Being around Doumeki scares Watanuki.
Doumeki is always around him, that stupid jerk interrupting his time with Himawari-chan. He's always scarfing down the food Watanuki works so hard to make too. Does that jerk even taste it? Not that Watanuki cares, why should he care weather or not that guy realizes just how hard Watanuki works to make those meals perfect. Watanuki isn't trying to make it perfect for him after all, it's just the principle of thing. Watanuki would never serve anything short of perfect food, it's got absolutely nothing to do with Doumeki. He doesn't care if Doumeki appreciates the food after all. Of course Watanuki doesn't care, he only makes them for Doumeki to pay him back for helping Watanuki all the time.
Not that Watanuki wants his help.
He's just always there, with that stupid bow of his (Watanuki doesn't see why so many girls swoon over Doumeki, so what if he's really good at archery. He doesn't look that cool, he's just shooting a stupid arrow, even if the string is really tight and hard to pull back. It's not that great, really). He's always just there protecting Watanuki, getting himself hurt in the process. Does that guy even think before he does it? Of course he doesn't because he's Doumeki, stupid overprotective Doumeki. Watanuki is not some little kid damn it! He can take care of himself, he's been taking care of himself for years, long before Doumeki butted his way into Watanuki's life. Stupid Doumeki, always getting hurt protecting Watanuki.
Not that Watanuki cares, because he doesn't. Why should he care if Doumeki is always there keeping the spirits away. It's not like it reminds Watanuki of when his mother used to keep away the nightmares when he was little. It doesn't feel anything like that at all. Except maybe it does feel like that a little, but it can't. It can't feel like it did when his dad used to cook him his favorite dinner after a bad day. Being around Doumeki can't feel like that because nothing has felt like that since his parents died. So Watanuki yells, and flails at Doumeki because that's what the warmth is, anger. It has to be anger because Watanuki hasn't felt like that since his parents died. So it's anger that Watanuki feels when he's around Doumeki because being around Doumeki can't feel like that, he's Doumeki. Doumeki; who is a stupid arrogant jerk, who always interrupts his time with Himawari-chan and who eats the food Watanuki makes for him so fast that there's no way Doumeki could possibly have tasted it. Doumeki, who is always saving him and getting hurt so that Watanuki doesn't. Stupid Doumeki, he always does stupid things, so Watanuki just has to yell at Doumeki for them. It isn't because Watanuki was worried about him or that seeing Doumeki hurt makes Watanuki's chest tighten up painfully, so that its hard to breathe, and it feels like there is a huge weight in the pit of his stomach. Watanuki doesn't yell at him because of that, nope, not because of that at all. He's just stupid annoying Doumeki. Doumeki, who gives Watanuki half of his eye (and thinking about that doesn't make him get a fluter feeling in his stomach or make his face feel warm, it doesn't, not at all, really) and his blood too. Watanuki hates Doumeki. They're not even really friends, acquaintances maybe, rivals even, but they're not friends. Watanuki doesn't care about Doumeki, so Doumeki can't make him feel like that. He can't make Watanuki feel warm the way his mother's smiles used to. That blank stupid face shouldn't make him feel anything but annoyed.
But maybe it does, just a little bit, or maybe a lot.
Doumeki feels like home, and that scares Watanuki more than any spirit ever has.