Heeeres Johnny! No just kidding here's the first chapter of a few in this story. Its about Kurt and mainly about him and his family. Propably some glee kids too of course. Kurt's slipping away. How will his family and friends cope when the worse that could ever happen happens? Alot of angst in hear so no happy fic. This is my first glee fic and hope you will enjoy it, English is not my native language. Just saying :) I don't own glee but you already knew that. Enjoy

"Come on Kurt we really need to get going now" Finn shouted from downstairs.

Kurt didn't answer and Finn sighed deeply. Kurt who always seemed to have a sarcastic or insulting comment at hold for times like this. Lately bullying had become worse for his brother. The way he was all tense when they arrived at school. The way he was quite at glee rehearsals and barley speaking to Finn on the rides home.

He had tried to talk to Kurt, about telling Kurt's dad about the increasing bullying but Kurt refused, claiming it wouldn't do anyone any good. That it wasn't that bad and that he his father didn't need anything to worry about but his own health. He also said that Finn was overreacting and shouldn't worry about a slushy or a shove in to the lockers. It happened. And if Kurt didn't care, neither should Finn. Finn didn't now what to believe anymore. All he knew was that Kurt looked worse than ever. He had lost weight and always seemed to be tired and tense. Finn was really worried about Kurt but as soon as he started talking to Kurt about it Kurt told him not o worry about him.

"Finn shouldn't you be in school?"

It was Burt's grumpy voice from behind him. Living with the Hummels for a couple of months now Finn and his mom had learned one thing. Hummels had a bad temper in the mornings.

"Yeah" he answered "Just waiting for Kurt" He smiled to Burt and and Burt laught softly.

"Well I have learned one thing about my son after all these years never..."

"Leave the house without try at least three different combos of outfits" Finn filled in, laughing. "He does that with me too you know" He continued.

In the same moment, Kurt came running down the stairs with his school books under his arms and his hair in perfect order. As always, Something was different though. Something about his eyes, It looked as if Kurt had been crying, yet there was a determination he'd never seen before in Kurt's eyes.

"Sorry" Kurt said as he packed his bag.

"Dude" Finn said. "Just hurry okay?"

Kurt sighed and finished packing his bag and walked to his dad giving him a kiss on his cheek.

"Love you dad" he whispered barely audible.

"Love you too buddy, always" Burt said smiling. "You know you're cooking tonight right? There's some chicken defrosting and some peppers"

"Sure dad" Kurt said smiling. His smile never reached his eyes though, Finn thought. Burt didn't seem to notice and just continued. "You have a good day now and I'll see you tonight. Might be late from work"

Kurt looked out of the window for a second before answering.

"Yeah dad...see you...tonight" He turned around and walked to the door where Finn was waiting.

"Should we get going?"

"..Okay..." Fin said. "Buy Burt. See you tonight"

"Buy Finn" Burt said.

The ride to school was quiet and Kurt kept staring out of the window. Finn focused on the road and tried not to think about the awkward situation from earlier. Kurt was acting...weird. He shot a glance at his step brother who kept staring out of the window.

"Kurt? Is something wrong? Did something happen to you?" He said casting one more glance to his brother before turning back to the road.

Kurt kept quite for a while and Finn thought for a moment that he wasn't gonna answer.

"I'm okay Finn, thanks for asking, I'm tired that's all. You don't have to worry. I can handle it"

"You don't have to Kurt, You don't have to be like this" He said "You can tell me anything. I will help you. I'm your friend"

"Thanks Finn" Another pause " I really appreciate it" He smiled again and Finn returned it.

"Anytime dude"

Five minutes later they found themselves walking over the parking lot towards the main entrance.

"I'll see you in Glee and at lunch later" Finn said when they got to the hallway and Finn was t turn right and Kurt left. Kurt was busy reading something in his phone and didn't answer immediately. Then he looked up. He smiled but looked utterly sad.

"Yes...see you at Glee...Finn" He started walking but turned around just as Finn was about to to do the same.

"Finn!"

Finn stopped in the moment.

"Yeah?"

"Uh nothing...just. Have a nice day" Kurt ended up saying. And turned and started walking again.

Finn watched his brother leave. Something was wrong and the he was determined to find out what. This time Kurt would't get to get a way from it. Maybe Finn should talk to some of the other glee kids. They could help he thought as he walked towards his English class.

The morning had started like any other morning. Kurt had woken up and done his morning routine like any other day. In some way you could say he was calmer than other days. In others equally terrified of what would be in store for him to day. School had never been easy on Kurt. Sure he had had friends but not many and ha had always been an outcast. How ever. This past months things had gotten worse. Worse then ever before. He knew bullies were jerks, and probably had issues deeper than the people they were harassing. It didn't make it easy though. Or less pain full and hard. Each day things became harder. Slushies had become locker slams and threats. Letters in his locker with painful words written on them. Kurt had struggled so hard to keep himself together. For his dad's sake and for his friends and family. He didn't want to be weak in front of them. They needed bright and shiny fabulous Kurt Hummel. Now he just couldn't do it anymore.

When he came out of the shower his phone was peeping like crazy with new texts. He reached for his phone while sitting on the bed and opened his inbox and nearly dropped his phone in shock as he read.

Faggot

I'm gonna kill you

He cried

I feel disgust beeing at the same school as you

Fag why don't you run away and never come back

Salty tears running down his cheeks

Everybody hates you you filthy fag

Burn in hell

Its a wonder your father hasn't thrown you out yet

He shut the phone off as more text kept coming all equally hurting. He put his phone on his bed., blinking hard do make the tears go away. He didn't want to believe people hated him that much. He flinched and walked towards the mirror to put his make up on. His hands was as gentle as always but he didn't seem to care anymore. He fixed his hear and got dressed. Changed his clothes. It was all part of his morning routine. Even if that didn't matter anymore. Somewhere in the middle of all that Finn called him from downstairs. He didn't answer but sat once more on the bed wrapping his arms around his stomach. The constant ache was there. He sighed and closed his eyes, one deep breathe and he was ready for yet another day. And things where never gonna be the same again.

Burt and Finn waited for him downstairs. Finn at the door and his dad in the doorway to the kitchen. Finn looked slightly enoyed.

"Sorry" Kurt said and put the books and his bags,

"Dude" Finn said. "Just hurry okay?"

Kurt sighed. He turned to his dad to kiss him on the cheek. He always did that. Since the heart attack he always needed to do that. And today it was more important than ever.

"I love you dad"He whispered

The words was mean only for his dad. He really didn't want Finn to hear. Hiw ever his father ruined his secret plan

"Love you too buddy, always. Burt smiled "You know you're cooking tonight right? There's some chicken defrosting and some peppers"

"Sure dad" Kurt said He smiled at his dad and Burt smiled back at him.

"You have a good day now and I'll see you tonight. Might be late from work" Burt said,

Kurt swallowed and forced him self to look away for a second. He wasn't gonna cry now.

"Yeah dad...see you...tonight" He said

The school ride was quite and Finn seemed to understand that Kurt didn't want to talk. He knew Finn was worried about him. He could tell. But he really didn't want Finn to worry, His brother deserved better than that.

They arrived at school and Kurt turned on his phone again. He knew Finn was talking to him but he barley notice the words coming from his brothers mouth.

Why don't you just fucking die and make all of us a favor?

He read the text again before putting his phone back and turning his attention to Finn.

He tried to smile to his brother but it was hard. He swallowed again.

"Yes...see you at Glee...Finn" he said and turned around to walk towards class but turned to his brother once more. Finn was just about to leave

"Finn!"

Finn stopped. Nodded slightly.

"Yeah?"

Good bye. Take care of dad

"Uh nothing...just. Have a nice day" Kurt ended up saying. It was best this way.

He picked up his phone again

Why don't you just fucking die and make all of us a favor?

Why don't you just fucking die

The sender didn't know his text was going to become reality really soon...

Should I continue? :) Thanks for reading