Disclaimer: I want to start with the stupid disclaimer that has to be in here… I sadly do not own Weiss Kreuz or the Schwartz for that matter. If I did own it, you would be watching it on DVD or reading it in manga form. You would not be reading it on this site and I would be happily sitting in a nice house with nice money from my ideas to support me. lol!

AN: Ok, I just want to put this here and now for everyone. This has stemmed from MANY weeks of random discussions with a friend of mine. He loves diving into conversations about characters psyches and I just love putting things together that aren't answered in the anime or in what little I know about the manga. So this came to be and yes later Schul says it is 4am… that is the time I actually finished writing this on the forth day of writing. So if you don't like the ideas we have in here I am sorry but this is how we view Schul for the most part, and this is how I tend to RP him for the most part. (Yes, I am a HUGE RPer via IMs, and am in a massive search for Weiss RPers. Please PM me or something if you are interested.) Also I am willing to admit there is slightly Brad/Schul hints in this fic multiple times. That is the only relationship I really like and that is highly because I can VERY much see it. So please forgive me, but I believe they can be taken either way to be honest.

Otherwise I hope you enjoy the story. Also feed back is always nice for authors.

Also please excuse any grammar/spelling mistakes. Yes, English is my native language and I HATE IT!!!!! IT MAKES NO BLOODY SENSE!!!!!!

Also a HUGE thank you goes out to Darkephoenix and Brenn for giving me your input on it as well! Thank you for all the advice and I am sorry if I didn't change everything you suggested. Some things I felt needed to be left worded that way. It was just how I picture Schul to write.

Have fun reading!

I am stopping this now before my A/N gets longer then to actual story…





Chapter 1: Schuldig's Confession

Schwartz - well at least that is what everyone calls us. Seems the four of us are the only ones that look at each other as actual people. Don't get me wrong, I know we are different but can't we still be human? Oh, sorry no, or at least that is what they teach us at Rosenkreuz. We are weapons to be used by whoever pays Esset the most for 'protection'. Though usually they are all high up businessmen that have nothing better to spend their money on, but have enough enemies to fill whichever damn company they run. I don't think I have ever liked any of the employers that I have worked with since I left Rosenkreuz with Brad. Brad saved me from that Hell hole, adopted Nagi and had him trained there for a short period of time –but of course not long enough to have them corrupt him- and finally along came Farfarello. That is when we became what everyone knows today as Schwartz.

Schwartz – at least it is family to the four of us. We have been together for years and outside of our team no one could ever tell we are family. To sum up the family Brad is the father, Nagi is the kid and Farf… well he is just Farf. I really can't describe him in any other way, but we are a family. Oh, about myself, I really don't know what part I play in this family to be honest. I always bug Brad that he needs to loosen up and find a woman. He proceeds to tell me that he has me, and the last thing he needs is another around to bitch at him all day. I can't help but laugh every time he tells me that. Nagi is almost like a little brother to me though. I enjoy picking on the chibi, and annoying him seems to be the highlight of my day sometimes. Then there is Farf… Well the Irishman and I seem to have an understanding. For the most part I leave him alone and I don't end up with any stitches from those knives of his. Like I said that is summing up our team, I can go on and on about each of us.

Let me start with my Bradley Crawford. He hates being called Brad. Maybe that is one of the reasons that I call him that all the time. I never call him Crawford. I don't care if he is our 'oh-so-fearless leader'; he is Brad to me, not Crawford. Oh, he is also known as 'The Oracle', but that isn't the real point right now. What did I call him earlier…daddy? At that thought I have to laugh. I don't think I could ever call him 'daddy' or even consider him like that. Sure, he saved me and has 'raised' me for years, but he is far from 'daddy' to me. At times I want him to be my lover, but then I know better then that. I just want his attention on me. To be honest, I would never want him to find himself a woman, of course then I would have to share his attention. I would HATE that! Brad is mine and no one else's… He is the only one that has always been there for me, and I know he always will be. That is a mutual understanding we both have with each other. Even the other two know that if you pick a fight with one of us you have the other to deal with also. Of course none of Rosenkreuz would even believe that a Precog and a Telepath could ever be this close. I mean think about it, a Precog can tear apart a Telepaths mind without even as much as a second thought. Yet, Brad and I are inseparable and would do anything to help each other. Well, haven't we shown them something? Brad is my shield… I mean that literally to be honest. Everyone knows I have weaker shields then most and Brad being a Precog can extent his shields over me. I don't know what I would ever do without him. Well actually yes I do, I would have never made it through life. Thanks the voices overwhelming my head and the headaches produced from them, I would have taken my own life ages ago. Multiple times the pain became more then I thought I could handle, and then along came Brad. If it wasn't for Brad helping me through all those, I certainly would have.

At one point I tried to overdose on so many different pills, just trying to get rid of those damn headaches. Well overdosing as well as a few other 'fun' ways that get rid of the headaches, but the headaches were a bitch after everything finally wore off. I believer I can even credit Brad for getting me to stop those habits of mine. He was the one who actually cared enough to get me stop, and it seems that it worked out just as he wanted. - Like everything else that he touches. Everything always works out the way he wants it to, but that I just another thing about Brad that I love. - Can you see why I want him to myself? I can, and I know the other two realize it as well. They know nothing comes between Brad and me. Oh and I do mean nothing!

Now on to Nagi, Brad's little kid and our little 'Prodigy'. What else can you say about the chibi? As for what my relationship is with Nagi… I would have to say something along the lines of a younger brother. I do nothing but annoy the poor chibi, but what else is a big brother good for. Though honestly I can't help but laugh at the thought of Nagi as my little brother. He is probably more mature then any of this team and more then likely one of the smartest. Ok, maybe not more mature then any of us, but sometimes I think it might do him good to get away from Brad more often. The chibi really needs the chance to just be a kid and have some fun. It will do him good. I know this is coming from the one who does nothing but have fun, and pictures life mostly as a party, but relaxing is important to good health as well. I've brought this up with Brad before and like usual he blows me off with a wave of his hand. Even when I talked to Nagi he claims that his fun is simple, being with his computer. Ok, he doesn't say it in those exact words but he may as well have, that is what his whole 'I should be at least 30' speech meant in simple terms. I've taken the kid out a few times, but it never seemed to end well for me. Either, I get no where with the kid or if my plot wins out over the kid's maturity level then I have a pissed off precog to deal with for the next few days… Well if I am lucky it only lasts a few days. Well let's get back to the kid and my relationship, Brad's pissy-ness is a story for another day –and another whole story if you want me to be honest-. Anyways I know the kid knows this is how I feel, that is the only reason he would let me get away with annoying him as much as I do. Though I have learned that he runs to Brad if I start to cross a boundary that he doesn't want crossed, either Brad or I end up in a wall. Which, much to my luck, I haven't driven him that far yet.

Now on to our local deity hater and so called 'madman', Farfarello or 'Berserker'. Well I know the first thought going through everyone's head… 'Why so called'. Well let me say this much, you people don't see inside his head. I can easily agree that the man is a complete psycho and nut case but I wouldn't go so far as to call him a 'madman'. He is actually quite intelligent. Once again, I wouldn't say a genius, but he is far from stupid. He knows exactly what he is doing and preplans everything he does. His visions are very clear, trust me. Being a Telepath really bites ass when you are powerful enough to not only hear what they are thinking but also see the images they are imaging that go with those thoughts. At times I believe that Farf knows this and purposively sends images my way, just to get under my skin. I've complained to Brad about it before and he always tells me, 'well now you know how I feel'. No, I don't know how he feels; it is fun to bug Brad. Farf just down right scares the shit out of me at times. Just think how you would feel seeing a constant flow of images of people being tortured in… let's just stop there. I'll let your imagination run with that one. I am very sure you can not even come close to comparing with his mind. I don't believe there is anyone else in this small world whose mind could ever compare to how his works. Sometimes I believe it works even faster then most other people's minds. Maybe I am a little off on saying he isn't a genius, if he isn't he is certainly very close to one in his own little, sadistic, God hating way.

Now is everyone asking about the dearly loved telepath, Schuldig 'The Mastermind'? Of course you all are asking about me. That is all you care about right? I know you read this far just to get to this part. That brought a forced laugh forward, I almost want to say I can assume that few do care about me. I'm lucky to have Brad, Nagi, and even Farf. They do care about me as I do them; I guess that is where the idea of family sets itself in again. I love them all, each in their own way of course. I guess that way is somewhat shown in the few paragraphs above wasn't it? Oh well, you can all deal with hearing it again. Brad in multiple ways is my lover, he cares for me and I care for him more then any of the others, but that is because I have been around him the longest. Nagi is my dearest little brother, whom I may pick on all the time but I am the only one allowed to, I would defend the chibi with my life. Farf… ok, you all know I care about him, but it is certainly a special relationship that there aren't really words for –besides pin-cushion and person putting the needles in-. Though in some ways I don't really mind that, I know I can be a masochist and at least I am the target and it isn't Brad or Nagi being targeted by him. I guess this has had little to do with me so far right? I actually strongly believe that I am the last person you want to know that much about though. Everyone knows I am the 'whore' of this group and I do nothing but go out to bars get drunk, get a women, get laid, get in late, and usually get sick the next morning. Of course I am also the then one who whines and bitches to Brad, does nothing but play and fool around, and of course you can't forget drives Brad crazy and keeps him from his work. Speaking of his work, I really wish he would pay more attention to me then his work... Though I know it will never happen.

What are the inner workings of Schuldig 'The Mastermind'? I'd rather you not ask… I hate the code name they gave me. I have no idea how they plan on me being 'The Mastermind' when I can't even master my own mind yet. I go out drinking to get my mind off of all those other voices in my head. Sure I do talk a lot, but that helps me keep my thoughts separate from others. I like to at least believe that if I speak it, it is my own thoughts and not someone else's idiotic thoughts that have seeped in and gained control over my mind at the moment. Brad has saved me several times from those voices getting to over whelming and taking total control thanks to my piece of shit shields. Brad always tells me that he believes I do have stronger shields, but the bastards at Rosenkreuz made sure I never got the chance to train them around my daily beatings I got from the higher ups there. I'm not sure if I totally believe him, but then again the only other people's words I have to go on are the Rosenkreuz bastards who claim it is a side affect of my telepathy being so powerful. I do have to thank them for those beatings though; they did cause me to learn my special 'inhuman speed' that I am pretty popular for as well. I bet most everyone was curious about that. Let's just say that as long as you move quickly enough that they believe they hit you, let them believe it. Also throw in some whining just for affect and most people will fall right into what you want them to believe. Come to think of it maybe that is why I whine so much now. It all just stems back to those days when I use to do it all the time to get the bastards to leave me alone. Wow, I even discovered something out about myself just now. Aren't you all glad you were here to witness that?

Now you are asking about my smoking, drinking and sex problems? Allow me to laugh and inform you that all are far from problems, I would call them solutions to other problems in everyday life. I am not addicted to nicotine, no matter how much Brad, Nagi and Farf claim I am. Though let me tell you stress seems to build more without a nice dose of it. Wait… that would be addiction wouldn't it? Well shit, that didn't work to my advantage. As for drinking, wouldn't you drink if you had a million other people's thoughts running through your head at once? Let me tell you it is one of the most uncomfortable feelings ever. When you say 'I wish I could know what they are thinking'. Let me answer that one for you, no you do not wish that and you are very happy you can't hear others thoughts. Simple enough answer right? Yes. See now we all agree, wasn't that simpler then arguing with me? Though let me assure you, if you didn't agree with me, you would have sooner then you think. I never said being a Telepath was nothing but down sides, controlling people actions through their thoughts is a lot of fun, but multiple voices are hell when you can't tell your own thoughts from someone else's. That is the only thing that really is a down side to me, otherwise I love fucking with a person's mind.

I am not trying to avoid the sex question! Honestly I was getting to it faster then you think…maybe. Ok, ok, ok, I will answer your question. Though, to be honest with you, if you want the full and honest truth you need to know what little about my past that I know. When I was in Rosenkreuz most of my memory was wiped of my parents and the life I lived before I was taken there. They wanted to be able to transform me into whatever they wanted without any set backs, well I guess I am just a set back in general. I am still not formed into what they wanted; I am formed into what Brad wanted. The only things I know about the life before Rosenkreuz was that my parents were very loving toward me, I was an only child, and I killed my parents… That is also the reason for my name. How else do you expect some kid to come with a name like Schuldig, 'Guilty'. My powers came from my mom's side, and from what I understand she knew that I would lose control of my power once I gained it and I would kill them. She had me anyways and this 'foretelling' came to be. I found out via getting nosey one day at Rosenkreuz and sneaking a peek at my own file, that day I burned my file and completely lost who I use to be. That is the day I became Schuldig. I still want that love, and maybe in my own way I am searching for it. I know I have found it in Brad, I think anyone can see that if they know us in even the slightest way. Isn't it obvious I tend to stay near him and I become very clingy when he is around? I have been told it is overly obvious, mostly by Brad himself though. He says I like to 'paw at him' whenever I get the chance. Let me say something, being a telepath physical contact means a lot more to me then to most other people, and with Brad is means even more. He can already shield my mind from the voices but coming in physical contact with the man just amplifies the affect even more… Another one of the many reasons I sometimes find myself wishing him to be my lover and I his. Though if you actually think about it, can you really blame me?

Maybe I need to just end my thoughts there. I seem to be in an odd mood at the moment and I would prefer to not carry this on until I spill my whole soul out here on this damn piece of paper. What have I learned today? Don't sit at Brad's desk waiting for him to come home with an empty piece of paper in from of me. It seems to turn out in some of the worst ways possible. I also need to rip this to sheds before someone in this household finds it and I never live it down.

I wonder where Brad is anyway. He had a meeting today with some new employer and I was suppose to keep an eye on the house sense our 'oh so mature youngest member' was out for the day. I think I might head to bed soon though, I am getting tired and waiting up isn't sounding that pleasing to me at the moment. Even though it is already 4am and this is usually the time I am getting in from a 'night of parties'. I am always happy to be home, once I get back though. I miss the other three when I am out, and sometimes I actually can't wait to get home. Oh lord, I said I would end it here. I think I will now. Brad's bed seems to be calling me and that way I will know when he gets home as well as be near him all night.

On that note it is time to write Gute Nacht to everyone. I am too tired to destroy this at the moment; I will worry about it in the morning.





A/N: Well on that note what do you think? Please don't be too harsh on me. We both love this anime and it seems to be the one that has kept our attention the longest, and has stemmed the most side conversation on road trips (yay for anime conventions!!!). Thanks for reading now if you could please be kind enough to press the little 'go' button and review, that would be great!

Oh, I really don't plan on adding chapters of the other characters unless this is that popular. So please review if you like and want me to go on.