I'm super duper bored right now, so I thought I'd write a one-shot. I'm so late, Lorraine has left and Lorikki were over ages ago, yet I've just started writing fanfics for them. I'm weird. Anyway, hope you enjoy, please review :)

"Lorraine? You can't just leave! What about the school? The kids? .. Me?" I was getting pretty angry now, she couldn't just get up and go like that surely? It wasn't even her style! I didn't want her to leave either, I'd miss her. Like I'd ever admit this to her though.

"Nik.. The school is about to go under, I just don't have the funds for it anymore.. The council will take care of it all. It's not like the kids will miss me anyway, nor the staff. I'm nothing but a heartless bitch to them, as Christine happily pointed out." She replied, huffing slightly, pushing all her emotions to the back of her mind, again. Was this affecting her at all or was it all a front? I could never tell these days.

"You're not a heartless bitch to me, Lorraine. You know that.."

"I thought we were ancient history anyway Nikki? Your words, not mine!" she replied, changing the subject, getting away from anything that was to do with us, or emotions for that matter. I wasn't sure if I was just over analysing things however, but I was sure that I heard her voice crack at the end. Did that mean she still cared..? No. Don't be stupid Nikki. She doesn't. She wouldn't.

"You know damn well I didn't mean that! I just thought it would be better, it's not like you care about me is it Lorraine? You don't care about anybody but yourself, and it seems like there's no teaching you how to either!" Shouting, getting my anger out, the frustration. I saw her face fall slightly. Shit, maybe that was a little harsh, but I didn't know how to get across to her, she used to let me past the emotional barrier she had, now it seemed impossible. She still hadn't replied, no sarcastic response, no argument about how I was being stupid, nothing. Well, shit, I really feel bad now. Stepping towards her slightly, I placed my hand under her chin, pushing it upwards slightly, forcing her to look at me.

"You used to let me in Lo.. What happened?" I couldn't help but comfort her, no matter how much of a blunt bitch she was being. She was about to lose the school and everybody she'd known around here. And, obviously, I still cared for her. The feelings I had for her never left either.

"It's… I just.. I don't know ok? I'm scared Nik. I'm losing everything. I've never felt more out of control in my life.. I hate it. And.. I still.. I'm sorry.." she replied, mumbling quietly. She was looking anywhere but at me, avoiding all eye contact at all costs. I wish I could kiss her.. Ugh, shut up Nikki.

"Sorry for what? Lorraine look at me, come on…" I put my hand on her cheek and moved her head slightly, so she was forced to look at me. She could be such a child sometimes. I didn't want to get pissed off at her, but at this rate I could really see it happening. I wasn't someone who had the greatest amount of patience, poor Tom had been on the receiving end of it many times. She was looking into my eyes now, so I looked back into hers, trying to figure her out. I missed waking up to those eyes each morning, not that there were many mornings of it. I knew I was still crazy for her, so I had to do something to stop her leaving. I couldn't stop the school from closing, but maybe there was a glimmer of hope for us. I didn't realise I'd been drifting off in my thoughts until she started speaking again.

"Us. I fucked us up Nik, I hurt you.. I wish I didn't.. You know." She mumbled, her voice getting quieter after each word. She looked away again, so I tried a different tactic. I ran my fingers though her beautiful hair, it was so unbelievably soft. Focus Nikki. Moving my face slightly closer to hers, I heard her breath in, quickly, too quickly. I moved in until I was close enough so only she would hear me, in our own little bubble.

"Take it back then.. Be brave, and take it back. Be brave.." Whispering into her ears, hoping she'd understand what I meant. Silently screaming for her to take the whole "I cant do this" speech back. I moved my face back slightly and looked at her again, the tears in her eyes threatening to fall. Her mouth was slightly open, like she was trying to say something, her whole emotionless attitude preventing her from saying it. Whatever 'it' was. Just as I was about to give up, I felt her grab onto my hand.

"I can be brave sometimes." Lorraine stated, her face getting closer and closer to mine. I closed my eyes and met her halfway. Her soft lips on mine, mine on hers. Where they belonged, I thought. She wrapped her arm around my waist and pulled me closer, pushing her lips just a little harder on mine. I bit softly on her bottom lip, causing a slight moan to come from the benefactors lips. Her tongue tracing my lips, asking for permission, which I gladly allowed. Was this it then? Did this mean she was staying…? Our tongues began fighting for dominance, trying to make up for all the time that we had missed out on, trying to do what we should've done weeks ago. I felt her hand slowly make its way up the side of my chest, getting me excited for whatever could happen next. I didn't want to get my hopes up though, and it's a good job I didn't, as she quickly pulled away.

"Nik.. Oh fuck. I'm sorry. This.. It doesn't change anything! I still need to go!" she was shouting now, and it hurt. How could you go from kissing to shouting? I think she noticed my face fall however, and quickly pulled me back closer to her.

"I'm sorry Nik.. I just –"

"Save it Lorraine! I'm not just going to let you play me like this. You kiss me like I mean the world to you, yet you ruin it by acting like this!" I threw my hands up in exasperation. I knew my patience wouldn't hold out for this. If she was just going to leave, I had to at least tell her how I felt about her, no matter the repercussions.

"I've fallen for you ok. I wish I hadn't, yet I'm glad I have. Are you happy now Lo? Now you get why I can't just let you play me like this. You mean too much for me, and I'm not putting my heart on the line. Not for you, and not for anybody else either." Blunt and straight to the point, trying to pull an emotional response out of her. I felt the grip she had on my back tighten, pulling me closer again. I let myself be controlled by her, I shouldn't but I don't think I'd have the strength to fight her. Her lips on my cheek quickly brought me out of my thoughts, and I looked at her. This was so confusing. I was about to speak, demand what was going on, but she placed her finger on my lips.

"I can't stick around here Nikki.. I'm hated by the staff and pupils. I got rid of everybody's favourite head, and the schools going to the council. There really isn't anything left for me here anymore. I care for you too Nik, and that's why I'm going. I don't want to hurt you anymore than I already have.." she replied, her voice once again cracking at the end. Before I could respond however, her lips were on mine once again. I kissed her back, knowing it could well be the last one I ever get from her, letting all my emotions flow via my lips. I didn't want it to end, but all to soon she pulled away and left. No turning back, no nothing. I turned my back to the door and slid down onto the floor, letting the tears that had been collecting finally fall. She'd finally left, and she'd taken my heart with her.

(a few weeks later)

I wasn't sure why I even worked here anymore. Everything I saw, everything I touched, reminded me of her. She hadn't even text me.. I thought I at least deserved that. All the kids had gone home now, and I was about to leave too, but I found myself sat down in the main foyer with my head in my hands over thinking everything. Maybe I should just hand in my resignation, it wasn't like anybody here would miss me either, and Christine, the new head, would much rather have somebody else to work with as a deputy. I looked upwards towards all the quotes on the wall, hers was still there – "You can start something great from virtually nothing". We could have been great. Something great from nothing, if she'd only given us a chance. I hated seeing her quote on the wall though, it was another reminder, another pull of my heartstrings. I wish I could pull off the emotionless front, I wish I could be stronger. I was so busy mulling things over in my head, that I didn't hear the door open behind me, nor did I feel the sudden rush of cold air on my bare forearms. Nor did I realise that I was saying my thoughts out loud..

"I miss you, Lorraine…" I sighed, wishing more than anything that she could be here right now. She could cheer me up, even her presence just made me feel better. I got up, about to leave, when I heard a voice… A familiar, cockney voice.

"I miss you too, Nik.."

Lorraine.