You said you wouldn't leave me behind, but here i am without you in my embrase. We both made a promise remember? To always find a way back to each other no matter the situation that we might be in. We made that promise on Horizon. Still to this day i know what i said back on Horizon was uncalled for but when you loose someone you love you are not always able to control all the emotions that are threatning to open up to the world.
The whole crew, even Wrex grieved at the memorial service that the Alliance held for you. Admiral Anderson, Admiral Hacket and all the other councilors bowed their heads in respect to their fallen hero that day, and i layed my head down in memory of the good times that we spent together. After the service was over it was back on duty for us all but the day was never easy when you loose someone in the crew that was not only a Commander, but a friend. A statue was made in the centre of the Citadel to honor the amazing Commander Shepard. Even when all was starting to look grim most of the soldiers and other members of the Alliance and C-Sec were paying their respects by laying flowers and asking for help and guidance, asking what would you do in their position right now.
Making my way back towards the Normandy, everyone knew the 'close' relationship that me and you had, Shepard. Everyone were always asking if their was anything they could do for me to help, eventhough inside they were hurting too. I thanked them for all the kind and soft words but i guess i just needed time to myself for a while to collect my thoughts.
The grieving never gets easier. I guess when i first heard the news that you were pronounced KIA, well i guess i took it kinda a little too much when i slammed Joker into the walls with a few biotic throws but how was i suppose to react? You stuck behind to help a fellow crew member adnd a friend get out of the attack alive. I suppose i was just thinking about myself as always at this point as i let Jeff ou of the force as he struggled for breath.
I don't know if any of the others have come to talk to you yet but Hacket and Anderson have given me the position of Commander of the Normandy. I mean it's a big responcibility but we all know that the Normandy will always be your ship, Commander. Nothing will ever change that...
And that's when see you. Are you really the Shepard that i fell in love with all those years ago? Or is it really a Cerberus clone programed to hack into the systems? So much has changed but inside, i know i still love you no matter what, even if i might not show it all the time right now.