I am so confused….
Why is it that no one can stand me?
Why is it that no one wants me around?
I want him to care but he hates me…
What have I done to make him hate me?
He loves her, but she doesn't love him….
She loves him but he'll never love her….
And will she be able to love someone….besides his father?
Will he love me?
I do what I'm told….and I do what I must….
I'm so confused….
My heart is in two…
I love him, but he won't….
Shes my teacher, I care for as she does me…..
She listens and learns, as I learn from her…..
He won't look at me…
She yells at me….
She doesn't care….he doesn't care….
What have I done to deserve this?
He smiles, she frowns
He is lonely, shes loud
Shes sketchy but unique, I'm not….
Shes smart and beautiful….I'm not….
He loves no one but her….
And as I sit and watch as missiles fly
And pilots soar
I watch staying confused….
But I learn, and listen
I watch, and wait
Is it that I'm weak, or too strong?
Is it that I'm concealed, and mysterious but lonely?
Is it that I'm just not right to be here?
Is it that I belong somewhere else?
I know feelings, I see them, I hear them
Is it that I love too little?
Or is it that I love too much?
I know too much emotion….
Is that why I'm weak….
So many questions….
That are never answered….
I hurt….Hes hurt….Shes emotionless….
Shes lost, shes careful, she watches…
Will I ever be fit to fight?
Or am I suppose to linger and wait?
'Your heart will answer your questions in the end'
I wait…and smile
"Thank you"
My heart is whole
And I am welcomed, I am fit
I am strong, not weak
I wait and listen, but learn and defeat
I will win this unending battle of mine
As soon as the moment of time continues
I watch him walk
And hold me saying "Welcome home"