Hi! So I'm kind of new to this fan fiction thing but I hope you all enjoy reading this! I'm not too sure whether I want it just to be a one shot or a whole story yet, but yeah... it is set when Quinn Fabray and her newborn daughter Beth are in the hospital. Quinn knows she is giving her daughter up to Shelby and she is writing letters to Beth (Beth will receive these letters when she is a teenager) so Quinn is writing as if they have already been separated. Sorry if thats confusing! Hope you all enjoy! Please R&R! Disclaimer: Unfortunately I don't own Glee or any of the characters :( _
PS. Sorry I didn't know the middle names or ages of some of the characters so I made them up, hope you still enjoy it though!
PPS. Last thing before you read! This chapter is Quinn telling Beth her story so it may be kinda boring so bear that in mind. If there are other chapters I will try and make them more interesting :)
Beth,
By the time you read these, you will be old enough to understand them... but you won't be with me anymore. Who am I you may ask? I'm your biological mother. I don't know how much you'll have been told about your background but I hope that you'll know you are adopted and that you'll take the time to read these letters.
I'm going to tell you my story; you deserve that much from me Beth. My name is Quinn Elizabeth Fabray (NB. I didn't know her middle name so I made it up) and I am your biological mother. Your father is Noah Alexander Puckerman (again I didn't know the middle name), but everyone calls him Puck. So, my story...it all started when I was sixteen years old (nb. I don't know how old she was). I was on top of the world – I was head cheerleader at McKinley High School, I had the most popular boy in school as my boyfriend (his name was Finn Hudson) I was in Glee Club (although this was not a popular thing, I enjoyed it), captain of the Celibacy club and everyone loved me. You were conceived one night when Puck came round my house to practise for our duet the following day, after we practised we sat down and had a drink... he got me drunk on wine coolers and I felt fat that day and so one thing led to another. I know now not to trust a boy when he says 'trust me' because that one night changed my life forever.
Please do not let what I'm telling you ever make you feel worthless or like you weren't wanted because although you were conceived how you were, you were wanted (maybe not by me but I was so young at the time) but your mother wanted you so badly, from the moment she saw you in the hospital. Anyway back to the story... when I found out that I was pregnant I couldn't bear Finn knowing I'd cheated on him so I told him the baby was his, along with some ridiculous story about a hot tub. Pretty soon it was all over school that I was pregnant and my world began to crumble. I was kicked off the Cheerio squad in disgrace, Finn was no longer popular because of Glee Club and we were no longer the 'it' couple, I left the Celibacy club (after all they couldn't have a pregnant captain) and all I had left was Glee Club. And so I focused on three things. The first was Glee Club – I wasn't about to let the only thing I had left go. Secondly – you. I wanted to keep you safe Beth, whether or not I was going to keep you at that time you were still a living person inside of me. And lastly, but most importantly I focussed on not letting Finn find out that Puck was in fact the father of my baby. Finn and Puck were both so sweet but before long most of my Glee Club members, excluding Finn had figured out that Puck was in fact your father. I got chucked out of my house when my parents found out I was pregnant and had moved in with Finn so I was desperate not to let him find out. But it was too late. A girl in the Glee Club, Rachel Berry who had always wanted Finn for herself told him. She thought she was helping him, she did care about him but Finn went ballistic, crazy. He loved you so much and to find out you weren't his was awful for him. Of course a fight broke out between him and Puck and led to me admitting that Puck was the father. That was the day I lost Finn, forever. Back to Rachel Berry for a moment, my story is a confusing one. Rachel was sort of my friend and enemy during my time at McKinley high school but she was adopted and only during that year found out who her mother was – Shelby, your mother Shelby. You and Rachel Berry are sisters. I don't know if you'll know about any of this but if you don't and only find out now I hope I'm helping you to understand why I did all of this. I was a scared little girl, who couldn't bring up a baby by herself. And I was selfish, I knew if I kept you I would never regain my popularity status and I couldn't bear that. So the day of Sectionals came and we went on stage ready to beat Vocal Adrenaline, our rivals who your mum Shelby coached. Halfway through the competition, thankfully after we'd finished our songs, I went into labour after seeing my mum for the first time in over seven months. I was rushed to the hospital with my mum, Puck and my good friend Mercedes (whose house I moved to after the fight with Puck and Finn) came with me in the room whilst my other Glee friends waited outside. And you were born, I'd already known you were a little girl but it was still a shock seeing you for the first time, your tiny little face, and miniature fingers. But even then I knew I couldn't keep you. A few days after I was gazing at you in the room with all the other babies with Puck when you to-be-mother Shelby came in to congratulate us, on both you and our performance at Sectionals (Vocal Adrenaline did beat us though) She asked what you were called and I didn't say anything, I couldn't give you a name because that would make it harder to give you up, but your father instantly replied – he'd already made up his mind. "Beth." He said, and so you became Beth (well Bethany, but you were always Beth to us.) I had it all arranged what I was going to do with you, Mr Schuster was the Head of Glee Club and his wife Terri thought she was pregnant, but it later turned out to be a hysterical pregnancy. Of course Terri couldn't tell Mr Schuster this and she convinced me to give you to her after you were born – it seemed the perfect solution to me, she needed a baby and I had one to give away. I knew that you'd be in good hands because I knew Mr Schuster and I knew what a good father he would be, they could have given you so much more than I could have – it was all working out. Until Mr Schuster found out, he was furious and it ended his marriage, but he wasn't mad at me. I was only doing what was best for you baby girl. So anyway after seeing you in the room with us Shelby heard that we were giving you up for adoption and she put herself forward – she told us that she'd messed up giving Rachel away when she was younger and wanted a chance to put this right with another little girl to give her love to. I knew she'd take good care of you, and that way we'd know who you were with and maybe even see you from time to time. So we accepted. That was one day ago and I'm still in hospital with you, we're still here because the hospital said you have to be at least two weeks old before you can go to Shelby, so that's six more days with you. I'm writing this so that one day, you'll know who you are and why you were adopted because I know if it was me, I'd want to know. I hope you're not mad at me and I hope you continue reading these letters, I promise you the next ones won't be filled with the trauma and drama of my life but I wanted you to know the way things were.
Quinn x