Diary
Alfred Ashford's secret diary, containing his thoughts, his emotions, at a tender age.
Entry One:
April 12, 1982
7:13 PM
I have never been so confused before. There are a whole lot of things that annoy me, that frustrate me.
Everyone is so impressed of Alexia, because of her beauty, her intelligence, everything. It pains me to say this, though I admire my sister so much and think of her with utmost respect, but I am extremely... jealous of her. All the attention she gets, all the praise... But then, who wouldn't? She is incredibly kind and smart, not to mention gorgeous, a combination so deadly and captivating that it easily eliminate's one's proper thinking just by looking at her eyes.
Still, I can't help but feel that I am in the shadow of my sister. I am in no way mad at her, for it isn't my fault that she has all the qualities any female would vie for and any male would like in a woman. And to think that my sister isn't even a teenager! What more if she's in her twenties?
What impresses me most about my twin sister is how she manages to spend quality time with me, balancing me out, especially at my worst, when I'm prone to incredible temper. Despite her celebrity status amongst the higher officials of Umbrella, she still helps me out, especially on our home studies when a college tutor occasionally comes along and teaches us for a few days either to refresh our memories or help us understand things that we need understanding. Not that Alexia needs that, but it seems that she's taking advantage of the situation and maybe just being polite at the tutor, who arrives by a four-hour plane just to teach us.
Alexia calms me down, knowing my weaknesses and what makes me feel better. It's as if she knows me better than I do. I don't know what I can do without her. I don't know if I can manage to straighten up and be focused on my interests if she's not there to help me out.
That's it for the day. Harman will call us for dinner soon.
A/N: My first attempt on writing a sort of "diary". So this is just the first of a few entries Alfred's fictional diary contains. I'll update once I get my head cleared up and things sorted out, which will be soon. And really, my head's just swimming with ideas, so updating won't be a problem. Read and review, please?