Secrets Aren't All Bad
By: Ashley S.
Prologue
Disclaimer: I own nothing. I wish owned Tyler though .
A/N: I love this forwood story, but I don't know where I'm going with it yet. Enjoy :)
Caroline's POV
Hi, my name is Caroline Forbes. I live in Mystic Falls, Virginia, the only place I've ever been. I have two best friends; Elena Gilbert and Bonnie Bennett. I've known them my whole life.
I have the world's best boyfriend ever, Matt Donovan. He is the only apple in my eyes. He's the star quarterback at our school and I am the head cheer leader. It's perfect, right. We've been together for almost a year and I've been thinking about giving him my virginity to prove that there is no one else for me.
I'm far from perfect, but I sure do try to be. I never quite compared to Elena. Everyone loved her and its sickening, but it's not like anybody dislikes me. Okay, that's not true. My boyfriend's best friend, Tyler Lockwood hates my guts. I have no clue as to why.
Alright, maybe I do know what I did to cause him to hate me so much. Let's just say, through out our childhood years, we never got along. It was an endless cycle of pranks from each of us. So, I don't think it's fair for him to hold a grudge.
Usually, I wouldn't give a shit if someone didn't like me, but I'm dating his best friend and he makes it so hard. We can't be in the same room without wanting to rip each other's throats out. I'm trying to play the perfect girlfriend here and Tyler's screwing it up! Ugh…He knows how to push my buttons.
Matt wants us to try to get along, but I think he's a little naive if he thinks Tyler would ever forgive me for what I did. First of all, I wouldn't forgive him. He called me a stuck up, neurotic, skanky bitch, which I'm definitely not. I may be a little wild, but hey, who isn't?
This all started way before Matt came into the picture. I never really knew Matt before High school, but I knew Tyler. There once was a time me and Tyler were interested in each other. However, it didn't end so well. We ended up humiliating each other because neither of us wanted to admit the truth.
Okay, actually, he didn't want to admit the truth. I lost interest in him and I told him to kick rocks. Let's just say, he didn't take it so well. He told the whole school I had sex with him and that I sucked at it. I didn't ever have sex with him let alone anyone else.
It's senior year and he still isn't over it which is pretty pathetic. I think he just wants to hurt me because I hurt him back then. I don't think he still likes me, but it's always been about revenge to him. He has lots of girls that would die to be with him, but he just plays with them. He's the playboy in this town.
Don't get me wrong, he's really attractive, but he's so dumb. Not exactly my type. He is the typical jock that thinks about sports, sex, and drugs. Matt's a good boy and I love that about him. Tyler and Matt are polar opposites. I can't even believe their best friends. They have nothing in common.
Anyways, besides the boyfriend's best friend drama, my best friends are becoming more distant and I don't understand why. I get that Elena's dating the new guy, Stefan Salvatore, but why are they avoiding me? Bonnie and Elena's always been closer, but I'm also their best friend. Shouldn't they include me in their lives?
Everyone thinks nothing gets to me, but their wrong. My life isn't perfect. I want someone to care about me and really care. That's why I have Matt, but I feel like I'm missing something. I want to talk to my friends about it, but their never there.
It's stupid for an eighteen year old girl to still whine about losing her best friends, but it sucked always being the last person either of them ever came to. I was like the friend you used when your best friend and you were fighting. I hate being so pathetic, but I envy the friendship Bonnie and Elena had. They were so close and I wish I could be as close to them as they were with each other.
I actually envy Elena because well, she was Matt's first love and they were together for the longest time ever, but they broke up when Stefan came into town. Matt was so broken and I was always there for him. I fell for him and he began to develop feelings for me, but he hasn't told me he loved me yet which sucks because I love him. When will I ever be someone's first choice?
Maybe it's karma for hurting Tyler the way I did because he really cared about me, but I just wasn't feeling it. I mean, I liked him when we were younger, but as I grew older, I moved on. I guess I deserve this. Tyler isn't a bad guy. He's just a little well, not complex enough.
My family life is complicated. I don't have a loving family because well, my mom is never home. She's the sheriff of this town and she has late shifts, but I never talk to her anyways. My father left us for another man. How awesome is that right?
After the divorce, my mom buried herself in work to avoid dealing with the embarrassment. I mean, I'd be ashamed to if my husband told me he preferred taking it up the ass than making love to me. I guess it's always been a little rocky, their marriage. I'm angry with my mom because while she was busy trying to avoid dealing with the truth, she forgot she had a daughter to take care of.
I grew up taking care of myself and depending on no one. I guess that's why people think I'm a selfish bitch, but that's not the case. I just believe girls should be independent because in the end, guys will only disappoint you. So, I don't have a great mother, but I'm okay with getting the house to myself.
Now, looking back, Tyler and I used to be with each other all the time because of our parents. Maybe I should try to reconcile whatever relationship Tyler and I used to have. It would make Matt happy and I love when he's happy. Let's just hope Tyler is as wiling to make Matt happy as I am.
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