A/N:DIVERGENT BELONGS TO VERONICA ROTH.
Four/Tobias
 I can't believe I let that happen.
Tris was,no,is the love of my life.
And now she is dead.
It's all my fault.
A couple of months after the war,we broke up
Actually,she broke up with me.
She saw me kissing Shauna.
Worst of all,the same day I lost my best friend.
Zeke.
He punched my stomach and then kicked my groin.I didn't even kiss her.
She kissed me.
My heart had shattered later that day because Tris came into my apartment only to pack her stuff.
She left without saying a word to me.
After she left,I lost it.
Picture frames broke and mirrors shattered.
Shoes were all over the place and my hand was bleeding.
I went to my bathroom and turned the shower on.I turned the knob to the coldest setting.I stepped in with all my clothes on and let the water drain away my feelings.
I got out and my clothes were dripping wet.I slid down against the door of my bedroom and cried myself to sleep.
When I woke up the next morning I just walked to breakfast,ate alone,and then left.I went to the train tracks.I jumped into a cart and sat down.I rode the train until it became ,I went back to the compound.
I followed this routine for at least 3 weeks.I decided I needed to talk to Tris.
I was looking for her when I heard a couple of voices.
One of them was Tris' voice.I hid and eavesdropped a little.
"Tris,don't you think Four will find out soon?"one of the voices said.
"I know he will but that doesn't mean we're getting back together."Tris says flatly.
What are they talking about?I had thought to myself.
"Tris,what will happen when that kid grows up and asks about it's father?Huh?"another voice asks.
"Look,I don't know.I haven't really thought about it.I'm not even sure if I'm keeping it."she says.I'm sure I heard sadness in her voice.
"Tris,you're not planning an abortion are you?"another voice asks.
"Of course not!I'm talking about adoption."she says.
Then I hear footsteps,which means they're leaving.
Tris is pregnant.
With my child.
I really need to talk to her now.
I waited for the next day but when I exited my apartment,I saw many people crying.I saw Christina sobbing.I walked over to her.
"What happened?"I ask.
She slaps me."This is all your fault!Tris is dead and she took that poor innocent baby's life too!"she screams at me.
At that moment,I pushed through the crowd of dauntless.I found myself kneeling in front of Tris' dead had jumped into the chasm.
I started sobbing and apologizing to her at the same time.I felt a hand on my shoulder.I turn to see one of the paramedics.
She tells me to step away from the body because he has to put in a bag.
I got up and I ran to my apartment.
That's where I am now.
It's been exactly one month since Tris died.I never got to explain everything to her.
It's a little past midnight.I exit my apartment and go to the chasm.
The same chasm that took Tris' life away.I climbed over the railing.
For the first time,I'm not afraid.I'm actually happy.
Happy that soon I'll be with Tris.
Now we can finally be together.
I hang from the railing and the water sprays my ankles.
I wait until I start slipping and then...I let go.