I stared at the many different article headlines that were staring back at me. All I did was search my name. Selena Russo, and here a million if not more articles pop up. However, none of them are about me. It is all about that spoof video Miley made about me and Demi, or t how I was rumoured to be dating Nick. Miley's ex-boyfriend. However, what caught my eye is the more recent posts. It showed Miley and Demi engulfed in a tight embrace laughing hysterically." Is Miley Demi's new BFF? What happened to Selena?"

That is a good question, what happened to Selena. If you do not know, Demi is like my sister. We have been best friends since we were six. In those six years, we went through a lot. Demi was a bullied kid. She, had things hard, people did not like her. That is what happens when you have talent, people hate on you. However, for Demi it was bad, from her parents divorce to being bullied so bad she had to be home schooled things looked like they would never get better. I was always there thought, no matter what. I was her shoulder to cry on. Nevertheless, as I arouse to fame, I felt I was leaving her behind. When she was cast as Mitchie, I thought it would be better; we would be together as best friends again. And it was great. For a while.

Not everyone liked her, or me. They did not like us for stupid reasons. They said she was talent less and was mooching off the Jonases fame. Then they said we were lesser versions of Miley. But it got better. Nick, Joe, and Kevin stood by our side. They were there for us. And Nick and I got close. As in really close. With that, the hating poured on, except not to me this time, and not to Demi either. On Miley. She took the pictures, made that video. Soon everyone said I was the next "Miley" that her time was over. But that is not what I was worried about. What I was worried about was Demi. You know she was bullied, and I did not want her to feel like it was happening again, and especially not by Miley Stewart. So I vowed I would be that big sister to her again.

Except, I realised soon she did not need me. Apparently, Miley actually felt bad about the video. She sent Demi a four-page e-mail apologizing, and congratulating her, but no one bothered to tell me. Soon I realized I did not need to look over Demi. She became a lot more confident with her looks, and had found a kindred sprit in Miley. They were a lot a like. Very similar childhoods (except for the divorce) they both were controversial for Disney. With all of Mileys scandals, and there were a lot of scepticism on Demi's part. Due to her more, edgy and rocker taste in music and fashion. They got close. They live in the same neighbourhood; go over to each other's house for dinner all the time. They were there for each other.

And as they grew closer, we grew apart. I did not know why though. I did not even know that Demi and Miley were getting close for a while. I did not realize many things were changing. Miley and Nick grew close again. As in closer as they were before. Closer than Nick and I could ever be. Surprisingly (well not really) Nick and I broke up. I wanted to cry, to be bitter about it, to throw things to beg him to take me back, but I could not. Because I knew that, he never loved me. I was not his "Love Bug" more like his "Rebound Bug"

But that is not important. It is not important that I never really replaced Miley in the Nick, Joe and Kevin's hearts. It is not important that a more likely statement was I filled a spot in their heart for a brief period until they realized that they needed Miley in their life. It is not important that Demi and I almost never hangout now. And it is not important that Nick, Miley, Demi, Joe and Kevin spend every waking moment texting one and other and I am never in on it. What is important is that I have had an epiphany. I have realized that I have never really made my own fame.

Sure Wizards is popular, and sure, many people like it. But me, Selena Russo. Has never made a headline on my own. Every time I am in a magazine, on Perez or whatever celebrity blog site. It is always about something that indirectly affects me. But not actually me. When I was with Nick that made headline. It made headline when Miley made that video. It made headlines when Miley said she goes over to Demi's house for meatloaf. It made headlines when my best friend was rumoured to be dating Trace Cyrus. And it made headlines when Trace Cyrus said he had never herd of me. But never on my own did I make a headline. Never did I do something so out standing as to make it on my own. And I hate that.

I have realized now that I can pretend that I am not hurt by it. I can pretend I hate Miley because she has the fame I never will, and I can continue pretending I am this perfect Disney icon. But then, I would be living a lie. I am hurt that the only reason to this day that I am as popular as I am is that I dated a Jonas. I do not hate Miley. And when I am home alone, I blast the breakout CD to full volume and rock out to every song. But I cannot stop pretending to be perfect. Because I know, people are already waiting for me to flip out. Do they know how badly I want to wear a bikini to the beach and not be bashed for it? DO they know how badly I want to party like a normal teen, and not those supervised one The Jonases throw. And do they know how badly I would love to actually go out to dinner every now and then with Jonathan. You know the lead singer of Forever The Sickest Kids. But then again if Miley is bashed for dating a twenty year old. How would they react to Selena chilling with a twenty five year old?

I just feel, this Disney world is up and leaving me in its tracks. There Miley the Princess, the one all kids love, or love to hate. Then Nick the prince, and Mileys Prince Charming. Nick is the one who would never give up what he is doing. Demi, next in line for the thrown, but in no rush to get there. Let us call her Lady Demi. Lady Demi loves where she is at. As long as she is making music, she is happy. Then Joe, kind of the court jester. Except, he is as loved if not more loved then the prince. Lastly, in Disney royalty there is Kevin, he is sort of looks after the royal family. Even thought he is part of it. He is over looked by many fan girls but he does not mind. Because he is happy. And he knows he is talented.

But where do I fit in this? Lady Demi's best friend? Prince Charming ex? I guess I do not fit. But I will not stop trying. I will not stop. I am Selena Russo. So what if I don't fit? So what if I cry every time I hear Before The Strom because I know no song Nick has ever written for me will have that much passion, that much emotion. And so what if Demi doesn't call me every night like she used to. I will not stop. Because I'm happy. I think.

A/N i know i should be working on BTS but i kindof wanted to prove that I do think selena is cool :) Tell me what you think and if you hate it lemme know. I tried to kind of keep things as realistic as possible. So i only added true-facts. Or atleast i believe they are true :)

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