Summer 1976
You've awaken from another transformation with pain so intense it leaves your ears ringing and head swimming. Then then there is only silence.
The very air around you seems to be dead.
You move your arms slightly; afraid of what you will feel. There is only soft grass underneath you and you know you're not where you should be.
A panicked feeling begins to fill you.
You feel as if no one in the world will ever know this terror as you do. Sweat begins to pour from your brow and your eyes are clenched tight and you never want to open them.
Your hand shake violently and you fight the urge to vomit while shaking your head from side to side. You cant do this. It's this moment that you hate the most from transformation. Pain is one thing. The fear that one day your nightmare will come true is all too real.
You have no idea what you could awaken to.
What you may have done. Who you may have harmed. Or killed.
And you clench your eyes tighter, and briefly contemplate giving up and lying there forever. Until you sink into the ground and into death. You know its absurd. But in this moment of terror and panic, you wish for the silence to continue forever.
But the silence is broken when you hear a high pitched scream in the distance. This is your worst nightmare come true. It is actually happening.
You have a choice to make. And you don't want to be brave; you want to be a coward. You really just want to look out for number one. But you, Remus, are a better man than this.
In a way, opening your eyes every month is the bravest thing you will ever do. And that in this small way, you've has earned the right to be called a Griffindor.
You open your eyes and see bright blue above you but the brightness stings your eyes and you shield them with your hand.
Suddenly you sit up; too quickly and you almost black out. You immediately recognize your surroundings.
This is the edge of a neighboring property that you have been to many time before with your father. You peer over the tall grass and have to squint into the distance to make out the sight before you. Your heart leaps with joy at the macabre scene. Before the reality comes back and makes you empty your stomach. No one was hurt. No human that is.
The unfortunate incident was blamed on stray dogs.