My Hearts Desire

Disclaimer:
Ok, I'm not a guy and my name isn't Tom. So I don't own any of the characters that affiliate with South of Nowhere. This is just my little twist to it.

A/N:
Ok, I've started reading fics a couple of weeks before season 2 started and now I'm sooo addicted. When I'm not studying, working, or actually watching South of Nowhere I'm reading fics. So one day in class, as my teacher was boring on about Crime Scene Safety I started to write my own fic and this is what I came up with. Bear with me since it's my first fic and I've only wrote a couple of chapters. If all goes well with this first one then I'll start posting more and continue my new writing ability. So without further ado...

Oh yeah, I want to thank my cousin for this quote that I'm using. Because of it, is why I started this fic. Thank you, HAISHI!!

Chapter 1:

"MY MIND THINKS FOR THE ONE I'M WITH, BUT MY HEART BEATS FOR THE ONE I LONG FOR"

After their date at the park Spencer and Aiden decided to give this "normal" relationship thing a chance, she knew this would please her dearest mother. Especially the fact that ever since she that night Ashley was a total "Myth" in the Carlin household. It was like she never even excited, until today that is.

"Spencer?" She looks up at her farther while closing the fridge with a water bottle in her hand. "How's Ashley?" Arthur says while looking at his daughter as she almost chokes taking her first sip. He laughs a little, but inside he's wondering why he got that reaction when mentioning who he thought was his daughters best friend. "She hasn't been around these past two weeks are you guys Ok?" Finally snapping out of her little cough fit she looks at her dad a little worried that he'll push a little further then she wanted with this topic. "Umm... she's doing good dad, I just haven't had time to hang out with her, you know, ever since Aiden and I started dating" she finally says as she starts to walk out of the kitchen to the stairs so she can hide how hurt she is by her relationship with Ashley at this moment. "Well you two shouldn't let your relationship with Aiden to come between you. You were always so happy when you and Ashley used to hang out, for about two weeks now you just haven't been yourself lately." Spencer just stops at the doorway and turns to see her father with worry in his eyes. "I miss seeing that glow on your face and your smile. You haven't smiled like you used to." He gives her a one handed hug and Spencer half smile while trying to hold back the tears forming in the back of her eyes. 'Me too' she thought to herself. "Your right dad, I've just been a little busy with school and now that Aiden is my boyfriend it's hard for me to hang out with Ashley" she says as she releases her father and continues her journey to the stairs and up to her room. "Dinner is almost ready so wash up and I'll yell when it's time to eat" Arthur says as he turns his stare back to the oven to check on his pasta.

"Ok dad!" she yells back and she flops onto her bed, she rolls onto her stomach and reaches under her bed and pulls out a shoe box that is painted blue and decorated with shells from the beach, with the words "Memories" painted on the top of the lid in white. It may have said memories but as time progressed when she actually arrived at L.A. pictures that used to remind her of her friends from Ohio seemed to just ease on out and all that was left were anything and everything that reminded her of Ashley. As she opens it the first thing she sees is a picture of her and Ashley, smiling at the beach. As she recalls that day, the day that she first skipped school she remembers that it's also the day that she told Ashley that she thought she liked girls. 'Yea, what I really meant was that I'm falling for her' she thinks to herself.

She's startled out of her trance when she hears her phone vibrate on the night stand. She slowly closes the box and puts it back in her safe place under her bed and reluctantly reached for her phone. She knew it was a text message because it only vibrated one so she wasn't that eager to see who it was. 'It's probably Aiden wanting to do something tonight which I'm so not in the mood to pretend to be happy tonight' she thought to herself and she flipped it open and saw that it was from Ashley. As she just sat there in shock she didn't even realize that she had already opened it when her brain finally caught up with her.

we need 2 tlk,pls meet me the beach under the pier n a hour. Ashley

'OMG!' is all that popped into Spencer's head. 'I shouldn't go but...'
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