Alec,

Do you remember when we first met? The party lights were harsh and it was deafeningly loud. All of us were distracted by more pressing matters, yet I was still captivated by you. The way your blue eyes managed to sparkle in the dim light, your charming shyness. Even your fierce protectiveness of your sister. At the end of the night I asked you to call me and my tone was joking but somewhere inside I knew I actually meant it. When your friends returned later, looking for the mundane I found myself hoping it was you.

Later on when I found out that you were wounded, it irrationally felt like my world was coming apart. I knew even then that I wanted you to be mine but the chance was slipping away from me. After the healing I waited anxiously beside your bed, wondering hopelessly if I'd ever get the chance to tell you how I felt. The moment your eyes opened was one of the best moments in my life.

After that I thought we could be together. You liked me, but I loved you. I helped all of your friends because I knew that it would make you happy. I stood by your side, watching you love Jace instead of me. I don't think you truly came to your senses until our fight in Alicante. Believe me, your parents' acceptance means a great deal to me because it means a lot to you. When you kissed me in front of them and everyone else I didn't need words to know that you loved me too.

On our trip you said those three words for the first time. That was the happiest time of my life. Then I came to realize that I wouldn't be able to face forever without you. Going through endless years without you by my side scares me more than anything. I know that it's horribly selfish of me to want to take you away from your family, but it's the truth. Now half of the world stands in between us but the question I asked still stands. Would you take forever to be with me?

I love you Alexander Lightwood, and you're the only person in all my eight hundred years that I've said that to. Now I'm here hoping... no praying, that you'll tell me that you love me too.

Forever yours,

Magnus