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Thanks for clicking on my story. You ROCK! I thoroughly enjoyed writing this. I have read the Saga more times than I can count, and this was like hanging out with old friends.

I have always thought that being an aunt to Renesmee would not satisfy Rosalie. Her desire to be a mother was just too strong.

When I first posted this, it was crammed into one shot. I have split it into chapters and added a little more detail. I hope you like it.

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Chapter One - Bye Bye Baby

Sunday September 11, 2011 was a very sad day for me. You would think it was because of the Twin Towers and Pentagon tragedies, but no it was Ren's fifth birthday. Five years had flown by in the blink of a vampire's eye. She was a teenager physically and emotionally, but mentally she was eons older.

The family and a few others were gathered around watching her open presents. Everyone was so happy- everyone but me. Before the presents, we watched Renesmee pick at a piece of cake. Jacob and Seth devoured the rest. Charlie and his wife Sue had the 'wolf' party the day before, and I understand that there was a full out brawl for the last piece of cake. Seth was thrilled to be Bella's little brother, but Leah would not acknowledge any relation to a vampire. Some things never change.

Ren's love for Jacob had begun to change. Her body was maturing, and she was looking at him romantically. Jacob's feelings were not quite there yet - according to Edward. I have always believed that Renesmee surpassed Jacob's maturity level the day she was born. She was still very close to her mom, but her Aunt Rose was not as important as I was just a year ago. She had grown closer with Alice too. They were the best of friends. Alice helped her with her hair and make up, and they even wore the same size clothes now.

Alice had thrown a slumber party the night before- after the wolf party. Ren received a full makeover including a manicure and a pedicure. They giggled and played around like teenagers. Renesmee had taken to the girlie thing better than Bella ever had. I attended, but I could not really get into it.

I could not help but think back to the day that Ren was born, and the three days that Bella was changing. She was so tiny, and it was as she was mine. I could almost pretend that she was mine. She needed me then, and now not so much. A familiar ache overwhelmed my heart. Edward gave me a sympathetic smile. I could not read his mind as he could mine, but I knew he felt the same. Ren was withdrawing from him too. Jake was becoming her world.

Renesmee squealed with delight. Jacob had given her a ring. He had carved it out of wood-how novel. She immediately slipped it on her left ring finger and began showing everyone the intricate carving of a wolf running. I will never get used to that Mutt. A strained smile was on Edward's face. At least I was not the only one who had a problem with the 'ring'.

Alice jumped up and hugged her as she just was engaged. I almost gagged. A smile of pride was on Bella's face. Her mother was taking this better than I was. I wished I could take in stride, but Bella was always good at adjusting to any situation. That was not me. I wanted so much to get out of there. I needed to run, but I stayed where I was. I looked next to me and even Emmet was smiling-traitor.

I just had to endure a few more hours. Edward, Bella, Renesmee and Jacob would be on their way to the airport. They were traveling to South America to visit Zafrina and the Amazon Coven. Edward was not thrilled that Jacob was tagging along, and he fought it valiantly. Eventually Bella and Ren had worn him down.

"Thank you Aunt Rose," Renesmee said sweetly as she held up the bracelet I had given her, "It's beautiful"

"You're welcome Ren." I said softly as she moved on to the next gift.

She had not squealed over my gift. Her heartbeat had not even quickened like with Jacob's gift. Jealousy was not something I was supposed to be feeling unless it was from other people, but jealousy ruled my life now. Maybe it was karma? Everyone envied me in my human life, and what now it was my turn?

"Oh Alice!" Renesmee cried, "It's the dress I saw in Vogue. Where did you find it?"

"You know me!" Alice chimed.

This was too much. I needed a distraction. I was nearly finished with my Rally Car, and Emmet was chomping at the bit to try it out. That would not take too long. Maybe Emmet and I should get away too, but where to go that we have not been. I decided to do some research online after the party. The hours droned on and on.

I felt somewhat better when we saw the travelers off. Ren was wearing the bracelet that I had given her, and she gave me a super tight hug. If my eyes could produce tears, they would have been overflowing.

I made a hasty retreat to the garage for a little distraction. I hadn't been working long when Emmett joined me. He knew I was in a mood so he helped me silently. Emmett has always read me better than Edward ever could. Only cosmetic work was left to be done so we finished in no time.

"It is truly a masterpiece babe," Emmett said and wrapped his strong arms around me.

I only sighed and looked at our new toy. We stood in silence for a while. Me with my thoughts, and Emmett I assumed was considering where to try out the all terrain vehicle.

"What's the matter Angel?" Emmett asked softly proving me wrong, " You don't seem like yourself today."

"Ren doesn't need me anymore," I choked out.

"That's what I figured," he replied as he completely enveloped me, "Hey we could borrow one of that Octo-Mom's kids. I doubt she would even notice. So what do you think…boy or girl?"

"Be serious Em," I began quietly, "I know everyone hoped that taking care or my brother's baby would get this need out of my system, but it's come back ten fold. It is like I only had a taste of a 'singers' blood. I am in a frenzy now, and it hurts so much Em."

"Shhh," Emmett soothed, "It'll be okay. We'll figure something out."

"There's nothing to figure out. Every option would cause death to a human or wrath of the Volturi….not to mention disappointing Carlisle. It's hopless." I said quietly, "I now know why others have created immortal chil-"

"That's a hell of an idea!" Emmett interrupted.

"No!" I startled, " That's suicide!"

"I know babe," Emmett said smiling, "I was just testing you."

"I would never put the family in danger the way my brother did," I replied coldly.

"That's harsh," He scolded.

"No it's not," I defended, "He got everything I ever wanted."

"You don't mean that Rose," Emmett said sounding a little hurt.

"I'm sorry Em-bear," I sighed and looked up into his eyes, "You're right. If it weren't for you, I would have lost it long ago. How did I get so lucky?"

"Speaking of getting lucky," Emmett grinned and wagged his eyebrows, "You need to take your mind off things. Let's take your magnum opus out for a test drive on the jeep trails, and we can find a secluded place to clear some timber."

"You know just what I need," I said seductively, "You can drive first."

"Hell yeah!" He said his eyes lighting up.

When we got back, I was feeling better. It lasted all of about a minute. The sun was coming up, and the big white house was too quiet. I would usually be hearing Ren's birdlike heartbeat. Over the last five years, I had become attuned to all of her sounds. There was vast empty space inside my heart that threatened to swallow me. We needed to get away.

I made a b-line for the closest computer. I clicked on the favorites list intending to find a suitable search engine, but another favorite caught my eye. Renesmee had saved an ancestry site in the list. She had been asking every one of us questions about our human lives over the past few weeks. Out of curiosity, I clicked on the link. Her account was signed on.

Ren could be a historian. There were trees for everyone. I clicked on Emmett's first. The McCarty Clan was huge. Em's parents had dozens of grandchildren and great-grandchildren. There were even a few great-great-grandchildren. One of Emmett's brothers named his son after him. I don't know how she got them but there even a few photos.

I looked at my tree next even though I was not sure I wanted to. I went backwards first. She had traced my family all the way back to the colonists, which I found very interesting. My 14th great grandfather was John Hale of Salem. He was an influential clergyman during the witch trials.

I then looked at my branch. It was surreal looking at my human life that way. There were dozens of newspaper articles about my disappearance and Royce's murder. Some I had seen long ago, but many of them I had not. Most of the theories were that it was someone who had a grudge at Royce or the King family. One of the stories had an old grainy photograph of me. I stared at my human face for so long that the screen saver came on.

I moved the mouse, and moved on to my brothers' families. My brother Joseph had never married and had no children. He had passed away from a heart attack in the fall of 1977 at the age of 60. My youngest brother David had married late in life and had two boys. One son had passed away in his teens. The other son had married and had one child. A daughter named Rosalie. I had to look twice to see if I was reading it correctly. Then if I could have gotten goose bumps, I would have. My great niece was born on my birthday in 1991. We shared a name and birth date.

I tried to remember my human life, and if I had been close to David. The memories were too muddy and confusing. Why would my brother's only grandchild be named after me? I looked more closely at my brother's information. He was still alive and living in Helena Montana. I noticed he and his wife were married there in the mid-nineteen sixties. I wondered why he left Rochester.

I had so many questions, and most importantly, I had found my distraction. Montana was not far from Forks. They had mountains, which meant many jeep trails and plenty of bears for Emmett.