Brothers
You shone amongst the star like a highway of lights.
I watched my older brother in front of me going on about the plan one more time to make sure we hadn't forgotten and a part of me couldn't help but to see the sparkle in his eyes every time he spoke. I knew he loved to do this.
You were my best friend, when we fell for the city noise.
We listened to the city noise above our heads and laughed at each other as we raced through the sewers. I just hope that you know that you're my best friend.
I was there when you passed away when your voice disappeared. The darkness that seduced you and inexorably won.
I turned around only to see I was too late. Your body fell to the ground with a big open wound on your chest. All I could do was scream out your name in sadness.
Dear brothers. Dear, dear brothers. What can you do when your heart is bleeding?
I fell to my knees where the fight had been and let my tears hit the ground. I hadn't been good enough you died because I wasn't there. I tried to tell myself it wasn't my fault but all I could feel was my heart aching and I had no idea what to do.
Dear brothers. Dear, dear brother. What can you do when your heart is bleeding?
I forced myself to stand up but I felt my knees wanting to give in. I looked around and I felt so alone. "What am I going to do?" The thought slipped my mind as my tears kept falling.
The day goes okay
I fell down on my bed as the sun rose over the skies and I forced myself to get some rest. The days passes by fast all thanks to me being asleep.
But the night is hard because it was ours.
As the sun set in the skies I found myself up on my feet but I didn't want to do anything. I just wanted to lay back down and hope this was all just a nightmare and that you would come back to me.
Dear brothers. Dear, dear brothers. What can you do when your heart is bleeding?
I got out of the room and felt an arm wrap around me, I had hopped it was you but was I wrong. I gave a fake smile and pushed passed the rest of our family, I felt so lost without you. Before I knew it my mind got back to the memories I had with you.
We ran among the nettles, barefoot without shoes.
You and I were still young and it was the first time we were able to go outside during the day without having to worry about us being seeing and since our father said it was safe we didn't think twice about the opportunity, who knows if we would ever be given the chance again.
We played police and thief, only me and my big brother.
We raced through felt while yelling to each other and laughed every now and then. We played a new game you wanted to play and I had to play the bad guy but I didn't mind as long as I could hear you laugh.
I saw what happened when your wings got broken.
Ever since then you changed and pushed me away and the free spirit you once had disappeared. I tried to make you see but you didn't listen to me.
Dear brothers. Dear, dear brothers. What can you do when your heart is bleeding?
Dear brothers. Dear, dear brothers. What can you do when your heart is bleeding?
I returned to reality when Mikey threw his arms around me and told me over and over not to cry anymore. But how could I not?
The day goes okay.
Another day passed by with me still in a deep sleep, I was haunted by the event but I was able to pull through it.
But the night is hard because it was ours.
The nights as much harder to deal with as memories of you were always on my mind after all we were always more active at night. It pains me so much that I start hating myself that I can't stop myself from crying every time you cross my mind.
Dear brothers. My heart is bleeding.
Mikey never let me go and I couldn't stop myself from crying. "I don't know what to do Mikey….. It hurts much…" I forced myself to say between my sobs, Mikey never had to know what I meant. He knew my heart was broken.
Dear brothers. Dear, dear brothers. What can you do when your heart is bleeding?
Dear brothers. Dear, dear brothers. What can you do when your heart is bleeding?
I felt myself falling down on my knees, pulling Mikey down with me in the process. He never let me go as I held on to him. "What am I gonna do…?" I said out loud, hoping that someone knew.
The day goes okay but the night is hard because it was ours.
I knew that the nights were the worst and my brothers could tell. I wanted to be strong for them but the memory of you haunted me and broke me down.
Dear brothers. Dear, dear brothers. What can you do when your heart is bleeding?
When I looked up, I didn't even know my head had lowered, I saw both Donnie and Mikey looking at me. I had become the oldest now but I sure as shell didn't feel like it. You would always be the oldest, without your support I'm slowly breaking down. I know now just how much you meant to me and for that I'm sorry. "I can't tell you what you can do Raph but I know that you can help all of us recover. Leo's death is hard on all of us and I know it is the hardest on you but let us all deal with this pain together. I think that's what Leo wants" I heard Donnie speak up before he kneeled down in front of me and rested his head against my shoulder and soon Mikey did the same on my other shoulder. I heard them cry and my arms wrapped around them. Losing was the hardest thing that ever happened to me Leo but I'll try to stay strong for our younger brothers. I hope that you can forgive me for being so weak. I will forever miss you Leonardo, my dear big brother.
::Note::
Okay this is my first TMNT song fiction ever but the song is originally a Swedish song that really touched my heart. The singer sings about his dead brother whom he lost and I couldn't help but to think about TMNT. All of the turtles are brothers after all and 3 of them did die in season 3 of the 2k3 cartoon version I guess I thought of it when I heard this. Anyhow I do NOT own the song or TMNT. Some parts in the song where switched, which are the parts where the singer sings "The day goes okay but the night is hard because it was ours" In the original song it's supposed to be translated to "The night goes okay but the day is hard because it was ours" But I changed it up a bit to make it sound more like a song that would fit in TMNT. Not my best songfic but hey I did in school during lunch break since I didn't feel like eating. Also the text that is written in italics (AKA like this) are the song text.
