The Diary of a Holmes

by NeraKhaleesi

Almost a year after Sherlock initiated his jump from the roof of St. Barts, he is cleaning up with those who remain of the web of James Moriarty. Eliminating the different criminals, he starts writing a diary to cope with the loneliness which overcomes him whenever he thinks of John Watson. These are his entries over the time. Johnlock OC called Henry Moriarty added for the plot.

1. Diary Entry no1: First Entry by SH

Sean Heirs

Lawyer

New York City

Dear Diary...What a stupid phrase that is. I mean, It's not like I am talking to anyone. I left everyone who I would talk to and who would listen to me back in London. They all believe I died. Molly knows I am not since she was the one who helped me initiate my jump off St. Barts' roof. I hope she already told John the truth. I told her to do so as soon as possible. I still know how broken he was when we met. I saw his life being given a true purpose again. Helping me with the cases, running around London, he really seemed to be getting better, to be developing a live with me. I hope I didn't ruin all of that when I left.

John... He is the one I miss the most. I miss how he always tried to get me to behave properly, how we talked, the two of us watching crap telly together, his stupid remarks of the most obvious things when he tried to help me with a case, his compliments, his excitement whenever he was with me, him defending me in front of others. I miss the somehow loving frustration I heard in almost every word he ever said to me. I miss the two of us laughing at crime scenes even though it isn't appropriate for a situation like that, us two mocking Lestrade or Anderson. I miss his endless denial of his obvious feelings for me. I understand why he doesn't approve of his feelings, though. He isn't gay, as he always said. He is just in love with me for some reason I don't understand at all. Another thing about John I miss: He can surprise me and give me mysteries to solve just by being himself.

I really wish he was here with me and that I could talk to him instead of writing into a stupid book and going on about how much I miss him. I miss the other ones, too. Mrs. Hudson, Lestrade and sometimes even Mycroft. For now I will have to stay in New York City, though. I need to get rid of a few people before I can return to my beloved Doctor. All the killers that are or were part of Moriarty's big web will have to be eliminated before I can return to the UK again. The smaller ones of Jim's network like thiefs, hackers, and others, got killed by some people I hired. It wasn't that difficult to intimidate some little assassins that weren't part of the community to kill those who were. There is always a great amount of competitive thoughts and hatred between different "gangs" or groups of criminals. Hearing who I was, and how I tricked one of the few men of their "kind" who actually have this thing we call a brain and intelligence, they all panicked. If someone is ruthless and sly enough to trick a man like James Moriarty, you fear him. Now that the smaller criminals have been eliminated, I only have 3 people to go. The three people who became the heads of the network after Jim killed himself to kill me: Natalie Breer, a russian assassin, originally called Natalia Rasevzci, Sebastian Moran who used to be Jim's boyfriend. And finally: Henry Moriarty, Jim's younger brother who inherited his brothers throne and is now reigning over his James' empire of crime. The biggest problem of these three is Mrs. Breer. She is married, so she wont be seduceable, which is to be honest good in a way since I have discovered that it's easier for me to seduce men. Women otherwise are something completely different. They somehow sense when I am acting and those who don't aren't even close to having as much intelligence as Mrs. Breer possesses. Irene Adler was an exception, it seems. One of the cleverest people in this world and still she thought of my somehow childish feelings of attraction for her as real ones. That's probably why she fell for me that time ago.

Natalia will hopefully not be an as big problem as I think she will be. I will have to introduce myself to the assassin as her new "partner in crime" (after I had her last partner finished off a few weeks ago). If I get her, the way to Sebastian Moran and Henry Moriarty isn't that long and difficult anymore. I am really trying to be positive since this is the only way for me to get back home.

I really hope it will work out well.

Sherlock Holmes

aka. Sean Heirs (at the moment)