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p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica; -webkit-text-stroke-width: initial; -webkit-text-stroke-color: #000000;"span style="font-kerning: none;"So… here I am in a place I never thought I would be. I am 23 years old and I have been through more shit than you would go through in the span of your life.. I think. As a kid, a little boy in fact, life was not the easiest for me. It all started out when I was 4 and got sick… my parentals -I say parentals I hope thats okay- learned that not only I had a severe case of the flu but I also had ovaries. Shocked was a TOTAL understatement. They were told I would go through puberty like a female would. Yano collecting a pair of boobs or whatever you like to call them but the extra package in between my legs would become more mature because girls go through puberty younger than males do and yada yada yada. I always considered myself someone who never would fit in because of my condition and my parents sure didn't help that either but they didn't want to change me. /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica; -webkit-text-stroke-width: initial; -webkit-text-stroke-color: #000000;"span style="font-kerning: none;"I went through life as a girl, interested in other girls. I never had a real relationship because of my extra package and I didn't want anyone to know. Besides my two best friends, Anya and Lincoln. We grew up together and as kids you really don't hold anything back, and boom, they knew. But they didn't care and they loved me for me and same way with their parents. They were definitely blindsided -go figure- but they didn't care. We went through high school together like the 3 musketeers and we swore we would take on the real world the same way. /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica; -webkit-text-stroke-width: initial; -webkit-text-stroke-color: #000000;"span style="font-kerning: none;"College came a lot quicker than we all expected. I Lexa Woods, got excepted to Dartmouth.. as well as Anya and Lincoln.. of course we were ecstatic to be going to a prestigious college together. I went for aeronautical engineering. Anya went for business and Lincoln went for pediatrics, which is a blessing bec…./span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica; -webkit-text-stroke-width: initial; -webkit-text-stroke-color: #000000;"span style="font-kerning: none;"strongem… "/em/strongshit, shit" sighing as I look back on the easier years of my life. Its crazy how fast life can throw a curveball when statistics say it's going the other way. As I'm looking through the rear view mirror I'm met with piercing green eyes that resemble mine and dark little curls I swore i'd never cut. Mom told me to not get him used to getting out of things just because he cries. And you know how thats working out.. its not. I pull over at the next stop and check on him. its been an hour since he's been out of his car seat. "Oliver.. my man we still have another two hours to go, so, I need you to flip the switch one more time!" He coos and babbles at me like I told him a joke. But what stops me stone cold is that little smile.. its her. I think my heart broke a little more. As if it wasn't already shattered. "Alright little man its time to go back in the car seat. We got a little while longer to go." I look and sound exhausted, I feel like hell, I got 10 pound bags under my eyes and all I want is to get to Anya's house.. I need to get to Anya's. /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica; -webkit-text-stroke-width: initial; -webkit-text-stroke-color: #000000;"span style="font-kerning: none;"30 minutes left until I finally arrive at Anya's thank god. "ughhh" I sigh. Looking back on Ollie and he's still asleep, luckily he looks like he's got another 2 hours before he's up and hungry. He's making the same face his mo…. /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica; -webkit-text-stroke-width: initial; -webkit-text-stroke-color: #000000;"span style="font-kerning: none;"*emPhone Ringing* /em/span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica; -webkit-text-stroke-width: initial; -webkit-text-stroke-color: #000000;"span style="font-kerning: none;"em"/emshit." I hiss out. "Anya I swear to the stars if he would have woke up, you would be on baby duty all night." I hear her chuckle in the background./span/p
p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica; -webkit-text-stroke-width: initial; -webkit-text-stroke-color: #000000;"span style="font-kerning: none;""Well someone has been on the road for far too long." She laughs out. /span/p
p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica; -webkit-text-stroke-width: initial; -webkit-text-stroke-color: #000000;"span style="font-kerning: none;""Do not start An.. im tired and I just need to be around someone that can hold a conversation without babbling every 2 seconds." Sighing out. Fuck I'm so tired. /span/p
p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica; -webkit-text-stroke-width: initial; -webkit-text-stroke-color: #000000;"span style="font-kerning: none;""It'll be okay Lex.. anywhoo I called to volunteer for baby duty anyway because I know you need the rest, and I miss my godson. We have a lot of things to do when you get here." /span/p
p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica; -webkit-text-stroke-width: initial; -webkit-text-stroke-color: #000000;"span style="font-kerning: none;"I don't know if I want to cry and rejoice or object… I love Ollie and he's all I have now and It is hard leaving him.. for the love of god I can't even go to the bathroom and take a minute for myself without worrying if he'll be okay. Then again I need this. I need to get myself together for him./span/p
p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica; -webkit-text-stroke-width: initial; -webkit-text-stroke-color: #000000;"span style="font-kerning: none;""Lex you still there?' /span/p
p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica; -webkit-text-stroke-width: initial; -webkit-text-stroke-color: #000000;"span style="font-kerning: none;""Yeah, sorry I was thinking.. would you really watch him for me?" I ask. I know she will but I don't want to just throw her into taking care of my 2 week old son. /span/p
p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica; -webkit-text-stroke-width: initial; -webkit-text-stroke-color: #000000;"span style="font-kerning: none;""EEEEEEEK' she screeches into the phone and I have to yank it away from my ear before it burst my ear drum. /span/p
p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica; -webkit-text-stroke-width: initial; -webkit-text-stroke-color: #000000;"span style="font-kerning: none;""Jesus Anya, excited much." I retort after that little stunt she just pulled. I'm surprised it didn't wake up Oliver. /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica; -webkit-text-stroke-width: initial; -webkit-text-stroke-color: #000000;"span style="font-kerning: none;"*emPhone hangs up*/em/span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica; -webkit-text-stroke-width: initial; -webkit-text-stroke-color: #000000;"span style="font-kerning: none;"I didn't even have time to turn off the car before my door was almost ripped off and I too was ripped out of the seat into An's arms. /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica; -webkit-text-stroke-width: initial; -webkit-text-stroke-color: #000000;"span style="font-kerning: none;""It's okay lex, it will be okay I promise. You guys stay as long as you need to." She husk out due to the fact she has me in a death grip and I'm not complaining.. but I do need to get out of it before I die and two, I start crying. I hate crying. /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica; -webkit-text-stroke-width: initial; -webkit-text-stroke-color: #000000;"span style="font-kerning: none;""Thanks An, im still looking at houses right now but I promise I won't burden you for much longer." I barely got out the last two words before a pair of hands were swatting me causing me to shriek and wake up Oliver. /span/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica; -webkit-text-stroke-width: initial; -webkit-text-stroke-color: #000000;"Now I wasn't the only one shrieking. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: Helvetica; -webkit-text-stroke-width: initial; -webkit-text-stroke-color: #000000; min-height: 13px;"I glare at Anya and she just waves me off and grabs him and starts to walk back in the house. As I'm walking back with her I cant help but hope this was the best decision i could make./p
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