I typed in my user name : Mitchie3sing, then my password : enahs. Thats Shane backwards. I know, lame eh? I mean, to have your crushes name as your password.

Shane was my best friend since... well since we were 3. So I can't remember a time I wasn't here without him. But sadly, yes sadly, I've been having a different feel for him. He turned into this big rock star and moved to California, and probably isn't coming back. Which just makes me miss him even more.

The time we climbed up my apple tree and sat there eating apples and talking about our first day of school together. Only, he'd have to get the apples for me, I couldn't climb too high. The days we'd sit on his swing in his backyard holding hands when it was raining to hard to go to his house, and I was afraid of the thunder. Yes, I'm a lame person like that. I hate the thunder, it scares me, I can't climb trees, cause I'm afraid of falling, and I use my crushes name as a password.

I smiled as my best friend Peggy messaged me.

Peggy234 says: Hey Mitchie. Hows it going in your neighborhood?
Mitchie3sing says: Fine. I got a call from Shane today.

I sat there waiting for her response. Probably a "god Mitchie" or "Again? Seriously?" I guess I talked about him a lot... it was kind of hard not to.

Peggy234 says: What did you talk about?

Mitchie3sing: Nothing really. Just his concert, then he had to go. I kinda got sad...

Peggy234 says: it's okay Mitch, he really misses you.

Unusual for Peggy... She wasn't the kind of person to end it like that. I began typing. "And Peggy, how would you know exactly? How do you know at this exact moment he isn't sitting by some fancy 3 thousand dollar fireplace with someone like... Taylor swift even, talking about how great his life is without me, and how he doesn't need me in his life anymore. Words can't describe how I feel and you don't know how I feel. I love him, I need him, I don't know what to do. Its like I'll never see him, but he doesn't care, and you can't just say he misses me, its more than that that I need Peggy. How on earth can you tell that he misses me, loves me back? I'm sorry I have to go on like this but it feels like 30 thousand emotions at once and I have nothing with me. You don't know how he..."

I backspaced the last part.

How can you know how he feels?"

I sat there re reading it, wondering if I should sent enter. I can trust Peggy with my rants and I know she'll be okay with it. Just one click... I re-read it once more and pressed enter.

Immediately my heart started pumping faster and faster, my breathing was heavier and I couldn't control it.

"Peggy234 is typing" it said on the bottom. My heart went faster and faster and her reply came.

Peggy234 says: I know... because I know Peggy's password.

My heart dropped. It couldn't be Shane. Could it? No, it couldn't be. It just couldn't be!

But it was. And nothing could change that. I pushed the off button and ran away from my computer. I got to my room and flung myself on the bed, I rolled over and looked at my ceiling. My stupid ceiling. My phone started ringing and I picked it up from my dresser. I read the caller ID : GRAY . I Slammed my eyelids shut. Shane knew I didn't have an answering machine and he'd probably let it ring until I answered. I placed the phone down and waited.

5 rings...6...7...8... I counted up to 14 when I answered it.

"WHAT?"

"Mitch..." his soft low voice said " Words can't describe how I feel and you don't know how I feel. I love you, I need you, I don't know what to do. Its like I never would see you, but you didn't care, and you can't just say you miss me, its more than that that I need Mitchie..."

it was silent and he sighed.

"I am such a cheese ball."

I laughed.

"Yes, you really are."