Ghost Of A Girl

"I'm the ghost of a girl
That I want to be most
I'm the shell of a girl
That I used to know well"

Chapter 1

Bella has never loved. Love was a feeling she wouldn't allow herself to feel. In her opinion it was a weakness and therefore could not be tolerated. She wasn't like her younger sisters, seeking a husband who'll sweep her of her feet, marrying, having children and living happily ever after, she wouldn't be such a girl. Not ever.

Her hate for love might be caused by her parents always favouring Narcissas beauty or Andromedas cleverness, because not once was she herself the center of attention. Nobody loved her, so she wouldn't be as kind as to give her heart away only to have it smashed into pieces. She decided that a long time ago.

She had spend every day of her life making other people miserable, especially her family.

At home she'd break her mothers favourite vase, set her fathers books on fire, tear Narcissa hair out or just hex her blood traitor sister Andromeda until she ran crying to her mother like a stupid 5 year old.

She knew she wasn't an easy person. Most of them time her temper was unpredictable. Most people tried to stay out of her way because they knew what would happen if they didn't.

Now, after graduating she had finally joined the Dark Lord. It wasn't easy for her, surely, but the prospect of eliminating all the blood traitors, muggles and mudbloods was worth every bit of efford she put into the cause.

She, as the first and only female Death Eater, had to prove herself a lot more than any of the men. They were idiots in her opinion, all of them. She could always see the fear in their eyes when the Dark Lords voice became a low and dangerous whisper. The would look at the ground, only to avoid their Masters wrath, but she wouldn't. Bellatrix always held her head up high. She was yearning for his eyes, his face, the way his lips moved when he spoke with that voice. The voice he used when scolding someone, or even better, punished someone. It made shivers gone down her spine.

But all this was only devotion of course, nothing more.

As her parents didn't know of her affiliation with him, she had quite a hard time convincing them to put marriage off for another few years. It also got harder and harder to hide that she was a follower of the Dark Lord. Sometimes He summoned her in the middle of the night, other times during the day when she had almost no possibility to slip from her mothers grasp. It was infuriating. Bella always had to come up with new ideas and lies to attend meetings or raids. But of course Cygnus and Druella Black did not know a thing about this until now, she had made sure the didn't. And if they would, they'd disown her within a second. She was a woman and women were to be at home raising children.

So her mother constantly tried to force her to go to social gatherings or parties to find her a decent husband. Every time she heard her parents talking about her, it was only a discussing about how or when the could find a suitor.

Bellatrix was a beauty, nobody denied that, but she was dark, dark in her mind and in her appearance. Her thoughts always crossed the boundaries other people had. That was why a lot of men weren't interested in her, but rather feared her; she wasn't like Narcissa, some shiny angel, despretly trying to find a suitor so she could be a good wife and bear a huge amount of heirs. She wouldn't ever belong to a man, be his property. That was definitely out of the question.

Her future would be different from all the others, she would be powerful, smart, feared while at the same time loved.

Her Master would reward her highly for the years of devotion, she would make sure of that. She would prove herself to be different from all the others, to be faithful all along and to be great.

The greatest witch they would ever see.

I've rewritten the first few chapters. As well as that I had to make some minor changes with the timeline and also rewrote the summery because it no longer fit. I hope you will enjoy this story. Updates will from now on be posted weekly, as I finally have a real idea where the storyline will go.

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