This is what I imagine happening when the story returns April 18. Comment if you have any suggestions or if you think I should continue! Delena forever xox grace

Chapter 1-

Damon's P.O.V.

What have I done? I feel like I just willingly gave away my life. I know Elena was hurting and I know she wouldn't be able to handle the pain from Jeremy's death, but the worst decision of my entire existence was compelling Elena to turn off her emotions. I know the real Elena is in there somewhere, but all I see in front of me is this cold, emotionless, murderer, who will do anything to get what she wants. Yes, we are vampires and yes it comes with the name that we kill but the Elena I knew before was so amazingly human for a vampire some wouldn't even be able to tell she wasn't alive. The compassion she had for the ones she loved was what made me fall in love with her in the first place and now I've destroyed everything that made Elena, Elena. I will never stop loving her for as long as I live, she is my life and no matter how many times she goes back to Stefan, I will never give up and always be waiting. None of that matters right now though, all that matters is getting the cure for Elena and making her take it. Before I did this we were on our way… she told me she loved me and that she picked me. I've gone and screwed myself over picking the selfish route once again. Good job Damon, you managed to fulfill everyone's expectation of you as ruining everything like you always do. What can I do to..

"DAMON, DAMON...are you listening to me?" Stefan broke my trance and gave me that typical Stefan look of stoicism that I am getting so sick of seeing.

"Yes, brother I am listening but I'm sick of this we both know that she doesn't want to take the cure and what does it even matter... if she does take it she's still going to pick you and things will just go back to the way they always were, you being happy and me pining after a girl who will never love me as much as I want her too."

"Damon, don't go there."

"Why not Stefan? I know it's what we're both thinking! I want Elena back to normal as much as anyone, but either way we go it's going to leave me broken-hearted and resentful of both of you."

"You don't know that though, she picked you Damon, not me."

"Whatever, I'm just going to be the unselfish Damon and try to go help the girl I love, even if she's a psycho bitch at the moment…" .. seeing that the topic was done I decided to go find Elena to make sure she hadn't wreaked any havoc since the last time or killed anybody that I had to cover up. She wasn't in our mansion this morning, which worried me. I hated that I cared so much for one woman, that every ounce of me is selfless when it comes to our love, I hated that she had this much control over me, that I really can't just do irresponsible crazy things, that the old Damon would have done. My first and only thing on my mind every morning was Elena and if she was safe and what I could do to make her happy. I hated how she made me feel so human…

All of a sudden my phone buzzed in my pocket

"Damon, its Bonnie. Get to my house quick, Elena is trying to kill me."