome friends. I can make it without him. So why do I feel so empty? It's as if my heart was torn out of my chest. I lost all sense of time as I lay here not moving. Suddenly a pair of strong arms enveloped me. I looked down at the clawed hands numbly. He came? I thought I didn't matter? Maybe I still don't, this could just be a hallucination or better yet this could all just be a dream. What is he muttering about? I don't really care anymore. I started thrashing and telling my captor to let me go. His grip was tight and he refused to budge.
"Kagome! Kagome please! Let me explain! You didn't see the whole thing!" The whole thing? What is he talking about?!
"I did too! You were hugging her! You were going to admit you loved her! I knew you still loved her! I'm so stupid!" I screamed. I cried. But I wasn't going to just take this stupid boy back. Finally he let his arms drop. I took off at a sprint again. My legs burned but I kept going, I HAD to keep going. I heard Inuyasha start shouting at me. He hadn't seemed to realize that he'd released me.
You not makin up your mind
Is killin me and wastin time
I need so much more than that
I kept going and I never looked back. I ran as far as I could go before fainting.
This is part 1 of 3 and i will try to update later this week!! Depends on how much physics homework it get....man i hate physics!!!! Please push the button i know is somewhere that says review!!!
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