Okay, so I recently started watching Fear the Walking Dead and The 100 at the same time. Before I started watching either I discovered the Clexa ship before the writers… did what they did. I know what happened to Lexa and I watched what the 100 fandom did, both good and bad things, in retaliation of D-Day.
So after a few weeks of looking at Clexa posts I decided to join the FTWD and The 100 fandoms a while ago… which has now lead me to here, writing a fanfic about Alicia and Elyza.
I will be following close to Fear the walking dead's story arc and have mentions of the 100 story arc (I only watch season 1 so far, so please be patient with me) but obviously it won't be 100% the same. There will be au/original content for this story and the characters as this is a fanfic.
SPOILERS ALERT, I REPEAT SPOILERS FROM BOTH SHOWS, READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!
I regret nothing.
Just like a spark,
A spark on the blue,
The stars remind me of you,
Just like the night
Making its debut,
You know stars
Remind me of you
'Stars' by Reece Mastin
My Spirit Will Find You
Chapter One:
Rebirth
In a dimly light room laid a shaking brunette in her bed. Her body ached with pain while her eye sight was failing. The brunette wasn't alone however; a faceless blonde girl was holding her.
"Don't you dare give up!" The blonde demanded, fighting back her tears.
The brunette stared at the blurry face, struggling to comfort the blonde girl. "My spirit.. will find-"
"No! I am not letting you die."
Her heart ached for the blonde. The brunette can feel herself dying but the blonde was trying her absolute best to prevent her impending doom.
The dying brunette spoke once more. "There's nothing you can do now." The blonde looked at her, her heart shattering at the reality she had being in denial of. "The next Commander will protect you."
"I don't want the next Commander." The blonde said, her voice rough with emotion. "I want you."
The brunette felt her chest get heavier. She was struggling to breathe.
This was it. She was going to die now.
"Clarke"
Alicia woke up with a jolt, gasping for air as a sharp cold burning sensation ran through her body. She attempted to sit up in her bed only to fall back down in pain.
"Shit!" She cursed hoarsely.
Feeling too much pain to attempt to move or call for help Alicia stares at her dark ceiling, trying to focus on the barely visible ceiling light to calm herself. Unfortunately for Alicia this isn't the first time this has happened.
For as long as she could remember she always had nightmares and waking up in agony. Though the content of the nightmares weren't the same as she dreamed of now but it was still scary enough to scare a child.
Her parents did comfort her in those times of need but ever since her father passed away the reactions to her nightmares was different.
All because of her brother Nick.
Nick; the troubled child from a broken home. A few months after their father passed away Nick started hanging out with the wrong people and… well it's pretty easy to understand how he got into the drug scene.
Madison, their mother, being a single parent could only handle so much by herself and when she had to choose between comforting her daughter and saving her son from himself she chose the latter.
It killed Alicia emotionally to see her mother only care about Nick, catering to his every need 24/7 and completely ignoring her.
Alicia was left to fend for herself. Yes she had clothing and food but for almost ten years her mother never took much notice of her unless Nick needed babysitting. Her mother never noticed her poor sleeping and eating habits nor the recent change in Alicia wearing long sleeved shirts and hoodies.
Hell no-one in her family noticed her late night disappearances over the weekends. Not even Madison's boyfriend Travis.
Feeling the pain disappear, and regaining control of her breathing, Alicia reached to grab her phone to check the time. Her shaky hand almost drops the old apple iPhone.
Alicia groans and shuts her eyes instantly as the screen blinds her temporarily.
"Ah fuck!"
She quickly turns the brightness down and squints at the tiny clock on her screen.
"… You have got to be kidding me…"
3:42am stared directly into her eyes.
Another groan left her lips as she turned off her phone and it threw at the end of the bed. Despite feeling cold, sweaty and anxious Alicia tried her absolute best to fall asleep again.
She fluffed her pillows, changed positions and even stuck one foot out from under the covers. After what felt like an hour of not sleeping and suddenly feeling wide awake she grabbed her phone again.
It was 3:45am.
She felt like screaming.
xXx
Alicia stood underneath the shower head, sighing in pleasure at the warmth of the water raining down on content and relaxed with the temperature she grabbed her scented body wash and began removing the dirt from her body.
She had snuck out earlier when she couldn't get back to sleep. Every time she closed her eyes she saw the blurry image of the blonde girl that has been plaguing her dreams since she turned thirteen.
So she did what always done after her nightmares; she sat on the roof and looked at the stars, thinking about the blonde girl before wandering aimlessly around town.
To this day Alicia couldn't tell you who the blonde was or the odd sense of longing for an imaginary person. Alicia had once spent an entire month of researching dreams and the symbolism in them.
None of it really helped. The answers were either too vague or far-fetched; like the girl was somehow from her past life or her soulmate.
Alicia had to stop herself from gagging at the ridiculous notion.
"Soulmates don't exist."She thought, feeling the subtle pull to that dark corner of her mind.
"If they did my dad wouldn't be dead and I wouldn't feel alone."
"Or unloved." She whispered to herself, falling completely still.
Everything around her began to fade. The sound of running water became distorted and muffled while everything felt far away from her.
The only thing she could hear clearly was an unsteady heartbeat.
"ALICIA! STOP WASTING WATER, YOU NEED TO GET READY FOR SCHOOL."
Madison's muffled yelling and repeated banging on the door brought Alicia back to reality.
"Okay" She croaked, turning the shower off.
Alicia stepped out of the shower and grabbed a blue towel. She stared at the mirror and blood shot eyes brimming with tears stared right back at her before washing her face with cold water.
"Just like yesterday."
She quickly pat herself down and started wrapping the towel around her when her mum barged in.
"You got five minutes." Her mum told her, leaving the door open as she walked away.
Feeling intruded upon Alicia snapped at the retreating back of her mother.
"Did I say come in?! Jesus Christ mum."
Alicia slammed the door shut and started cursing under her breath, completely ignoring her mother's response.
Her hand ran through her wet hair.
"Does anyone care about my privacy anymore? Fucking hell… Mum would have never done that to Nick, noo she would rent out an entire fucking hotel for him."
Alicia yanked her clothes off the ground and stormed out the bathroom, almost sprinting to her bedroom upstairs.
She was almost at her door when she heard Madison scream out to her.
"ALICIA GET CHANGED NOW, YOU'RE BROTHER IS IN HOSPITAL!"
A huff escaped her lips.
"Of course he is..."
xXx
One of the things Alicia hated about her mother was that she forced her to attend the high school Madison taught at. Not only did the majority of the school avoid befriending her but Madison used the length of the car ride to lecture Alicia.
"Your brother needs our support, I can't understand why you're not helping him."
Quick flashes of her ten year old self holding her vomiting drugged up brother while her mother was gone passed through Alicia's mind.
"I don't know, maybe because I'm an irresponsible teenager." Alicia sniped.
Madison glared at her.
"Hey don't get snarky with me. You're not the one who had to raise two kids by herself, I did!"
Alicia rolled her eyes and started putting her ear phones in. "Whatever"
Madison gripped the steering wheel tighter and gritted her teeth.
Funny how a ten minute drive could end up feeling like a day trip.
xXx
Alicia was sitting at the back of the classroom sketching random characters, in post-apocalyptic clothing, fighting to the death in black pen. The character that was winning was a man with long braided hair and a beard.
She should be listening to her history teacher.
She should be taking down notes for her test next week.
She should be writing down the chapters she needed to read but she didn't.
For the last few classes she had been daydreaming about a tribal group surviving in a post-apocalyptic world. Humans in dark clothing with tattoos and war paint. A tiny picture of a nuclear warhead exploding and a mutated animals covered the corner of her pages.
Alicia even drew a picture of herself kicking a man off a cliff. She felt oddly pleased at the idea of actually doing that to someone.
A ruler snapped down on the page causing Alicia to jump in surprise and look up.
Towering over her like an evil dictator was her history teacher, Mr Kane.
Mr Kane; A cruel teacher gunning for the top job in the school. He often goes behind the principal's back to deal out his own cruel punishments to misbehaving students. From what Alicia heard only one student had the guts to stand up to him and rumour has it the kid was expelled.
So it made sense that Alicia's heart was racing madly.
"Miss Clark" He began, staring down at Alicia in disapproval. "Do you mind answering the question? Clearly you know everything about the Cold War, I mean why else would you be not paying attention."
Everyone in class was staring at her. Some of the students were silently giggling to each other and pointing her. She felt immense hatred for everyone in the room.
Anytime she was getting lectured by a teacher, including her mother, all the students were ready to pick on her. Hell they even made a youtube video of her being lectured by her mother.
Alicia looked down at her drawings, avoiding eye contact with everyone.
"I don't know the answer sir." She said quietly.
Wanting to teach Alicia a lesson Mr Kane cupped his ear and viciously sneered.
"Sorry, could you speak up louder? I don't think the whole class could hear you." A few students could be heard snickering and whispering to each other.
Embarrassment and rage rumbled through her body as she stared at the picture of her kicking a man off a cliff. All the pent up anger resentment she had been holding for almost ten years of her life didn't help either.
Alicia has being lectured and ridiculed by adults for a long time now and her peers always laughed at her.
She was ridiculed for the work she handed in. She was ridiculed for not taking up science subjects like her brother did. She was ridiculed for being good at sports by most of her teachers or for the short post-apocalyptic stories she wrote in English class.
She wanted to breathe fire.
Feeling a surge of confidence and anger she stood up and stared defiantly at her teacher.
"Go Fuck yourself."
The entire class fell silent as they carefully watched their teacher's reaction.
Mr Kane's face twisted up in uncontrollable rage and for a split second Alicia wondered if he might hit her.
"GET OUT OF MY CLASSROOM, NOW!" His roaring voice almost echoed in the silent room.
Alicia grabbed her books and bag, quickly leaving the classroom.
As she walked down the hall she could hear her class chattering loudly about her outburst. Her heart was racing at the thrill of standing up to a teacher. Alicia did talk back to her teachers on occasion but she had never done that before.
It felt good. She felt good. Alicia smirked to herself and straightened her back.
All those days of day dreaming about standing up to the people who constantly made her feel like shit was finally a reality. She felt like she could take on the world.
Until, that is, she looked back and saw her classmate heading in the direction of her mother's office.
Suddenly her confidence disappeared and fear kicked her adrenaline into overdrive.
The thought of another youtube video of her being lectured getting shared around the school again was enough to make her do something she had being wanting to do.
Alicia quickly shoved her books into her bag, zipped it up and ran to the school entrance, knowing that her mother would assume she would go out the back.
The sounds of her footsteps sprinting down the hall gained the attention of the teachers who taught with the classroom doors open.
As soon as one of the teachers called out to her she ran even faster.
She was almost at the entrance doors. Almost to freedom when she saw mother in the distance.
Alicia quickly hid behind the lockers and carefully peered at her mother.
Madison had her back to her. She looked like she was talking to someone. Alicia took a deep breath.
Four metres, just four metres from the doors and freedom.
Alicia readied herself for the great escape when, as luck would have it, the bell rang. Signalling the start of lunch.
Students flooded the corridors and Alicia was nowhere to be seen.
xXx
Alicia stared out the bus window, grinning madly to herself as she got further away from her school.
It was such an exhilarating experience.
Defying her teachers and her mother. Telling Mr Kane to go fuck himself. For the first time in her life she felt in control.
She started day dreaming about all the things she could do now with her new found freedom. Back-packing across the country, getting a tattoo and doing whatever, whenever she wanted.
The loud sound of a motorbike speeding pass the bus interrupted her day dream.
Alicia just caught the view of the leather clad rider before they turned onto another road. For an unexplainable reason Alicia felt disappointed they didn't stay on the same road.
A few minutes later Alicia hopped off the bus near the beach and looked around her, unsure of where to go to next.
There were locals and tourists everywhere. Half were at the beach and the other half were wandering from shop to shop.
She looked between the shops and the beach, deciding whether or not she should get something to eat or just sit on the beach for a while.
In the background of the loud chatter of people and Alicia trying to decide, a faint sound of a motorbike could be heard turning off.
After a brief moment of mentally debating Alicia opted to get food first.
She was about to enter a fish n chip shop when someone bumped into her.
"Shit sorry, I didn't see you there." A girl with a thick accent said as Alicia turned to look who bumped into her.
She was about to say it was okay until a sense of familiarity washed over her.
The girl was absolutely beautiful. Long blonde hair, light blue eyes and pale skin. Alicia's eyes widen in shock when she realised she was recognised the leather jacket from before.
She is the leather clad rider.
"Its fine, no harm no foul." She reassured the blonde, trying to figure out where else she had seen her before.
The blonde looked at Alicia, seeming like she was trying to remember something as well.
"You sure?" She asked.
Unable to recall where else she could have seen the blonde, Alicia just awkwardly laughed at the blonde's question.
"Yes"
The girls stood awkwardly beside the doorway in silence.
Alicia was about to enter the shop but something told her to talk to the blonde.
Mustering all the confidence she could Alicia stuck out her hand to the blonde and said.
"I'm Alicia by the way."
The blonde took her hand and smiled.
"Pleasure to meet you Alicia, I'm Elyza."
End of first chapter.
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