Disclaimer: I do not own Degrassi. Or the dialog.
A/N: This pairing intrigues me. Oh man. I am 100% EliClare, but for some reason after this episode, AdamClare is there, too. AND I ADORE IT. Yes, I used the dialog from the episode, how unoriginal of me. ROFL. This is my first AdamClare. And this scene was just too sweet to pass up. It is in Adam's POV. So here are my thoughts of what's going through Adam's head during this scene. :)
THIS IS ME
I can't do this anymore. Gracie kills me, I can't be her.
Pulling out my lighter and taking the barrette from my hair, I heated the metal and pressed it firmly to my skin. It had been so long since I've felt this, it was reassuring knowing I could maintain some control over the pain I was feeling. This was me, soothing my heart with physical pain. Tears fell from my eyes. I just hope this will end soon...
"What are you doing?" A voice - a beautiful one at that - startled me into throwing the barrette onto the table. I looked away, couldn't face what I'd done. Clare sat next to me and grabbed my arm, gently touching the burns. I quickly covered them with my hand. "Adam..." She wanted to cry, I could see it in her eyes.
I plastered a fake smile onto my face and said, "If I'm Gracie, everything's easier, right?" I paused then added, "For everyone." Her mouth opened, as if she was going to say something, but I didn't let her. "When I was her I used to burn myself. It was how I let the anger out."
"But you're not her -"
"I have to be her!" I snapped, instantly regretting it. She was trying to help me, she cared about me. I knew it. "For my mom, my family. For everyone!" She shook her head. "I'm trying so hard..."
"You don't have to change who you are." Her hand on my arm was reassuring. I let out a breath I wasn't aware that I was holding. "Everyone else does."
It was that exact moment where I, Adam Torres, fell in love with Clare Edwards.
"Here, let me help get you home," she said softly, rubbing my arm. "Okay?" She turned to the table and grabbed my barrette and lighter.
"Not in these clothes," I almost laughed, looking at her for a brief moment. It's awkward now, looking at her knowing that I feel something... different. She's beautiful in a different way - not hot like Bianca. I wouldn't consider Clare hot. It would be an insult, calling the most beautiful girl "hot". I guess I understand now, what Eli sees in Clare.
"Come inside," she said, standing up, "I'll find you something." She helped me up, grabbed my backpack for me, and slipped her arm across my shoulder and walked me to the entrance to the school. I couldn't help wondering - as I relaxed in the arms of the girl that my first real friend here just so happens to be in love with - what Eli would think. I would never want to hurt him by taking this amazing, trusting girl from him... but at the same time I wish she could be mine. She may not be going through what I'm going through, but she gets me. She accepts me. And she's protecting me.
Is it so wrong to have feelings for the first girl I'm attracted to that actually hasn't shunned me and wants to even jeopardize her school life by walking down the hall with her arm around me? I can't help but think, 'Eli Goldsworthy, you are the luckiest boy on Earth.'
Sorry that I butchered Adam... D: Review anyway?