Bella's POV
I was laying there naked on Edward's bathroom floor crying, I had been for the past 3 hours. I was still getting over the initial shock of the last 4 hours of hell that I went through before I walked to the Cullen's house and broke down. Should I forget those 4 hours of hell? Should I just move on? Or more importantly, could I move on? Yes I just had to there really was no other choice. Was there? I was so confused and didn't know what I should do.
I decided to move on and forget about it just like all the times before. I got up and went to take a shower, as the hot water ran down my back and relaxed all my sore muscles so many thoughts ran through my mind.
Why me? Why again? Should I tell my sisters? No. Should I tell my brothers? No. there is no way I can tell my mother the last time I told her this happened, well let's just say she hasn't looked at me since I was 13. Who was I going to vent to? I can't tell him and I can't tell them, I hated lying to them it hurt; they have done so much for me the deserved to know about what happened tonight and my past I at least owed them that. Carlisle and Esme knew everything but they wouldn't know about any of it if I didn't have to tell them and when I did tell them they said It would be best to not tell Edward for now anyway, but would I be able to tell them it happened again? No.
I got out of the shower still in a daze; and got dressed in the designer pj's Alice bought me. Then I bent down, wincing at the pain of my cuts and bruises, and picked up my blood stained clothes and walked out of Edwards bathroom, past his room and down the stairs to the laundry room I threw my clothes in and started it hoping esme wouldn't mind and that whenever they did find my clothes the blood would be washed off. I went back up to Edwards's room I sat down on the bed. The Cullen's would be home soon from there hunting trip and I knew that if I was awake when they got here they would know something is wrong and I'm not sure I would be able to lie to them well at least not tonight because if it weren't for them I would be dead one way or another I would be dead.
They may not know it but they saved me from my past present and all for all I know my future and I couldn't even bring myself to tell them about my past they deserved to know but I can't even get myself to say it out loud I was a worth less coward no matter what Edward said. I looked at my phone as it buzzed, I had a text message it was from Edward it said: Love, we are on our way home, we will be there in 30 minutes. I love you see you soon. Only Edward would make sure to use correct grammar in texts. I started to cry, I loved him so much, and I truly don't deserve him. I tucked myself in and went to sleep after debating on texting back or not, I didn't, I couldn't, I soon fell asleep praying I wouldn't have nightmares about what happened tonight.
I woke up still sore and tired, I had dressed me wounds earlier thankfully they weren't visible when I wore long pants and long sleeved shirts but with every little move I made it hurt it even hurt to breathe. I was only asleep for an hour it was 12:32 at night. I looked around I didn't see Edward or anyone or hear anything, I went to the bathroom and came out just moments later and there was my angle laying on the bed smiling my favorite crooked smile and no matter how hard I tried I couldn't stop the tears from falling down.