...picks up 5 years after breaking dawn
prologue
No...No...No...This can't be right! "Jasper? I don't understand. why?" I searched for the only eyes that ever could calm but i couldn't find them. he slightly lifted his head but quickly put it back down. "Alice I cannot live this life anymore. I continuously struggle everyday and it has just become too much for me." I tried to disagree and tell him how proud I was of him and how much, not only I, but the whole family feels he has progressed over the years but he cut me off before I could even start. "please Alice... don't make this harder for me then it already is. I can't live with making you unhappy. you can tell me all the lies you want but your feelings are the one thing tat cannot lie and I feel how depressed I am making you all the time..." for the first time I took my eyes away from jasper and looked at the hooded figure behind him with his hand on my sweet Jazzys shoulder. " you! you did this didn't you? you had made it pretty obvious that you wanted me and Edward the last time we were here, but to use my Jasper-" he finally spoke for the first time since they met with me " oh Alice. such the fool. did 'your' Jasper happen to mention that he came to us?" I looked back to Jasper "Jazz? is that true?" he wouldn't even lift up his head. "you can at least look at me Jasper Whitlock!" he sighed but still wouldn't meet my eyes. "I cant disappoint you anymore...I've made my decision. this is my new home." I couldn't believe what he'd just said. "but Jasper...I love you, I need you! with everything thats happening with Bella... and now you?I'm not strong enough to deal with this on my own! Jasper please.." he finally looked up and i stared into his crimson red eyes and it was Aro who spoke now. "then join us young Alice and keep your love." I looked at the unrecognizable man that I loved with all my heart and soul and was completely torn. for the first time in my existence I didn't know if I could stay with Jasper...