Author: Wordless_angel
Email: wordless_angel @hotmail.com
Disclaimer: None of this is mine. No offence is meant to the creators and
no money is being made from this work.
WHO YOU ARE
I watched you lift piles of hay, throwing it over your shoulder. You once lifted us like that, throwing Max over her bed or practising hand to hand with Brin. I used to watch you do that to. Then you'd turn around and smile when you'd see my eyes on you. I was your shadow, a silent ghost.
You were always so strong. The big brother, the protector, the leader. You and Eva. I knew you were always so busy looking after the others, you'd forget about yourself. So I was your watcher, helping you out when you got into strife. Sometimes I'd wonder if you knew I was there. Other times I'd notice you glance over your shoulder in my direction. You'd smile, or you'd frown. But you felt me there.
Do you remember the time at Manticore when Lydecker punished you for helping Tinga complete a task? I searched for you while the others slept. When I found you, we sat all night together, not saying a word, just holding hands. Your hands were so much bigger than mine. I was always the smallest.
When you got caught robbing that house, I helped bust you out of prison. We fought so badly after that. You were mad at me for getting in your way. You said you didn't need my help. So I told you you'd never see me again but I'd always be there. You never knew, but I went away and cried.
When you first saw Max, you went and got yourself so drunk that I had to get you home. You knew how mad Jondy would be. You fell asleep with your head on my lap. When you awoke, you must have thought it was a dream. But it wasn't. I was sitting on your roof.
Or when you gave yourself up to save Max and they were taking you back to Manticore, I was the one flying the helicopter and when you escaped, I was hidden in the undergrowth, covering you.
I was with you when you went in with Max, Sly and Krit to take the place down. I stopped the X7's killing you completely. I watched you struggle for Max and I saw the gun at you head. Do you remember what you said to her? You told Max to fight. You asked her to promise. Then you stood straight, like a good solider, and your voice was clear.
"X5 599. I have a heart for you." I cried for you. You always said love was a weakness. Here you were, falling into that trap. Maybe you weren't the only one.
I helped you as best I could when you were out again. It wasn't hard. You didn't remember anything. You didn't remember how to hide or how to escape and evade. I watched you. All the time. When you began to remember, I was there. When Max took those memories away again, I was there. I hated her for that. I wanted you back. I wanted the Zack I knew back. It felt selfish, but I wanted it so bad it hurt.
The others deserted you when you forgot who you were. But I didn't. I was always there, and I always will be.
I can see you looking at me now. You'd tell me I was being silly to put my cover in jeopardy just to see you. Or you would, if you could remember. Something flickers in your eyes and you stare over at me, frowning in that way you do. Do you know who I am? Will you ever remember? Or will I always watch you struggle to find out who you are? With that, I can help.
You are X5 599, barcode no. 330417291599, date of birth, 02/06/97. You are Zack.
WHO YOU ARE
I watched you lift piles of hay, throwing it over your shoulder. You once lifted us like that, throwing Max over her bed or practising hand to hand with Brin. I used to watch you do that to. Then you'd turn around and smile when you'd see my eyes on you. I was your shadow, a silent ghost.
You were always so strong. The big brother, the protector, the leader. You and Eva. I knew you were always so busy looking after the others, you'd forget about yourself. So I was your watcher, helping you out when you got into strife. Sometimes I'd wonder if you knew I was there. Other times I'd notice you glance over your shoulder in my direction. You'd smile, or you'd frown. But you felt me there.
Do you remember the time at Manticore when Lydecker punished you for helping Tinga complete a task? I searched for you while the others slept. When I found you, we sat all night together, not saying a word, just holding hands. Your hands were so much bigger than mine. I was always the smallest.
When you got caught robbing that house, I helped bust you out of prison. We fought so badly after that. You were mad at me for getting in your way. You said you didn't need my help. So I told you you'd never see me again but I'd always be there. You never knew, but I went away and cried.
When you first saw Max, you went and got yourself so drunk that I had to get you home. You knew how mad Jondy would be. You fell asleep with your head on my lap. When you awoke, you must have thought it was a dream. But it wasn't. I was sitting on your roof.
Or when you gave yourself up to save Max and they were taking you back to Manticore, I was the one flying the helicopter and when you escaped, I was hidden in the undergrowth, covering you.
I was with you when you went in with Max, Sly and Krit to take the place down. I stopped the X7's killing you completely. I watched you struggle for Max and I saw the gun at you head. Do you remember what you said to her? You told Max to fight. You asked her to promise. Then you stood straight, like a good solider, and your voice was clear.
"X5 599. I have a heart for you." I cried for you. You always said love was a weakness. Here you were, falling into that trap. Maybe you weren't the only one.
I helped you as best I could when you were out again. It wasn't hard. You didn't remember anything. You didn't remember how to hide or how to escape and evade. I watched you. All the time. When you began to remember, I was there. When Max took those memories away again, I was there. I hated her for that. I wanted you back. I wanted the Zack I knew back. It felt selfish, but I wanted it so bad it hurt.
The others deserted you when you forgot who you were. But I didn't. I was always there, and I always will be.
I can see you looking at me now. You'd tell me I was being silly to put my cover in jeopardy just to see you. Or you would, if you could remember. Something flickers in your eyes and you stare over at me, frowning in that way you do. Do you know who I am? Will you ever remember? Or will I always watch you struggle to find out who you are? With that, I can help.
You are X5 599, barcode no. 330417291599, date of birth, 02/06/97. You are Zack.